life must go on

T.T

2011-12-14T21:12:00.002+08:00

I have no idea why but I am feeling kinda sad leaving this freezer. I was sad leaving Inverness, and now even before actually leaving, I already miss Aberdeen. Gosh, what's with this roller coaster ride emotions??!!!

ARGH!!! My limbic system is so screwed up!

Post Mock Exam

2011-12-14T16:54:00.003+08:00

What I would like to stress here is that I did not study for the mock exam and hence I have no expectation what so ever and hence the carefree attitude now. More over, I'm leaving to KL in another 7 hours time and what have I done so far?

The weekend before exam, I was watching The Mentalist season 3 and 4 and read lots of manga. Started flipping through the notes 6 hours before the exam. Came home after the written exam and was pumped up for the OSCE the next day but succumbed to the temptation of The Mentalist and manga so I prepared for my OSCE 4 hours before the exam.

After the exam, another episode of The Mentalist, packed my bag and was stranded at the train station because a tree fell and all the trains were cancelled. Thankfully after waiting for 1 hour, with the crazy cold strong wind and proper heavy rain, I could not feel my fingers but finally a bus was prepared for us. I had bus sick again and was sick a few times =(

Reached Aberdeen 4 hours later and took a cab to Jenan's place for an early Christmas dinner. Had lots of fun and laughter, left at 10ish, went home and unpacked, washed clothes, pack luggage for home and watched more The Mentalist, Skyped, Glee and manga.

It's 9am and I have not slept throughout the night and I am prepared to sleep in the airplane and hopefully, no plane cancelled.

See you guys back at KL soon =)

Oh I forgot to mention, I miss Inverness and my groupmates =(

1st snow and 1st foot injury week

2011-11-26T13:34:00.004+08:00

I'm terribly sorry for not being as active as I should be here but this is one of my attempts to correct it.

Anyway, it snowed yesterday!!
It was dark and raining when I walked to the hospital at 8.30am, then at the start of ward round, the consultant announced loudly to the patient 'Good morning, 1st patient for the ward round and it's snowing outside.'

After that, I was looking at the window the whole time. Ward round? What ward round?

After about 10 minutes, the snow turned to rain again.

I shall make sure when it shows again, I'll be dashing out and touch it for MY FIRST TIME!!! Wheee....

On the unfortunate 23/11/11, I woke up from the study table in this hospital ghetto and transferred myself to my bed BUT I think my feet were numb and was sleeping as well. I fell in a very very awkward way.

Woke up few hours later with this shooting pain at my right foot and I could not move it at all!!! Got down from my bed and fell on the ground. COULD not stand at all

T.T

I panic!!! For my past 18-20 years of dancing career, I've never succumbed to any foot injury and my 1st foot injury is falling in a room half asleeply. GREAT, such a boost to my dancing career history.

Anyway, after panic much (got to go for ward round in another few hours!), I emailed my friend who we keep in touch everyday by mail and thank god I received the reply 5 minutes later. Was reminded the existence of 'ICE' so I dragged myself to the kitchen, put some water in a cup and let it sit in the freezer, then I dragged myself to my room and put cold tower on the injury.

After the whole thing, my foot became-

UGH!!! Fat and ugly =(

Shoes were tighter and I mastered the antalgic gait!

But yesterday night (25/11/11), I realised my right foot (the uninjured side) is getting shooting pain due to the extra pressure and weight it has been carrying for the past few days and while bathing I noticed my left calf is bigger than the right foot!!! WOW!!!! Great =(

End Of Psych

2011-11-12T14:45:00.002+08:00

It's been a week past my Psychiatry Block. Boy was I depressed when it ended.

After that horrific 1st week, things settled and I really really enjoyed myself and learned a lot. I did a mistake by telling one of my consultant that I....if you know me well enough, you'll know what I'm not saying here. Anyway, he took the effort to tell the whole team and since then, everyone in the team would start asking me 'I heard that you're interested in Psychiatry.'

Well, I was praised quite a few times and it just made my day (the other consultant gave me positive comments and even added, 'if you need a recommendation letter, come find me')!!!! and this same consultant asked me after seeing my handwriting- 'Do you ave OCPD?'

So I took the time reading up personality disorder and I realised that I might have OCPD!!

OCPD is characterized by at least three of the following:

feelings of excessive doubt and caution;
preoccupation with details, rules, lists, order, organization or schedule;
perfectionism that interferes with task completion;
excessive conscientiousness, scrupulousness, and undue preoccupation with productivity to the exclusion of pleasure and interpersonal relationships;
excessive pedantry and adherence to social conventions;
rigidity and stubbornness;
unreasonable insistence by the individual that others submit exactly to his or her way of doing things, or unreasonable reluctance to allow others to do things;
intrusion of insistent and unwelcome thoughts or impulses.

Read through and tell me what do you think. Agree that I have some sort of OCPD trait? (I'm not so much of number 7 though, toned down a lot.)

So how did I end my last day of Psych? A trip to Aviemore with one of my consultant!!! The whole 45min -1 hour journey, we were talking non stop. Fine, he was talking to me non stop after I feed him with my ideas/ questions/ understanding about stuff. It was so fun!!

One of the highlight of the journey was me asking

'Do you psychoanalyse your friends?'

and his answer was.....

'Oh you mean the women I date?'

(I was thinking to myself, do I want to go there??!!! It was just an innocent question of a daily life, NOT personal life!)

Anyway, he did spill the beans about the women he dated hahahaha.....fun stuff!!!

One of the questions in the feedback form was 'how much time did you spend with your consultant?'

My friends answers were like 'a few times a week' while mine was 'almost everyday' LOL!!!! Well, you can't blame me since I was attached to 2 consultants while the others were attached to one!!!

Oh, remember from my last post that I was depressed and all the fun stuff? On Monday of my 2nd week of Psych, I talked to the Psych registrar and I totally felt better. Yup, I owned up the fact that I was lost and felt miserable and depressed since I came to this place. I guess it's either he psycho me or I felt better after confessing (shoo away the denial!) then I spoke to another registrar about it on the way home (he was kind enough to offer me a ride home, save my bus fare wheee) .

Wow, I know right??!! How in the world could I open up so easily? Maybe because I felt better and didn't think it was a big deal. I also told my consultant about my 'depression' during the long trip and he was like 'oh gosh, are you alright now?' Sweet~~ Hahahahaha....

In a nutshell, I really really like Psych and I miss it so much especially since I'm in the wards again and it's so different!! But after a week of cardiology, psych seems like a far away memory. A memory that I would cherish and treasure =)

Psychiatry

2011-10-22T06:09:00.003+08:00

Well I just finished my 1st week of Psychiatry and boy am I lost.

Since I came to Inverness, things haven't been smooth for me. I could not focus on my studies, memory as bad as a goldfish, always feel so lost in the wards, don't feel settled in at all and I feel lonely most of the time.

Yes I do admit that I like to be alone (thanks to IMU for the training =.="') but Inverness is just not letting me enjoy my solitary.

Well if you have been checking FB, you might have glimpsed my status on Wednesday. I sat in with my consultant for his outpatient clinic and for the last patient, he wanted to speak to the consultant privately so the consultant asked me to wait at the library and he'll get me later. So I waited patiently from 3ish till 5ish and he didn't appear. I remembered that it's a 9-5 job so I went to his room and knocked on the door.

No sound. Tried to open the door, it was locked.

T.T

He left me....

Phone no battery...

Group mates left by 12pm...

Jacket was not thick enough for the cold cold freezing weather...

I got to wait for the bus...

I lost my pen and my favourite mechanical pencil...

T.T

Totally not my day....felt so abandoned...felt so lonely...felt like I am at the wrong place studying the wrong course...

Haih......

Hope things will be better soon...

And life MUST go on no matter what so can't give up!!!!

My Neighbour Totoro

2011-10-14T21:38:00.004+08:00

I just finished watching this movie, My Neighbour Totoro (I'll continue studying soon =P) and it's so touching.

There's quite a few scenes in this movie which was made in 1988 that reminds me of Spirited Away =)

Well duh since it's made and produced by Studio Ghibli, written and directed by the famous Hayao Miyaki. Can't stop myself from announcing, I just love his movies!!

This reminds me of another touching sad movie- Grave of the Fireflies.

T.T

Both this movies are based around the Japan war and you just got to watch and experience it yourself.

I love Japanese movies because it always hit the right spot and just moves me to tears. And of course the music, definitely fit the scenarios all the time. I wonder how the Japanese do it...

Aaaahhhh, I miss playing the Japanese songs back at band times. Totally love playing them... Dang, now I miss my band life....

For this movie, I envy how the sisters are so close. I know my relationship with my siblings is far from this 'normal' but since I left home, I do think that I am closer to them in a way. I guess the phrase 'distance makes the heart grow fonder' can be applied here but it's so weird because usually it's used in a boy-girlfriend scenario.

Eeuuuwwww.....

Anyway, the bottomline- I just love Japanese movies =)

My Birthday Surprise =)

2011-09-18T18:25:00.006+08:00

My birthday was another normal day because hid my date of birth at FB and made sure I didn't announce it at Skype or other places but my fellow friends here still discovered that it was my birthday at around 3ish 4pm =P

One of them who is in my group and hence was with me in the theater, watching the fundoplication, could not stop sms-ing around that 3ish 4pm and when I noticed it, my 6th sense just went crazy and 'they've discovered it??!!' thought was floating in and out of my mind. BUT I didn't want to expect anything so that I won't get disappointed in case it turns out to be a false alarm so I just kept my thoughts to myself.

Anyway, this friend of my insisted to drive me home but I stubbornly refused and even thought of making a detour and hang out at another place (wards maybe LOL) because I just didn't want to go home in case they have a birthday surprise for me or something somewhere. I don't know why, I was just being difficult. Bitch I know.

So I walked extra slow home (usually takes me less than 10 min to reach home but I think I took about 15-20min that evening) and I saw my friend's car parked outside my house. GREAT....

So I went home and after unlocking my main door, the 1st thing I checked was shoes LOL... Then my house mate who was at the living room was standing and looking at me innocently. BUT I noticed my stuff on the table was stacked up ON MY LAPTOP??!!!!!!! Very very suspicious.

Anyway, I just stood in front of my door and refused to go near the living room so my house mate asked me why am I still at the door and asked me to go over there but as you know, I just stood there and smiled and then I saw some shadow moving at one side and Jodie jumped out and said 'hap hahaha bir..hahahahaha' then the whole group appeared.

HAHAHAHA.....

Jodie who was also in my group who didn't go to the hospital because she was lazy? was the one who discovered that it might be my b'day because I think she saw people wishing me at FB and she also realised that during the game at the moon cake festival, when we need to line up according to birth month, I queued as Sept. So she called Thamarai, my friend at Edinburgh to confirm. She also asked Cheryl to check too so Cheryl actually went through all my wall messages till my 21st b'day but she was still not very convinced so she called my house mate to confirm.

My house mate was not supposed to know too!!! My mom and dad called me at 12am KL time to wish me through Skype and so happen, my house mate was beside me hence she found out too. So Cheryl and Jodie called everyone to my house and they even managed to cook some food! Jodie did her pasta (I just love all her pasta!!!), Cheryl cooked minced pork with potato, rice and vege and Janice cooked curry chicken. My house mate went and bought 2 cakes LOL....

Happy =)

My chocolate and toffee flavoured birthday cakes

Me and my 2 birthday cakes =)

See how my stuff are stacked on my laptop beside the choc cake?

The lovely girls who took the time to come and celebrate with me even though it's a Tuesday =)

What do we have here?

The food =)

So coincidental that everyone was wearing dark colour =)

After food, everyone was talking and laughing =)

My house maid, I mean mate and the girl who insisted in driving me home but parked the car at the place where she thought I won't see but actually it's the place I cross to get home LOL

Thank you so much!!!!

I guess after giving every birthday girl/boy a birthday surprise since we came here, the surprise element is gone LOL...

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I don't know why but for this Paediatric Block, I really can't fathom why am I being so lazy and demotivated. I sit in front of my laptop and read up whatever that I saw at the ward but the next day when the consultant or registrars ask questions on the topics that I actually spent time reading, my mind just go blank and I keep hearing myself asking me in my head that 'I just read it yesterday but why is it that I can't remember anything??!!!'

This is just so sad.....

T.T

New friend

2011-09-02T03:22:00.002+08:00

Today, like the past few days, Paeds have been quite quiet so JY and I ended up having lots of laugh with this 5th year medical student. He is from Aberdeen and since morning, we were teasing each other and cracking jokes and I totally enjoyed his company. The registrar also took some time and gave us a good teaching. Today was just the day of the week. I actually laughed till I teared. It's been so long since I did that. Fun =)

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Come to think of it, before I came here I was stalking senior's blogs to find out about this place and get as much info about it as possible. It just dawned onto me that I haven't been helpful to those who are doing the same, I totally did not write anything about the hospital, the teaching or anything of those sort. Blimey, sorry peeps....=P

emails + Korean drama

2011-08-28T18:18:00.005+08:00

I have been exchanging emails with a couple of friends but there is this one friend who I will reply everyday.

I would say we are close but come to think of it, we were not very very close when I was around him.

Anyway, the things we tell each other are what we will talk about when we are together.

But recently, I feel that we are getting closer to the point that I feel so weird yet happy when I read the stuff that are written in the email.

I was just sharing how happy I was to have Nandos after months of not eating meat and the reply I got was

YOU NO EAT MORE MEAT.....I DONT WANT YOU

Isn't it funny?? Hahaha...I never expected to end up having such close friend when I'm so far away =)

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Did stupid stuff this week...

Watched Scent of a Woman

till 3am in the morning on a WEDNESDAY and had exam which I haven't study for on FRIDAY. This is so not me right??

Then on Saturday, watched Playful Kiss

for 20 hours straight....till 5am...

Now I got to get back my study mood to prepare for the next block- Paediatric which IMU did not prepare us at all...die...

I don't even have the habit to watch Korean dramas, thanks to my housemate who on her laptop so loudly when I was sitting beside her, making me watch with her and end up starting from the beginning myself...ISH!!

Sick of me

2011-08-15T03:41:00.003+08:00

Yes, I am sick of who I am now.

Keep watching series.

Not studying as much as I should.

Keep eating and getting fat.

Lost my sense of priority.

No discipline at all.

When was the last time I got that ohmph to study? 1 year ago?

Just hate this lazy procrastinating me.

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When was the last time I feel like I need someone?

When was the last time I feel lonely?

When was the last time I admit that I really like someone?

When was the last time I miss someone so much that I feel like running?

When was the last time I feel deeply happy?

Truthfully? I don't think any of those above REALLY HONESTLY happened.

I think I am emotionless...

Am I broken inside?

worked for 14.5 hours

2011-08-10T05:33:00.002+08:00

Reached Maternity Hospital at 7.30am. I was assigned for theater today, so off I went and changed to greens/ scrubs and went to the theater.

Basically, I watched 3 elective Caesarean Section and 1 emergency C-section, scrubbed in for the last 3 surgery and delivered/ pulled out the placenta twice and for the last surgery, I was allowed to do the Aberdeen knot LOL!! Thanks to the great surgeon =)

The midwives and nurses were so nice to me too =)

I heard horror stories about them from my friend yesterday who was assigned to theater. Luckily they were nice to me.

Theater list finished by 6.30pm and I didn't feel like going home just yet so I popped into a room after the surgeon told me one of the patient is fully dilated. I thought it was gonna be fast since she is fully dilated but oh boy, I was so wrong. She finally start to push at 8.15pm and the baby was out only at 9.10pm! Placenta out at 9.20pm and helped the midwife around and by 10pm, I realised I really need to leave so off I went home.

Stood from 7.30am till 10pm, no lunch, no dinner. I am exhausted.

But very productive day =)

Facebook status

2011-08-07T21:19:00.002+08:00

I am feeling so annoyed, so here I am releasing it before I say or do something stupid like hurt other people's feelings.

What do you make out of this facebook status:

'I am missing you darling'

When you hell know this person is single and has no partner. Dang, this status is so freaking pathetic.

Hey you, you don't need to go around posting all these nonsense statuses to attract freaking pitiful attention ok? Get a freaking life or blardy go seduce a guy to be your boyfriend or something. Dang, so freaking contemptible and worthless statement to get stupid attention.

Another thing that just piss me off is people who goes around telling others what they are doing or plan to do which are normal daily stuff, nothing special like:

'Oh, I'm going to wash my hair today'

Duh, as if you wash your hair like once in 100 years. Freaking just wash your blardy hair and stay out of facebook status will ya? We have better things to read.

Sometimes, these statuses just annoy the hell out of me and I wonder why in the world or what were they thinking when they post such useless stuff.

I don't know why when I saw that status, I just got so pissed off. I wanted to comment but I stopped myself and I did something more respectful, I FB chat and asked her why is she putting such status and the reply I got was 'for fun'.

Oooo...it was at the tip of my nerve to start typing 'you know, it's so pathetic to see you posting all these nonsense irritating crappy status to prove that you have a miserable life. Oh wait, you DON'T have a freaking life. So my advice to you, take it or leave it, go get a life.'

Bitchy? You bet.

watch and steam and DL movie day =)

2011-07-22T01:48:00.002+08:00

So what have I been doing since I have my internet. Well, watch/ stream/ download movies!!!

So far, I've downloaded old movies that I've missed at the cinema such as

13.

And I've streamed

and while I stream these movies, I enjoy my

Ben & Jerry Chocolate Fudge Brownie

and

Caramel shortcake bites

and

I know, fattening and unhealthy but oh well....

I'm back!!!

2011-07-21T01:36:00.003+08:00

Yes, I have home internet already and the best thing is I have 5 pounds off for this month's line rental and my landline activation fee is waived!!! Yes...FOC!!! I can save 100 pounds now =)

So where did I spend? On junk, wait, not exactly junk but important vital fattening junk stuff like this 50% discounted Ben & Jerry Ice-cream!!

Normally it's 4.49 pounds and now it's 2.24 pounds and its almost the same price as US price. Come on, tell me this is so worth it!!! Hence I bought 2 tubs. Previous promotion was Haagen Dazs ice cream, also 50% discount and I already finish 1pint (500ml) in 2 days (have another one in my freezer). Ya, call me FAT, I don't freaking CARE =P

I am extremely tired because I have been walking from 9am to 5pm. Yes, 7 hours on the road (minus 1 hour because had lunch at Nandos which cost me 7.42pounds, around RM36 but I was stuffed so it was also worth it) because I had to walked to town twice to settle my council tax thingy.

Having throbbing headache which I blame it on the wind and dehydration.

Ok, I shall make full use of my internet and watch DRAMAsssss!!! Hehehe, bringing laptop to my king size bed, lying under my duvet (a soft flat bag which contains down or feather and acts as blanket) and relax.

This reminds me of the movie which I watched last night, 'The Day After Tomorrow' (I know it's old) and one of the 1st few to die are the royals from Scotland when they were flying from the Balmoral Castle. Wow, if the ice age thing is happening, I'm sure I'll be the 1st few to die since I am so way up North. Right, should not go into such gloomy scenario since it's 8pm and it's still so sunny. Light up Jene!

Right, back to the plan of bed + laptop + drama =)

Enjoy~~

Random Irish Guy...

2011-07-11T07:27:00.002+08:00

I went to Edinburgh to meet Thama and to visit Edinburgh so on Saturday, we were walking on the street when suddenly a tall big guy just came up to me, HUGGED me then suddenly he bend down and CARRIED me!!!! I was shock and my other 3 friends just stood and watched and even managed to snap picture =.="'

He carried me away from my friends and to another corner then suddenly cradled me and asked me where am I from etc.....

SCARY

T.T

update

2011-07-08T18:13:00.004+08:00

Hello, typing this from the computer lab in uni.

So far so good, standard answer for all those who ask me how am I.

Love the house, will be alone for this month. My housemate will join me by August.

Today is the last day for my block then I'll be having 2 weeks break where I'll seriously switch on my study mode. Feel so stupid recently because when I see something, I know I should know but my brain goes blank =(

Later going to Edinburgh to meet Thamarai for the weekend and my landlady is gonna fix up the curtains at the kitchen for me =)

Yup, so far so good... =)

Having my formative assessment in a form of presentation in another 3 hours...sien...

I SCRUBBED IN!!!

2011-06-25T12:38:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was my last day for GI Surgery and I ended it with a bang!!

Morning, the surgeon tutor didn't ask me a lot of questions. He targeted another local because most of the questions were their history. I know, funny that we are having tutorials on surgical stuff, he went and talked about the British PM. Well, it was related coz it was bout him having a cholecystectomy and the complication he went through. The funny part was when he asked the locals bout this PM, he looked at me and say "ah, you won't know this" LOL!!!!

Then went for ward round and got to know one of the registra is doing a subtotal colectomy (removal of large colon) so I was 'CAN I TAG YOU?!!'. Well I was kinda close to him and he was kinda funny and friendly so I was not having the speak-formally-to-him attitude. LOL

Anyway, went to theater and kinda got lost because he said it was either theater 9 or 12 and I didn't see him in any of the 2! So I was contemplating whether to leave and go back wards or stay then I saw one of the other registra who is from my ward so I quickly asked him and he say he's heading to it now so I followed.

There is this other girl who is in ward 32 but don't know why in MY Ward 31 and there she was in the theater. Stood beside her and then the registra asked "I need a medical student to scrub in" so I just went quickly and just realised I don't know the real procedure to scrub in so I just followed the girl who came in later blindly LOL..

Anyway, the surgeon came in and he was like 'ah, 2 medical student scrubbing in?' OK, You (me) stand here (in between the patient's legs) and you (that girl) beside the registra. 'Jene, Come closer, touch the patient!!' said the surgeon and I was really REALLY close!! So I got to see everything done in front of me!!!!! I saw how the registra cut the layers of skin and fats and finally saw the small intestine peristalsis-ing and then they started searching for the large colon and......

Just to cut the long story short, I got to push the small intestines to one side while they searched for the splenic flexure, then retract the patient's skin while they searched for the rectum and finally hold the resected large colon. It was squishy and filled with feces (can feel like got mass in it and can see it was dark colour through the mucosa of the large colon). It was just the way to end my GI Surgery block!

Went into the theater room dry and clean and after the surgery, wet and red with blood LOL!!!

Next went for tutorials (late for 1 hour LOL) and did my last IV Cannula before I left.

(just found out that I left my notebook (full with notes) and my OHCM at the ward. Hope it won't get lost!!)

Going to move to my new house in another 4 hours and I won't have internet for the next 4-5 weeks =(

So byeeeee.....

Not I perasan!!

2011-06-23T05:29:00.003+08:00

Seriously, today was just too obvious.

The surgeon kept asking questions and ALWAYS point at me expecting me to answer. Even though my head was down looking at my paper, busy jotting down notes, he'll make some noise to attract my attention and ask me the question.

Even the girl who was sitting beside me realised too!!

Jeez....

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It's summer and it's cold, wet and damp. Everyday, it's drizzling or sprinkling. Today's rain was quite heavy and the wind was horrible!! My whole anterior part of my pants were soaked and I was feeling so cold!!

Grrr.....

So far...updates

2011-06-15T03:52:00.002+08:00

This is my 2nd week of my 1st block. Last week I was in Nephrology department and this week I'm in GI Surgery ward.

Nephrology ward was great because Dr. Millar was so nice and so eager to teach and he's so funny and I miss him =(

GI Surgery ward is OK thanks to the FY1 (houseman) that are ex-IMUians and whom I know after the senior junior party. Justine (another J senior LOL!) is in my ward and Fabian is in the next ward so he occasionally come over and talk to us.

Anyway, I've been helping Justine with her work aka I was acting like a FY1. Clerk patient, do examination, write report then take blood and do ECG. All on my own mind you!!

So far, yesterday (1st day in this ward) I saw 3 patients and took their blood successfully. ALL 3 TIMES on my FIRST DAY on MY OWN!!! So proud =)

Luckily I read thru my ECG before going to the hospital so when I first arrived at the ward and after putting my bag down, Justine saw me and she went "you wanna do ECG??" I went "of course! But I've never done it though" So she talked me thru at the residents room and I pushed the ECG cart to the patient's bed and started my day =)

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Now under stress during tutorials because this surgeon who gives the tutorial likes to ask me question after I kinda managed to answer a question the locals couldn't on our 1st day. After I answered that question, he went ''did you do your basic science in M'sia?'

Later, a senior told me he likes IMU students because we know more and since then, any difficult questions, he'll point to me and ask me!!

This morning, one of his powerpoint slides mentioned cholangiocarcinoma and he pointed to me (again) and ask me what is it. This was not stressful but he added 'IF YOU CAN'T ANSWER, I WILL BE SO DISAPPOINTED!!'

Omg.....I was stunned and err...STRESS!!!!!

But so far, everything is fine =)

Saw 2 surgeries today - fundoplication and hiatus hernia repair & adrenalectomy (both done laparoscopically).

Drunk during initiation

2011-06-03T06:59:00.007+08:00

I had my presentation yesterday morning and I did OK I guess. Anyway, my group mates and I went to a pub for a small celebration. Nicos let me try his ginger beer and I thought it was nice so I got one for myself.

It was so sunny (24 degrees!!! Normally it's 6-10 degrees so it really was a nice sunny day) and we sat outside of the pub under the sun. I was not tipsy nor drunk, just red like usual then my friend got me another pint of cider and after that, things just went out of control.

I got so tipsy.

I lost all my balance even when I was still sitting.

I was like floating and I could not walk straight.

Got to rely on things around me to walk.

I WhatsApp my mom telling her 'ma, I'm drunk' =P

My friend who sat beside me keep pushing me asking me to go home but the more she pushed me, the more I felt nauseous so I went to the toilet and puked. Then I came back and drank some water and puked again.

The other locals who are my batch mates too (I think) keep saying 'welcome to Scotland' =P

They were very very nice because they let me taste their liquor and was telling me it's ok to be drunk and Ewen (my another group mate) was reassuring me that as long as I am not dancing and singing on the table, I am alright LOL. More batch mates came and joined us and they met me in my tipsy state, so embarrassing but they keep saying it's alright and keep asking me to have a soft (coke or smth) or water and Nicos eventually got the water for me.

Just a few pictures taken with my new toy =P

My group mate who is from Aberdeen

Nicos and Janice. Nicos is the friend who's from Cyprus

The pub

The pub is called the old school house and standing there was a new friend

My 1st ginger beer (4% alcohol)

The 2 friends who were so nice

The other group mate who has PhD in philosophy =)

He had 5 pints of beer!!!

The ginger beer bottle

See how red my cheeks were!!

My 2nd pint of alcohol but I had cider instead of beer

The amount of alcohol all of us had

The friend who made me nauseous. She got drunk with her 1st pint of cider and see how drunk she looked!

My SSM group mates =)

Aileen was missing because she went for work.

I managed to walk home with the help of Nicos and the moment I went into my room, I slept for 1 hour. I know my phone was ringing but I was too tired and tipsy to move. Anyway, woke up feeling better but still tipsy and giddy and puked one more time to make myself feel better.

I didn't have anything to eat the whole day hence drank with an empty stomach and got tipsy so easily.

Half an hour after I woke up, I forced myself to join the other malaysians for dinner to celebrate someone's birthday. I bathed and changed and went to Frankie & Benny's with them and had dinner.

My head now is still throbbing and pounding but besides that, I am ok =)

Tomorrow going for party with Aileen and Nicos at night. I think they're bringing me for clubbing whee~~

My New TOY!!!

2011-06-02T03:03:00.006+08:00

Yes, my new toy (that's what the older J bro called it) is out from it's box =P

Got the phone on 4/5/11

Got the cover that I bought from Amazon on 12/5/11

Got the phone out from the box on 30/5/11

Got it jailbreaked by the senior (young J), got another senior who's also a Dr.J to stick my screen protector and another senior (T) to download a lot of stuff in it =P

Oh ya I got another 2 covers. 1 genuine leather flip cover and one free transparent plastic cover from the older J brother =)

The best part is, my contract is not 24 months but 21 months and instead of paying 159 pounds for the phone, I paid 69 pounds only =)

Thank you so much older J bro aka Dr.J (he seriously don't like me calling him Dr)!! =]

I went and downloaded a lot of games and currently addicted to Jump and Fly.

I got to let the fly jump up as high as he can by jumping on the clouds and board and score points by moving and tilting my phone around LOL...FUN!!!

Sunday out

2011-05-30T04:52:00.002+08:00

This morning I went to church just for fun and it was a weird session for me. There were lots of singing and talking and more singing. It was awkward in the beginning but after a while, I got transfixed with the drum set. Instead of singing along, I was trying to catch the tempo and the style of the drummer. It lasted for 2 hours and the bible talking part was interesting at the start but I started to feel sleepy so I went and observe my surroundings.

Next, went for lunch with seniors and spent 10.90! But it was kinda worth it because it felt like having dimsum buffet LOL and tomorrow I might be able to start using my new phone because the older J might be having a day off since he's gonna be a locum tonight =)

Then went shopping with the girls. I just accompanied them but it was fun. This is one of my 1st time hanging out with girls and shopping and all, never did these back at home =)

OK, I am tired and I'm just blogging for the sake of blogging. Nothing much then so bye...

Cybership...

2011-05-29T04:07:00.003+08:00

I don't know why but I tend to get a lot of 'attention' in the internet from my cyber friends.

Cyber friends = friends who I talk to via msn/ yahoo messenger/ facebook/ facebook chat/ skype but seldom meet. Maybe met once or twice.

So some how, I am someone's wife then now I am another person's gf and future wife etc. Wow, life is so fun in the internet =P

I hope I haven't lose the bet by being a cyber gf/ wife =P

A lone ranger

2011-05-25T01:21:00.003+08:00

As you know, I'm staying out alone, somewhere. Anyway, I went for house searching at those websites and found a lot of houses and rooms so I emailed them and I got 4 replies. Out of this 4, I went and viewed 2 and this 2 houses are so different.

One was a house, staying with the landlady who is an Indian and looked fierce (and very religious, everywhere was Jesus's pictures). Even though the house was kinda small and lonely looking (when I went into the room that I might be staying, I felt so lonely and depressed), it's cheap and near to the hospital (about 10 minutes walk) and the co-operative store is 5 minutes away.

The other was a flat like the one I am currently staying at. I will be sharing with another 2 students and one side of the room was full mirror like my ballet school! So it made the room looked so big LOL!

This 2 place has it's own uniqueness and I can't compare because it's so different. Price is just about 10-20 pounds different!

I talked to my seniors on my way back yesterday and the news spread and just moments ago another senior called and asked if I'm interested in sharing a house with a FY1 who is from IMU but studied at Dundee but coming here for her FY1 (housemanship) so another option for me. Then one of my batchmate who is from KL but started her 1st year here also offered the room in her house and she was worried of me staying out alone. The reason I didn't feel like staying with her was the distance from her place to the hospital is around 20-25 minutes walk. Winter time, walk I die lar...

Today I woke up feeling a little blue. I didn't dream like usual so I have no idea why I felt so sad. Read back what my dad wrote to me at my facebook and I teared. After skyping with my mom, I teared again. Went to uni, came home and skyped with dad and after that teared again. No, it's not homesick. I just feel like crying but instead of bursting out with tears, my tears just flow down slowly...

Listened to Sara B's Gravity and totally hooked on to it.

PS: Yesterday (and today) the wind was crazy! It stopped me in my tracks and even managed to push me backwards! I was crossing the road half way when the wind came and push me back to the middle of the road! The traffic lights turned green but I was still struggling at the middle of the road and eventually I ran and leaned forward and fought the wind!! The drivers must be laughing in their cars.

PPS: I asked my mom if I put on weight and she said no. Then when I said I finished half a packet of pasta (Yes, I can cook) she said I fat. Latter when I asked my dad if I'm fatter, he answered that I looked old =.="'

Feeling a lot of love from seniors and friends =)

Touched but somehow, I don't want this type of feeling. I am greedy, I will want more. Better stop receiving before I crave for more..

PPPS: Jon, faster come so we can find house together...

Deal..

2011-05-21T05:09:00.001+08:00

Made up my mind. I shall get my own room outside. Thanks for reading LOL

Dilemma.....haih....

2011-05-20T21:24:00.003+08:00

I won't say that the thing that is happening is not affecting me but I somehow manage to hide it when I need to not think about it. But I got to give an answer now so let me break it down here.

10 came then 10-9.

Out of 9 all paired up so 4(1+1) + 1

One of the 1+1 asked me to join them (pitied me)

But when they start searching, they realised that 3 is difficult to find

So I volunteered to let them be (1+1)

Later they found a 1+1 place and owner allows 1+1+1

So they asked me to join (living room= room)
Fine, Happy.

Then they search another and owner also allows 1+1+1

BUT kitchen connected to living room

so no privacy, no bed, living room smell of cooked/ fried smell but cheap though...

So how??

Now with 1+1 200, outside with own room but share with stranger 300 and 500 if stay alone.

That 1+1 wants an answer by today. I never had the time to sit and do my own research or go for viewing.... =(

How la now.... =(

The Whale Challenge =)

2011-05-16T07:24:00.007+08:00

I AM STUFFED!!!!!!!!

Went to The Ashvale for a Whale challenge where they serve you a pound of Haddock Fish and Chips for 12.25 pounds. If you finish it, you are rewarded with either another whale or dessert (which they call sweets) on the house =)

Knowing me who loves to EAT, I actually ate 2 plates of whale then another banana split =P

Proofs are as below (used the tar tar sauce to write stuff)

See how huge is it!!!

The end product of my 1st plate

My 2nd plate hehe

The banana split with extra lot of whipped cream...

Even got a certificate =P

But now, suffer like hell...so full...can't walk, feel like throwing up, tummy so huge =(

I am going to starve for the next whole week (s) =P

Happenings...

2011-05-15T00:32:00.002+08:00

Honestly, things have not been going smoothly for some time.

- I could not go holiday around parts of UK with mom

- I couldn't get a white phone

- My bf's relationship might be ending soon. I know I should be glad but I know deep down, this ending will make everyone sad

- My research group progress is quite slow because most of us are clueless about the topic

- I got to stay out myself

The last one was something I know and expected hence the indifference when everyone was hyped up on searching for a house. Initially we wanted to stay together but circumstances is different now because some of us are being posted out. Actually the worse part was getting a sms that was kinda harsh. Maybe I am being too sensitive but I'm not exactly affected by it now. Maybe at that moment when I was reading it but not now.

Now what I feel is to just stop any communication. Every time I on my laptop, there will definitely be people saying hi via msn, yahoo messenger, Skype and Facebook chat. I sincerely honestly want to thank these people from the bottom of my heart for having me on their mind and wanting to share their day with me but not now.

Sadly, I could not ignore my bf's skype call and end up knowing that she cried. It really breaks my heart into pieces and I'm not exactly a person who likes to discuss about my problem so sharing with her my thoughts and feelings are out of the question. What I can do now is to be there for her, listening to her ramblings, saying the right things and give her the right reactions.

Deep down, I want to escape to the beach. Finally, I have a reason...

Listening to Joe Hisashi's song from the movie Departure, having such a gloomy cold day just makes me want to crawl up and hide under my duvet....or take a 30 minutes walk to the beach and spent my time there emoing =P

Spontaneous beach trip

2011-05-12T01:53:00.000+08:00

I was just blogging about wanting to lie on the beach and emo alone? Well, kinda got it but instead of emo, I ended up with 2 scoops of ice cream and with a crowd =)

I was skyping with mom, then suddenly dad called via skyped. I thought he's at outstation so I hold my mom's call and answered my dad's call. Then what I saw was the same background as my mom. They were both sitting side by side in the living room but they were both using their OWN laptop to skype with me!! Hahaha...

Half way through, my friend suddenly msn and told me the older J bro is bringing us to the beach! I was like...WHAT??!! NOW??!!

Then I went kaboom! I had my bf on hold, my mom on hold, my dad talking to me (all 3 at skype), my another 2 friends at MSN and another 1 at Yahoo Messenger and another one at Facebook chat!!!

Anyway, I was in the midst of panic when suddenly the elder J bro called and asked "where are you? I'm downstairs already." I was like...WHAT?!!!!! I haven't change, haven't pee and haven't say bye to everyone!!! Anyway, didn't change (was wearing slippers and 3 quarter pants!), faster peed and shut down my lappie then rushed down.

It was cold, well the wind was cold and we had ICE CREAM!!!! I bought 2 scoops while some bought 3 scoops and we enjoyed it in the cold cold wind...I was shivering inside and outside but after a while, I didn't feel cold anymore, numb would be the word =P

Spent 1-2 hours then came back, happy =)

Love the sky...really wanted to just lie down on the beach and stare at the sky...

I still wanna emo alone there one day though...something I MUST do =)

Yesterday too bored, went facebook and stalked friend's family members and munched down 8 packets of chips!!! Such an experience =)

I want to...

2011-05-11T03:54:00.003+08:00

I want to go to the Aberdeen beach and lie there alone,

looking at the (blue or grey) sky and fluffy white clouds,

listen to the sound of wave,

getting blown by the cold wind,

escape to tranquility of my own....

I just want to try that out before I die....

Hot body...

2011-05-08T16:53:00.004+08:00

For you guys, don't feel sad or depressed after seeing this guy's body OK?

To me it's one of the most perfect, proportionate body I've ever seen =)

If only he can be just a wee more muscular at the shoulder but overall, he's just H.O.T

He is tall (compare him with the tall older man beside him), broad shoulder, small waist, long legs, wearing canvas shoes (not all guys can bring out the hotness of wearing canvas shoes) and has NO TUMMY!!!! Argh, if only I can meet more of this type of guys =P

emo...

2011-05-07T01:45:00.005+08:00

I'm so emo now. I know it's so stupid to feel so emo for such a small thing but if from the beginning the people around me didn't encourage me and that blaardy salesperson didn't misunderstand, then I won't have my hopes so high for the white colour!!

Haih....

I can't get

But what I can get is

See the difference

White one nicer right?

Sob...

=,(

the Nice J brothers =)

2011-04-23T14:53:00.003+08:00

There's a senior call Je_ and his brother, Jo_. Now Jo is actually a doctor and Je is our senior and they are extremely nice!! Je is a great chef and Jo is actually kinda scary because he's like big-decision-making-man LOL. But Jo is also very nice like how he offered his liverpool jersey to his 3 strikers (another day for this story ya) =P

Anyway, we had 3 hours long lunch time and we didn't know what to do so we hang out at the computer lap and after 30 minutes, Je appeared (it's very rare to see seniors because they'll be at hospitals) and he entertained us with his stories and teases. Oh, we really do love to hang out with him =)

Then at night, after my dinner and just after I finished bathing and washing my hair, I got a call from my friend and she said "LET'S GO TO BURGER KING NOW" and I was "HUH??!!". It was at the back of my mind to reject the offer but she passed the phone to Jo and he said "Eh faster come down, we're downstairs already".

So I didn't know what to do!! I quickly called my another flatmate and my another friend also called me and said Jo called her and asked her to go too! We 3 were "Err...go ah?" So ended up we went.

Went downstairs with half of my sleeping attire and hopped up the car (I got to slide to the passenger side because the door was spoiled) and off we went to Burger King for ice cream. He ordered a burger and 3 cups of ice cream for us and we ended up enjoying ourselves with him. He was telling us about how his stories and also like his little brother, Je teases us.

He was the one who promoted iphone and got 7 of us buying iphones (me soon) and he actually just came back from work at 9pm and had dinner cooked by his little brother Je LOL!! He took our pictures and uploaded to FB and got 4 little small girls VERY HAPPY hahahaha. Anyway, to cut story short, we had fun and I ended up with a huge bruise (blue black at my left bottom) because of the gearbox or hand break but seriously love this 2 J brothers =)

My flatmate after going to toilet, got locked out from her room and we ended up skyping with the other friend and laughed and talked about it until the security person came and open the door for her hahahaha.

I REALLY AM ENJOYING MYSELF HERE AND TOMORROW, THAMARAI IS COMING UP!!!!

Life at Aberdeen...

2011-04-22T04:56:00.002+08:00

It's officially one month since I came here.

Well so far so good,

still getting used to the weather (it's always below 10 degrees here!),

still trying to get a proper routine,

tried to cook everyday but seems to eat salad most of the time,

met nice seniors and friends,

have been listening and bitching about a fellow friend (I'll talk about it later),

have been getting use to the style of teaching here (they're so nice and encouraging!),

have been skyping and FB-ing a lot,

have been eating (!!!),

and I have been missing you guys...

So far, I need to:

- blog more =P

- get a new phone (might be getting an iphone)

- find a new house because I'll be leaving here by end of June and people here follows protocol strictly

- STUDY!

- settle down and focus

Seriously, I do feel kinda out of place sometimes because the friends I am having and mixing are mostly from the M2 batch (joined uni 6 months later than me) and they are kinda closer with each other. I think IMU has drilled me to be a lone ranger...and this is bad!!

OK, I'll blog more coming weekend. Miss me OK =P

farewell parties and meet-ups 2

2011-03-21T08:40:00.003+08:00

I was supposed to meet Jayne in the afternoon but she just came back from Super Junior concert yesterday and didn't sleep well because was too excited hence feeling extra tired after meeting her uni friends for breakfast. She went back and took a nap while mom and sis keep asking me "eh, haven't go out ah?" LOL.

So she came over, had dinner and then we headed out to D'Pastry Chef to meet up with TC, TS, YP and surprisingly GK!!! Well, I had to practically beg GK to come out because it has been so long since we last met and talked.

Anyway, all of them were late so TC and I talked a lot, Jayne joined in occasionally. At around 9ish only did the other 3 appeared. It was fun and listening to them talked nonsense was funny but sadly, I could feel the distance between all of us.

At one time, TS (my longest keep-in-touch friend) asked how was my 1st love and of all people, I thought of HIM and blurted out, he's working and is having his own company. OMG...vomit!!!!!

We left at 10ish and Jayne and I sat in the house outside and talked more till 11.40pm, something I've only done with RG so far =)

farewell parties and meet-ups

2011-03-20T16:19:00.006+08:00

It's another 13 days before I leave my homeland...

Anyway, looking at my planner, I have met and am going to meet with

1- My ex-office colleagues

2- My ballet peeps

3- My BFF

4- My primary school friends

5- My high school friends

6- My uni mates (batch mates and juniors)

7- My cousins

So far, I've met with said number 1 and 2 this week. Sad to say, we did not take any pictures =(

Met up with said number 1 on Tuesday and we had lunch. Lots of talking and I even managed to embarrassed myself in front of the CEO. I went up to him (we were all so happen at the same hawker place) and said "Hi, do you remember me?" ....awkward silence....followed by him saying "Ya ya, so what are you doing here?" He didn't look like he remembered me but oh well...he will after this LOL.

Yesterday, we ballet peeps decided to wear red and we had dinner at my ballet teacher's place. Food was provided by Van, Frog and teacher and it was delicious. Around 9ish 10, when I was talking to teacher while she was washing up, my dear ballet peeps suddenly went missing. I assumed that they went to the living room to play with little Sophia but suddenly, teacher asked me to check out what were they doing and...

They were crouching around the laptop and...

They made a video for me and the background music was our theme song- Smile....

Seriously, I did not expect this. I mean I suspected something was amiss (since we always have surprise party for each other)but never this. A video of them including little Sophia (teacher's 4 years old daughter) telling me stuff (a lot of MUST COME BACK) and all the pictures of us together. I could have cried but I was too tired (was packing my clothes into the luggage the whole afternoon) BUT I am very sure I will when I'm all alone, missing ballet and all the stupid crappy jokes we always crack in class and the fun...gosh =(

Thanks a lot!!! I really appreciate it very very much!! Sob....

Frog is missing....

Cass is missing....

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Tonight meeting with said number 3 and 4. Tuesday meeting with said number 5.

MUST TAKE PICTURES!!!!! Grrr....

Tony Romas again

2011-03-16T22:25:00.006+08:00

So today at around 3.30pm, my sis left home alone to the KTM station and took the train for the first time alone to KLCC. Met her there (we were actually on the same Putra LRT lol) and we walked, talked, my legs and back were aching and I was dead tired.

Hung out at Kinokuniya and bought some stuff, went around and went and bought some hair accessories, something that I have been looking high and low for.

Then met mom and we went to Tony Romas and had dinner. Had the almost same dishes, but we had free dessert- carrot cake.

The carrot cake was nice but a little too sweet for me due to the icing on it.

The Chicken Pesto Salad (half)

The other day, we had the full one and it was delicious, somehow this was not as good as the previous one.

My mom ordered the cod fish grilled, blackened with sesame seed crust with rice and broccoli.

My sis and I shared the Mojo Chicken-Seasoned, grilled chicken breasts basted with Tony’s citrus and brown mustard Mojo sauce. Topped with our house-made pineapple salsa and served with rice pilaf and a fresh vegetable. My sis and I had mashed potato and corn instead of the rice and vegetable.

OK, I am so tired. Talk to y'all soon...

PS: why Dato' Lee Chong Wei can win? Because last time he was just plain Lee Chong Wei (LCW) which stands for "let china win". But now he has a Dato' so he became (DLCW) which means "Don't let China win" LOL....lame joke from FB =)

What's up?

2011-03-10T22:50:00.004+08:00

Meeting friends in university just makes me feel happy. Listening to them telling me their stories or some knowledge just makes me realise how lucky I am to be here today.

Looking back to my time in semester 1, I know I was always unhappy. I didn't have a group of friends like in high school or college and I was a nobody. I hated those days where I hide in the library just drowning myself with studies to deny the fact that I felt lonely. I don't have meals in uni because deep inside I know I despise the fact that I got to eat alone. I watch movies alone and claimed that it was fun but it was just bearable because once I stepped out from the cinema, I don't know what to do or where to go that's why I always watch 2 movies in a row.

Well, from semester 2 onwards, I got to know more people and had people who I can call friends. I enjoyed my life better but the habit of studying 24/7, not eating and watching movies alone became part of my routine and till now I still have such life.

So when you ask me why I study all the time, why I spend my whole uni life in library, why I don't eat and why I watch movies alone, my answer will be

I adapted...

Shopping at 1U again

2011-03-08T23:44:00.007+08:00

This is the 2nd time shopping at 1Utama and spending more than RM1000 LOL...

(First time was when I bought my watch)

Last sunday, went and bought

1. My 28" luggage bag (Rofina-Swiss brand) which cost RM220 because it was having a 50% discount at parkson =)

2. A dress and a cardigan which comes up to RM215

3. Under garments which also comes up to RM200

4. 3 British India's linen pants which cost up to RM400

Now now, I know it's so expensive but everything was on sale and in my defense, the pants were having 70% discount each (Original price was RM499)!! I know, it's so shocking for me to enjoy shopping, spending AND getting a dress =P

Anyway, after shopping for a whole afternoon, we went to coffee bean and had tea. I had the coffee bean yogurt again. Pictures taken with my mom's Blackberry =)

The cafe latte was free and the yogurt flavour was Black Forest.

How did the cafe latte taste? Milky.....

Let's look at the yogurt I'm having...

What's so special? The round chocolates are actually coffee bean coated chocolate!!

Look!!!

My sister had the mango peach flavour with almond toppings.

While at British India, met Dr.Shamsuddin, a doc from Hosp Selayang =)

While looking for my mom at Coffee Bean (I went and put the luggage bag in the car first), I heard loud cracks and the next thing I know, the floor tiles cracked up. I guess due to bad calculation and when the weather is too hot, the tiles do not have enough place to expand so they cracked up. LOL

Well, that's all for now. Settled my plane ticket issues and took chest x-ray already. So what's left to do is pack my luggage and settle bank stuff. Phew, feels like there's so much to do!!

Taking the Lead = A Lot of Hassle!!!

2011-03-07T12:12:00.002+08:00

As most of you know, I was somewhat a person who was in charge of many things back in higher primary school and high school. So after 6-7 years of leadership, it has kind of ingrained into me to take charge of things. For this trip for my studies, I thought of helping around so I emailed and get to know the other 9 students who are going with me. Everything was fine until I discover that people are so fickle minded and so relax.

I got my UK visa in early Feb (some of the 9 haven't get their visa and we got to fly before 10th April!) so the next thing I got to settle is the flight ticket BUT since the university is arranging transport for us from the airport to our rented flats, we got to decide on a day and fly in together. Somehow, the JPA sponsored students misheard that we're all flying in on 3rd (Sunday) so they called the JPA and told them to book their flight on the 2nd.

Problem?

It's a freaking Sunday and UK people are very particular about this. Will they work on a Sunday? I doubt so. Why on earth Malaysia mostly show American dramas? Isn't it great if they show us some UK dramas so that we can learn and know their culture too??!!

OK so if they can't provide us transport on Sunday, my friends and I will fly in on the 4th but will they fetch just 2 or 3 of us?

OK so if they can provide transport on Sunday, how are we going to take the flats keys? Will the uni hold it for us but the uni is not open on a Sunday!! So we bunked in with seniors? They don't even stay at the same place!! Imagine having a tug and war with our 30kg luggage (I shudder upon thinking about it).

Why the hassle to get the flight ticket now? BECAUSE the fuel price is increasing and the plane tickets will increase at least freaking 25% by tomorrow!!

For the moment, the price is RM2500 on the 2nd/ RM 2200 on the 3rd via KLM so if there's a 25% increase, it'll be extra RM500-RM600!!! Woah!!!

Now if only JPA can reply to the JPA students soon and hopefully the uni can reply my email before 5pm because we got to book the tickets before 5.30pm!! ARGH!!!

My uncle scolded me for taking the lead. He told me I should be selfish and just care about myself but I can't! It feels so wrong to be selfish and ignore the others who need help. He scolded me stubborn and said that I'll suffer and feel disappointed soon but honestly I know, I have been through it but it doesn't mean I should just stop helping people and be selfish. I believe out of 10 times, I'm sure I'll be appreciated once and just once is good enough for me =)

PS: A piece of better news- my chest x-ray only cost RM30 =)