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It's October, gosh time really really flies!

I'm in the midst of applying for my foundation year application and I am clueless as to how to rank the 21 places. Do I really want to go into the career that is on my mind? Well with what I'm doing now, it seems like it but I am scared of stepping into this uncertainty. Lots of what ifs are flying through my mind. What if I can't get the job in the end? What if I'm not good enough? What if I changed my mind at the last minute? What if....

Anyway...

I always believe that helping people is something everyone will do. No matter what happened and even if you hate that person, I believe in the end people will still help each other.
I guess I am being very very naive into thinking that way. Some people are not being brought up that way. I guess their parents taught them to think for themselves first. It is a dog eat dog world.

I'm not saying that I'm the best in terms of lending a hand to others when they are in need of help, but I would try my very best to find ways to make it work even if it requires some sacrifices from my part.

For example, my phone charger was left at my friend's place and my phone had 2% battery left. If someone else was going through the same thing, I would lend them my charger and just hope that they'll return it in the morning for me to charge my phone. Even though my own phone battery is low, I would still lend them or maybe charge my phone to a decent amount then pass it to them. Sadly, it did not happen yesterday. I guess, some people are taught to be selfish? Oh well, just a little disappointed in certain people. Now I know who I WON'T call for help when I need it but of course when I am needed, I will still be there.

This is something my friend dislike about me. I don't know how to say 'no' when people needs help.

Argh, I don't feel like ranting here anymore.....it's like I'm opening a can of worms.....

Right, on a positive note I found out that even though I am angry or being stressed, I can still see the positive light. Just like this morning when I saw a certain email at my phone when I opened my eyes which made my blood boil, I still managed to calm myself and be happy! =)

Ok, this post is getting no where. I should stop.