Finally, I'm done with a level.
Feel like crying....
I have a lot to tell and express but....
It seems I can't put it in words....
BUT....I ALREADY MISS YOU GUYS A LOT!!!!
Pathetic
5 weeks ago
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
family
Sometimes, you wake up and you'll know its a new day and have that feeling it'll be a good day too. You step out from your bedroom, to the toilet and the next thing you know, mother is screaming her lungs out for no reason. I REALLY CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE!!!!! With no reason, she can just start mumbling and scold you and destroy your day.
Just a few days back, next door neighbour was drilling don't know what hole, make our whole house shake and the sound was so irritating. Mother just stormed into my room and start asking me sound is that. HELLO?? HOW IN THE WORLD I KNOW??!! Then she stood beside me and start grumbling. I really wanted to shout at her~ GO NEXT DOOR AND TELL THEM OFF LAR!!!
Yesterday, I was playing with my dog when she came home from class. The moment she saw us, she start scolding again saying all the fur flying around, the floor dirty and smelly, bla bla bla...Gosh, whats her problem??!! Aaahh!!! And she expect me to do well in my studies? Hell no I couldn't!!!
Brother, who got the new laptop has been playing games 24/7. Ok, you want to play games go ahead. You want me clean up after you eat, wash your clothes, hang your clothes, fold your clothes, give you money when you need some, help you take this take that, and look after that dog you brought back. Fine with me, but you grumble soooo much when I just need you to fetch my sis from school or dad home from train station. I sacrificed my time walking out to wherever I want to go, avoiding your "sincere" help in fetching me and you dare shout at me asking why I can't fetch them? Then you dare ask me back why I get my driving license. IF YOU DON'T USE THE CAR SO MUCH, I WILL HAVE THE CHANCE TO PRACTICE DRIVING AND NOT TAKING THE RISK OF BANGING PEOPLE OR WORST KILLING THEM!!!!! ARGH!!!!!! And I always ask why I can't be close to my brother....ppfft...
My dad hates people who sleep during the day and active during the night. Ok, my brother is in mass communication line where his events are usually at night. Fine, so you sleep during the sun is out and wake up when the moon is out. But why when you are not having any events on can't just behave like a normal human and not batman?? Worst, after having your new laptop you go downloading movies and watch till the wee hours. Since you know dad hates this behavior so much, why can't you just cooperate or even act?? When he's awake at night, close the laptop and close your eyes and act like you're in la la land(since you are on bed already). Then when he's asleep again, go on with whatever you are doing?? Dad is not young anymore you know??
Why am I complaining about this? Because dad has been grumbling about it every time he sees me(dad is a tour guide so always not at home). Recently he has been resting at home because less tour group has been coming in, so with the construction work sound coming from next door plus his complains, HOW AM I GONNA STUDY!!!!!!!!
My right hand side neighbour just bought the house so renovation has been going on. Mother's grumbling+ Father's grumbling+ brother's annoying attitude = crazy Jene
I haih, feel so stress at home....
Today, went and teach the young kids for my teacher because she's not feeling well. My dad was suppose to fetch me since he is not working but he received a last minute assignment and went off by 5am. So, I thought I can drive but mother insist she'll fetch me there. The pre-primary class starts at 9.45am. By 9.25am, mother suddenly ask me to drive the red car to mechanic's place(she drove another spoiled car) and then she'll use the red car to fetch me there. Fine, so off we went and reached the workshop by 9.35am.
That stupid mechanic took my mother for a drive around the shop lots to find out the problem. Fine, I waited patiently in the car. They passed by me once, twice then missing....time-9.40am. I WAS SO ANGRY!!! The first class is pre-primary, kids that are about 4 to 6 years old. And she expect them to wait for me??!! Yup, I predicted correctly. I was late....FREAKING 15 MINUTES!!!!!!!!!
It was so embarrassing because for this class, the parents are around and sits inside the studio. So, there goes the teacher who was late trying to on the freaking old radio....aarrgghhhh!!!!!!
Next class (primary) was not so bad and the funny thing was, after curtsey the gals came up to me and asked me ~teacher you come from China ah??? I was stunned and "HUH??" Because I'm having class at 1.00pm, so I did my bun and I LOOKED LIKE FROM CHINA?? (I'll blame my beady eyes then...T.T)
Next class (grade 3) was fun and few gals(about form2) asked for my msn address...weird people....And I was suppose to meet my mother by 12.30pm so that I can rush back to Kepong for my class. When I called her, she said ~Oh, I'm in Jusco now, you wait ah.." AAHHH!!!!!! So, I got to sms my teacher and inform her that I'll be late. Why am I so scared that I'm late? Because this teacher kills with her stare and frightens you with her Booming voice.
Haih, what a day....what a week.....what a month....let's not talk about exam ok??
Just a few days back, next door neighbour was drilling don't know what hole, make our whole house shake and the sound was so irritating. Mother just stormed into my room and start asking me sound is that. HELLO?? HOW IN THE WORLD I KNOW??!! Then she stood beside me and start grumbling. I really wanted to shout at her~ GO NEXT DOOR AND TELL THEM OFF LAR!!!
Yesterday, I was playing with my dog when she came home from class. The moment she saw us, she start scolding again saying all the fur flying around, the floor dirty and smelly, bla bla bla...Gosh, whats her problem??!! Aaahh!!! And she expect me to do well in my studies? Hell no I couldn't!!!
Brother, who got the new laptop has been playing games 24/7. Ok, you want to play games go ahead. You want me clean up after you eat, wash your clothes, hang your clothes, fold your clothes, give you money when you need some, help you take this take that, and look after that dog you brought back. Fine with me, but you grumble soooo much when I just need you to fetch my sis from school or dad home from train station. I sacrificed my time walking out to wherever I want to go, avoiding your "sincere" help in fetching me and you dare shout at me asking why I can't fetch them? Then you dare ask me back why I get my driving license. IF YOU DON'T USE THE CAR SO MUCH, I WILL HAVE THE CHANCE TO PRACTICE DRIVING AND NOT TAKING THE RISK OF BANGING PEOPLE OR WORST KILLING THEM!!!!! ARGH!!!!!! And I always ask why I can't be close to my brother....ppfft...
My dad hates people who sleep during the day and active during the night. Ok, my brother is in mass communication line where his events are usually at night. Fine, so you sleep during the sun is out and wake up when the moon is out. But why when you are not having any events on can't just behave like a normal human and not batman?? Worst, after having your new laptop you go downloading movies and watch till the wee hours. Since you know dad hates this behavior so much, why can't you just cooperate or even act?? When he's awake at night, close the laptop and close your eyes and act like you're in la la land(since you are on bed already). Then when he's asleep again, go on with whatever you are doing?? Dad is not young anymore you know??
Why am I complaining about this? Because dad has been grumbling about it every time he sees me(dad is a tour guide so always not at home). Recently he has been resting at home because less tour group has been coming in, so with the construction work sound coming from next door plus his complains, HOW AM I GONNA STUDY!!!!!!!!
My right hand side neighbour just bought the house so renovation has been going on. Mother's grumbling+ Father's grumbling+ brother's annoying attitude = crazy Jene
I haih, feel so stress at home....
Today, went and teach the young kids for my teacher because she's not feeling well. My dad was suppose to fetch me since he is not working but he received a last minute assignment and went off by 5am. So, I thought I can drive but mother insist she'll fetch me there. The pre-primary class starts at 9.45am. By 9.25am, mother suddenly ask me to drive the red car to mechanic's place(she drove another spoiled car) and then she'll use the red car to fetch me there. Fine, so off we went and reached the workshop by 9.35am.
That stupid mechanic took my mother for a drive around the shop lots to find out the problem. Fine, I waited patiently in the car. They passed by me once, twice then missing....time-9.40am. I WAS SO ANGRY!!! The first class is pre-primary, kids that are about 4 to 6 years old. And she expect them to wait for me??!! Yup, I predicted correctly. I was late....FREAKING 15 MINUTES!!!!!!!!!
It was so embarrassing because for this class, the parents are around and sits inside the studio. So, there goes the teacher who was late trying to on the freaking old radio....aarrgghhhh!!!!!!
Next class (primary) was not so bad and the funny thing was, after curtsey the gals came up to me and asked me ~teacher you come from China ah??? I was stunned and "HUH??" Because I'm having class at 1.00pm, so I did my bun and I LOOKED LIKE FROM CHINA?? (I'll blame my beady eyes then...T.T)
Next class (grade 3) was fun and few gals(about form2) asked for my msn address...weird people....And I was suppose to meet my mother by 12.30pm so that I can rush back to Kepong for my class. When I called her, she said ~Oh, I'm in Jusco now, you wait ah.." AAHHH!!!!!! So, I got to sms my teacher and inform her that I'll be late. Why am I so scared that I'm late? Because this teacher kills with her stare and frightens you with her Booming voice.
Haih, what a day....what a week.....what a month....let's not talk about exam ok??
taggy
ok, i have not been online for a while and ya, let's do this 1st...
- Do this tag and answer all the questions in your own blog.
- Delete question 20 and add one of your own questions instead.
- Tag 8 other people.
Questions:
1) What was your dream when you were a kid?
~a teacher
2) What was the happiest moment in your whole life?
~err, honestly that moment don't stay in my head, thats why I can't recall
3) What do you wish to have right now?
~4As
4) When was the last time you horse laughed?
~how do you horse laugh?? show me please...
5) What did you realize recently?
~i suck in studies
6) Which bad habit in you is the most unacceptable?
~easily tempted with choc
7) When you are unhappy, what will you do?
~go to room, close door and on the music as loud as possible or just don't talk for the rest of the day
8) What are you afraid of losing?
~friends and family
9) Within 5 years, which target is the most realistic?
~i pass all my exams and graduate with my 1st degree
10) When you meet someone you like, will you hide or profess your feelings?
~hide
11) List out 3 kinds of people you cannot stand.
~ promise breakers, liars and hypocrites
12) Define loneliness.
~when you are all alone and no one to be there with you when you need them
13) Are you satisfied with your life now?
~not really
14) When was the most recent time you felt touched?
~err...err...can't recall for the moment
15) Where is the most beautiful place that you have visited?
~my dreamworld
16) A song that has been playing in your mind recently.
~nothing in particular
17) If you could have a wish come true, what would it be?
~i wish i'm dead
18) Do you have anything to be worried or scared about lately?
~exams!!!!!
19) If the world is going to end, what will you do?
~dig my grave and bid goodbye after asking for forgiveness
20) what do you seek in a friendship?
~honesty
i tag whoever reads this blog..
- Do this tag and answer all the questions in your own blog.
- Delete question 20 and add one of your own questions instead.
- Tag 8 other people.
Questions:
1) What was your dream when you were a kid?
~a teacher
2) What was the happiest moment in your whole life?
~err, honestly that moment don't stay in my head, thats why I can't recall
3) What do you wish to have right now?
~4As
4) When was the last time you horse laughed?
~how do you horse laugh?? show me please...
5) What did you realize recently?
~i suck in studies
6) Which bad habit in you is the most unacceptable?
~easily tempted with choc
7) When you are unhappy, what will you do?
~go to room, close door and on the music as loud as possible or just don't talk for the rest of the day
8) What are you afraid of losing?
~friends and family
9) Within 5 years, which target is the most realistic?
~i pass all my exams and graduate with my 1st degree
10) When you meet someone you like, will you hide or profess your feelings?
~hide
11) List out 3 kinds of people you cannot stand.
~ promise breakers, liars and hypocrites
12) Define loneliness.
~when you are all alone and no one to be there with you when you need them
13) Are you satisfied with your life now?
~not really
14) When was the most recent time you felt touched?
~err...err...can't recall for the moment
15) Where is the most beautiful place that you have visited?
~my dreamworld
16) A song that has been playing in your mind recently.
~nothing in particular
17) If you could have a wish come true, what would it be?
~i wish i'm dead
18) Do you have anything to be worried or scared about lately?
~exams!!!!!
19) If the world is going to end, what will you do?
~dig my grave and bid goodbye after asking for forgiveness
20) what do you seek in a friendship?
~honesty
i tag whoever reads this blog..
Sunday, January 13, 2008
bad memories...
When I was in standard one, I have the concept that everyone MUST be my friends so I was nice and friendly and good and bla bla bla. I achieved my goal till one day one of my classmate(XX) sort of got jealous of me. Usually I'll get close to those females who either sits beside me or behind me or in front of me. So, I have this best friend who sat in front of me.
XX got jealous of our friendship and started to bully me(Me, BULLIED??!!!). You see, she has this big brother in standard 6. Being in standard one, you were small, shy, tiny, little and those standard 6 people was like tall and huge giants and I always felt they have this power to overcome this short tiny me. Anyway, when her jealousy got into her, she would threaten us and sometimes raise her hands to slap us. In the end, my best friend and I avoided each other when XX is around. It was so obvious that most of my classmates noticed this change and tried to help. Imagine all this happening when we were 7 years old.
I remembered her brother actually came and met both of us (best friend and I) a few times but I forgot what he said to us. I just remembered the fear that crept into me. My other classmates offered their help by sacrificing half of their recess time to find us a hiding place to hide from XX's brother during our recess. Yup, they found hiding places such as the valley behind the canteen, the empty classroom that is only used during holiday, the empty field that said to be haunted, toilet(they guarded outside) and places that were smelly(the dump site). This occasion lasted till I was standard 2. By then I was fiercer and braver because her brother left school!!! Well, XX became"tamer" too.
I recalled playing with her while waiting for my mother after school ended. When I went up to my mom's car, I pointed to her and told my mother
~Neh, that gal lor, she always bully me and scold me. Some more called her koko to scold me
Then the next thing I know, my mother stopped the car beside XX, wind down the window, and said
~ Eh, you always bully my daughter ah? Next time I call headmaster then you know.
My mother was cool!! But that was not what I thought then, I was shocked and scared. I thought I will lose a friend!! I was actually angry of her because my mother was working in CIMB and she's always not at home and taking care of us was my kakak's job. So, I can say that our relationship were not very close then.
But true enough XX became nicer and she was practically "licking my shoe"!! Well, like Harry Potter's ending--all well, ends well...
When I was in standard 3 I went to the second class(I was in the 3rd class in standard1 and 2, told you I was not smart) while XX remained in that class, lost touch with her, made new friends and by standard 4, I was miraculously transferred to 1st class where everything changed. Made more new friends and became prefect, monitor, band conductor and trumpet player by standard 6. Everything just went my way, but one thing for sure that haven't change a bit. My maths and Chinese language was bad.
Being in the first class, we must achieve at least 80 marks and I always fail to do so because I always get 35/50. Which means 70 marks. Even during the gathering that day, one of the topic we talked about was this. Mdm.Tan still remembered hitting me with her cane(typical Chinese school) almost everyday because of this 2 subjects. I was seated quiet near to the teacher's table so usually I am the 1st to get caned. 1 cane each for 2 marks, meaning I'll get 5 canes when I get 70marks. Anyway, it was a big shock for all of us when I got straight As for my UPSR. Chinese and Maths--A!!!
Back to XX. Each class will have prefects picked by the teachers. 50% from the 1st class, 40% from the 2nd class, 30% for the 3rd class and you figure it yourself OK. Anyway, XX was chosen as her class's prefect. When we meet during duty, I would usually walked right pass her ignoring her completely. I hold grudge. And I have a good memory mind you, so never do anything hurtful towards me. But at my age now, I actually still sort of dislike her even though it was years ago. I am trying very hard to let go but every time I look at my primary school's year book, it just came back.
Sometimes, bad memories will never go away, it'll stay with you forever....
My standard 6 class picture...spot any familiar faces from previous post about gathering?
My band picture taken when we were in standard 5. Spot Tze Seang? Told you he yawned!!!
And this baby is?? You make a guess....
XX got jealous of our friendship and started to bully me(Me, BULLIED??!!!). You see, she has this big brother in standard 6. Being in standard one, you were small, shy, tiny, little and those standard 6 people was like tall and huge giants and I always felt they have this power to overcome this short tiny me. Anyway, when her jealousy got into her, she would threaten us and sometimes raise her hands to slap us. In the end, my best friend and I avoided each other when XX is around. It was so obvious that most of my classmates noticed this change and tried to help. Imagine all this happening when we were 7 years old.
I remembered her brother actually came and met both of us (best friend and I) a few times but I forgot what he said to us. I just remembered the fear that crept into me. My other classmates offered their help by sacrificing half of their recess time to find us a hiding place to hide from XX's brother during our recess. Yup, they found hiding places such as the valley behind the canteen, the empty classroom that is only used during holiday, the empty field that said to be haunted, toilet(they guarded outside) and places that were smelly(the dump site). This occasion lasted till I was standard 2. By then I was fiercer and braver because her brother left school!!! Well, XX became"tamer" too.
I recalled playing with her while waiting for my mother after school ended. When I went up to my mom's car, I pointed to her and told my mother
~Neh, that gal lor, she always bully me and scold me. Some more called her koko to scold me
Then the next thing I know, my mother stopped the car beside XX, wind down the window, and said
~ Eh, you always bully my daughter ah? Next time I call headmaster then you know.
My mother was cool!! But that was not what I thought then, I was shocked and scared. I thought I will lose a friend!! I was actually angry of her because my mother was working in CIMB and she's always not at home and taking care of us was my kakak's job. So, I can say that our relationship were not very close then.
But true enough XX became nicer and she was practically "licking my shoe"!! Well, like Harry Potter's ending--all well, ends well...
When I was in standard 3 I went to the second class(I was in the 3rd class in standard1 and 2, told you I was not smart) while XX remained in that class, lost touch with her, made new friends and by standard 4, I was miraculously transferred to 1st class where everything changed. Made more new friends and became prefect, monitor, band conductor and trumpet player by standard 6. Everything just went my way, but one thing for sure that haven't change a bit. My maths and Chinese language was bad.
Being in the first class, we must achieve at least 80 marks and I always fail to do so because I always get 35/50. Which means 70 marks. Even during the gathering that day, one of the topic we talked about was this. Mdm.Tan still remembered hitting me with her cane(typical Chinese school) almost everyday because of this 2 subjects. I was seated quiet near to the teacher's table so usually I am the 1st to get caned. 1 cane each for 2 marks, meaning I'll get 5 canes when I get 70marks. Anyway, it was a big shock for all of us when I got straight As for my UPSR. Chinese and Maths--A!!!
Back to XX. Each class will have prefects picked by the teachers. 50% from the 1st class, 40% from the 2nd class, 30% for the 3rd class and you figure it yourself OK. Anyway, XX was chosen as her class's prefect. When we meet during duty, I would usually walked right pass her ignoring her completely. I hold grudge. And I have a good memory mind you, so never do anything hurtful towards me. But at my age now, I actually still sort of dislike her even though it was years ago. I am trying very hard to let go but every time I look at my primary school's year book, it just came back.
Sometimes, bad memories will never go away, it'll stay with you forever....
My standard 6 class picture...spot any familiar faces from previous post about gathering?
My band picture taken when we were in standard 5. Spot Tze Seang? Told you he yawned!!!
And this baby is?? You make a guess....
Friday, January 11, 2008
Dog game
JENE!!!!!
My mother called out from her room which is the 1st room facing the main door, while my room is way back at the end of the house.
Walked to her room...
me~ what?
mom~smell this...smelly right??
She was holding her blouse asking me to smell.
me~(after smelling) So? What??
mom~Smelly or not?? (getting annoyed)
me~Ya, sort of.
mom~ How you wash the clothes eh? Or you didn't sun it enough? Go and wash again!!
She threw her blouse to me and I walked out from her room. Grinning actually because I know why the blouse is smelly and what smell it is actually.
Rewind back on Thursday morning. I woke up at 6am (I miss the sound of the birds in the morning) and got ready for ballet class which starts at 7am after finishing house chores. After class went home and hang the clothes. On that particular day, the clothes was mountain high in the pail which I used to bring the clothes out to hang. Spritzer was already active and ready for his game.
Spritzer's Game
1. Try to snatch as much clothes from the pail
2. Run as fast as you can
3. Hide when the human finds out
4. Never let go
5. Try again when fail
Yup, that blouse was on top of the pail and Spritz got hold of it, wash it again with his saliva and dirt from his hiding place. Unfortunately, his downfall was due to his highly possessive behavior. We gave him a few of my mother's old clothes as blanket and since then those rags became his property.
Human's way to win
1. Pull as hard as you can from the opponents jaw
2. Hang the clothes as fast as you can
3. Be observant and guard your clothes
4. Use his rags when trying to get back the clothes
Usually I chase him around the porch first. When he goes into a small hiding place, I'll run to his rags and grab them making sure he witness every movement I made. Then he'll come out of his hiding place and grab back his possessions while trying very hard to keep whatever is in his mouth which he usually fails to do so. Because I'll lure him with his rags and throw it far away from him then grab the clothes he left behind.
Hanging clothes usually takes up about 10 minutes but that day after waking him up from his dreams as early as 6am, he had enough time to charge up and get ready for this game by 9am. That morning, hanging those clothes took me 30 minutes!!! But we had fun and we practically woke everyone up due to his growling and my laughter.
M1 was, tricky and scary and well, I thought I prepared but....
BUT, meeting up college mates after this long break really make me realise that I really do miss them. Instead of studying, we gathered at reading room and chat randomly, but mostly about Universities stuff. I can't imagine what will happen after exam, after a level, after I enter Uni, after all these years!!! Gathering?? Sure can if you can make everybody stay in Kuala Lumpur!!!!
And ya.....CURSE YOU NEW NEIGHBOUR FOR MAKING THE RENOVATION NOW....HATE THE DRILLING AND SLICING TILES SOUND...GRRRR!!!!
My mother called out from her room which is the 1st room facing the main door, while my room is way back at the end of the house.
Walked to her room...
me~ what?
mom~smell this...smelly right??
She was holding her blouse asking me to smell.
me~(after smelling) So? What??
mom~Smelly or not?? (getting annoyed)
me~Ya, sort of.
mom~ How you wash the clothes eh? Or you didn't sun it enough? Go and wash again!!
She threw her blouse to me and I walked out from her room. Grinning actually because I know why the blouse is smelly and what smell it is actually.
Rewind back on Thursday morning. I woke up at 6am (I miss the sound of the birds in the morning) and got ready for ballet class which starts at 7am after finishing house chores. After class went home and hang the clothes. On that particular day, the clothes was mountain high in the pail which I used to bring the clothes out to hang. Spritzer was already active and ready for his game.
Spritzer's Game
1. Try to snatch as much clothes from the pail
2. Run as fast as you can
3. Hide when the human finds out
4. Never let go
5. Try again when fail
Yup, that blouse was on top of the pail and Spritz got hold of it, wash it again with his saliva and dirt from his hiding place. Unfortunately, his downfall was due to his highly possessive behavior. We gave him a few of my mother's old clothes as blanket and since then those rags became his property.
Human's way to win
1. Pull as hard as you can from the opponents jaw
2. Hang the clothes as fast as you can
3. Be observant and guard your clothes
4. Use his rags when trying to get back the clothes
Usually I chase him around the porch first. When he goes into a small hiding place, I'll run to his rags and grab them making sure he witness every movement I made. Then he'll come out of his hiding place and grab back his possessions while trying very hard to keep whatever is in his mouth which he usually fails to do so. Because I'll lure him with his rags and throw it far away from him then grab the clothes he left behind.
Hanging clothes usually takes up about 10 minutes but that day after waking him up from his dreams as early as 6am, he had enough time to charge up and get ready for this game by 9am. That morning, hanging those clothes took me 30 minutes!!! But we had fun and we practically woke everyone up due to his growling and my laughter.
M1 was, tricky and scary and well, I thought I prepared but....
BUT, meeting up college mates after this long break really make me realise that I really do miss them. Instead of studying, we gathered at reading room and chat randomly, but mostly about Universities stuff. I can't imagine what will happen after exam, after a level, after I enter Uni, after all these years!!! Gathering?? Sure can if you can make everybody stay in Kuala Lumpur!!!!
And ya.....CURSE YOU NEW NEIGHBOUR FOR MAKING THE RENOVATION NOW....HATE THE DRILLING AND SLICING TILES SOUND...GRRRR!!!!
Monday, January 7, 2008
"Old Friends New Year" Gathering
After blogging last Saturday, I received a few messages asking if I'm going to the gathering. Its actually a farewell party for Mun Ee, a primary school friend. I planned not to attend based on a few theory
1. I don't think I have anything to talk to those old friends
2. It'll be separated into groups and each group will have their own topic
3. I'm broke
4. I'll be bored
5. I need to study
So at night while having dinner with my family at the nearby restaurant, few called up to persuade me to attend. Yes, in the end, I went because an old friend, Tze Chooi who migrated back to Alor Star was back in KL for vacation. We were close friends and I actually went up to AS to visit her few years back and an opportunity to meet her without the need to travel far made me attend the gathering.
At first, my mother who was so confident that she knows the gathering venue wasted 15 minutes turning round and round to look for the shop called One Station. At last, Tuck Seng my buddy (knew him since standard 1) came and rescued me. Anyway, the first person I saw was my class teacher for primary 4,5 and 6---Mdm.Tan. I took a seat beside TS and the next thing I know was I'm talking non-stop for 3 hours to everybody.
What shocked me most was when I started chatting with Mdm.Tan. She has problems with her daughters. Apparently her eldest, sitting for SPM this year is quite bad in studies because she is too involved in her scout activities. Her younger daughter whose English is not that fantastic is also having problem with her studies. Why was I shocked?? I came to the conclusion that teachers can educate students but not their kids. I suddenly recalled her youngest daughter (also studying in KB) telling me that Mdm.Tan has insomnia. Sad right??
Since I was late, a few friends tried to bully me by asking me to name all the people who was there, one by one. Thanks god my memory did not fail me, especially when it came to this gal where everybody had hard time recalling her name. When she heard me speaking her name, she was so overjoyed that she stood up and hugged me. People really do like it when you remember them (so don't you dare forget me!!). Ya, a few KBians were there too, I think was just coincidence.
About my theory, it seems that number 1,2,3, and 4 did not happen but 5 really did happen because by them time I reached home, it was 12.45am. Do not misjudge me, it is my 1st time staying out this late but you can't blame because I need one of them to fetch me home and they did not want to leave. Anyway, by the time I reached home dad and mom was sleeping while sis was watching Shark Tale on TV3.
And you know what? I did wake up at 7am and attended the puja (prayers session) at temple just like what I promised. I walked the talk!!!! So proud of myself, and since I did something that I write here, I'll tell you guys another thing--I'm skipping McDonald for this year. I'll only allow myself 4 times of McDonald meal this year. I'll keep you guys posted if I ever have a meal, just to keep track.
Now, I'll let the pictures do the talking
Everybody who came for the gathering. The gal in grey is the gal leaving. Mdm.Tan sitting beside me. Spot any familiar faces?
jing yi and hui san. I have no idea why I took this picture. All I know was, "Eh, I haven't take picture with you, come come!" and there I was stuck in the middle.
My buddy and close friend, Tuck Seng and Tze Chooi ^^ (Tuck Seng looks retarded here..lol)
We were one clique in primary school, another few in not in this picture. Notice the 2 guys in white shirt? Boy they look so blur. Standing from left: Khee Leong, me, Tze Chooi. Below: TS and Jonathan(Son of my standard 3 English teacher who actually spoiled a chair by sitting with one leg, since then called him cho lan dang in Cantonese)
Guys and gals. Guys from left: Tze Xiang (Tze Chooi's cousin who is also in the same class), TS and Khee Leong. Gals from left: Hui San, Jing Yi, me and Tze Chooi.
The guy at the far right is Wei Liang-one of my group mates. Recalled how I used to bully him last time even though he is so BIG. All acting crazy except Tze Xiang
In this picture, we were suppose to act normal and smile but Tze Xiang always do the opposite. If I have the time I'll upload my primary school band picture where you can see everybody lined up and posed like a discipline school band and there Tze Xiang was yawning away. Honest, what we can see is his big wide mouth and his body.
With our beloved Mdm.Tan. Actually we were half way telling her how to make her daughter study when Jing Yi suddenly said:" come, let's take pic!!"
All the gals. Wondering why I always have the chance to sit?? Because yours truly was the class monitor. LOL!!! The gal that everybody couldn't remember her name is standing behind me in black shirt. From left standing: Jacqueline Tan, Yee Lee Ling, Hui San, Jing Yi, Tze Chooi, Joey, Seow Ying and Mei Woon. Seated: Mun Ee, Mdm.Tan and me.
The guys. Standing from left: Tuck Seng, Wei Liang, Yau Cheong(the boy who is quiet and unfortunately sit with me in standard 4), Khee Leong Tze Xiang, Jonathan and Zhi Huan(funny guy who always act cool). Seated from left: Siu hoe(not our primary school classmate but is a KBian), Jian Yi(the guy who called himself The Rock in primary school), Karl Fei (he was a shorty but grew taller, the guy who sat behind me in standard5 and 6 and love to grumble and swear bad words..lol)and Gee Kit(the guy who sat with me in standard 5 and 6 and love to joke a lot. We have a lot of secret words that are just so funny.) Scroll up to the first pic and spot the guy in red sitting beside Mdm.Tan, he's not in here because he was actually working there. Apparently they purposely went to that shop to see him. His name is Kee Swing.
Everything went well, and I believe 10 years down the road we'll still know each other and remember each other (I will, hopefully you too). Friend from HELP, I'll never forget you guys too!!! I miss you guys lots....
1. I don't think I have anything to talk to those old friends
2. It'll be separated into groups and each group will have their own topic
3. I'm broke
4. I'll be bored
5. I need to study
So at night while having dinner with my family at the nearby restaurant, few called up to persuade me to attend. Yes, in the end, I went because an old friend, Tze Chooi who migrated back to Alor Star was back in KL for vacation. We were close friends and I actually went up to AS to visit her few years back and an opportunity to meet her without the need to travel far made me attend the gathering.
At first, my mother who was so confident that she knows the gathering venue wasted 15 minutes turning round and round to look for the shop called One Station. At last, Tuck Seng my buddy (knew him since standard 1) came and rescued me. Anyway, the first person I saw was my class teacher for primary 4,5 and 6---Mdm.Tan. I took a seat beside TS and the next thing I know was I'm talking non-stop for 3 hours to everybody.
What shocked me most was when I started chatting with Mdm.Tan. She has problems with her daughters. Apparently her eldest, sitting for SPM this year is quite bad in studies because she is too involved in her scout activities. Her younger daughter whose English is not that fantastic is also having problem with her studies. Why was I shocked?? I came to the conclusion that teachers can educate students but not their kids. I suddenly recalled her youngest daughter (also studying in KB) telling me that Mdm.Tan has insomnia. Sad right??
Since I was late, a few friends tried to bully me by asking me to name all the people who was there, one by one. Thanks god my memory did not fail me, especially when it came to this gal where everybody had hard time recalling her name. When she heard me speaking her name, she was so overjoyed that she stood up and hugged me. People really do like it when you remember them (so don't you dare forget me!!). Ya, a few KBians were there too, I think was just coincidence.
About my theory, it seems that number 1,2,3, and 4 did not happen but 5 really did happen because by them time I reached home, it was 12.45am. Do not misjudge me, it is my 1st time staying out this late but you can't blame because I need one of them to fetch me home and they did not want to leave. Anyway, by the time I reached home dad and mom was sleeping while sis was watching Shark Tale on TV3.
And you know what? I did wake up at 7am and attended the puja (prayers session) at temple just like what I promised. I walked the talk!!!! So proud of myself, and since I did something that I write here, I'll tell you guys another thing--I'm skipping McDonald for this year. I'll only allow myself 4 times of McDonald meal this year. I'll keep you guys posted if I ever have a meal, just to keep track.
Now, I'll let the pictures do the talking
Everybody who came for the gathering. The gal in grey is the gal leaving. Mdm.Tan sitting beside me. Spot any familiar faces?
jing yi and hui san. I have no idea why I took this picture. All I know was, "Eh, I haven't take picture with you, come come!" and there I was stuck in the middle.
My buddy and close friend, Tuck Seng and Tze Chooi ^^ (Tuck Seng looks retarded here..lol)
We were one clique in primary school, another few in not in this picture. Notice the 2 guys in white shirt? Boy they look so blur. Standing from left: Khee Leong, me, Tze Chooi. Below: TS and Jonathan(Son of my standard 3 English teacher who actually spoiled a chair by sitting with one leg, since then called him cho lan dang in Cantonese)
Guys and gals. Guys from left: Tze Xiang (Tze Chooi's cousin who is also in the same class), TS and Khee Leong. Gals from left: Hui San, Jing Yi, me and Tze Chooi.
The guy at the far right is Wei Liang-one of my group mates. Recalled how I used to bully him last time even though he is so BIG. All acting crazy except Tze Xiang
In this picture, we were suppose to act normal and smile but Tze Xiang always do the opposite. If I have the time I'll upload my primary school band picture where you can see everybody lined up and posed like a discipline school band and there Tze Xiang was yawning away. Honest, what we can see is his big wide mouth and his body.
With our beloved Mdm.Tan. Actually we were half way telling her how to make her daughter study when Jing Yi suddenly said:" come, let's take pic!!"
Everything went well, and I believe 10 years down the road we'll still know each other and remember each other (I will, hopefully you too). Friend from HELP, I'll never forget you guys too!!! I miss you guys lots....
Saturday, January 5, 2008
mixed feelings
Let's take our mind off studies for a moment and think of something that we would love to have or do. For the moment, when I looked at my notes, I feel like I have the obligation to finish every single page but when I feel the notes or books, I have the humongous urge to throw it out of my window into the drain. Thus, to save my fantastic notes and pass year books, I've decided to not touch it. BAD CHOICE because I just realised its xxx more days to the 1st paper!!!!
Alright, what I feel like doing now is just lie on my cozy bed and indulge in a never ending story book. I know maybe I can do it after the exam but ever since the study break started, I can't take my hands off Harry Potter series. After finishing all the seven books, I went to my "small library" and started to look for other interesting books. Ah, interesting books are paradise to me!!!
Next, I realised I haven't been going to the temple for almost a year since I started to dislike the teacher who was imparting her valuable knowledge to us. I skipped the first day of class because I hate introduction day and honestly almost every year we learn (repeat) the same old things, and first day is always about basic. The next week, I went and its was ok until I realise she was a control freak. " Raise your hands when you want to speak", "you cannot go to the toilet when I am teaching", "why did you not attend my last week's class?", "if you skip another day, I would love you to not attend my class for the rest of the year"....etc. Every time she start to chant her favourite phrase as above, I would have the urge to tell her off and I can actually feel heat spreading throughout my body. Its not good to have anger in a temple but I can't help it because, HELLO!! We took the initiative to attend your pathetic class and we get your lectures instead? Its not like we asked our mother to be sick and not send us to the temple??!!
Anyway, I'll try to attend the puja from tomorrow onwards at least since I have been going to the temple since 6 years old.
On 2nd Jan, our beloved Health Minister resigned. I was actually angry that he was involved in such scandal but I can't help feeling sad that he resigned. Yes, its a bad reputation but he did so MUCH good!! He actually knows what it feels to be a doctor, to work hard and thus he implemented a lot of changes that is advantageous to doctors. But because he did something disgraceful, people condemned him(yours truly is guilty too). But his private life doesn't really affects his way of working. Come on, I doubt that all our ministers in Malaysia are clean. Everyone has weakness!! The bottom line is, I hate to see a good man leave.
I honestly think I suck in ballet. I can't improve and my basic are just sucky. I really feel that taking up ballet is a huge mistake. I don't see the point of doing the same thing over and over again without any improvement. There's a few times where I felt like giving up and just cry. I just am not born to dance ballet. I just do not have the talent. Bur on the other hand, I do not like to do things half way. I always feel that if you start something, you make sure you finish it up. Just moments ago in class, my teacher asked us why are we here at this level and still want to progress by taking the exam? She asked us further why not continue dancing without taking exam, it'll make life easier for us and her (she wont feel so stressed up). At the instant, I voiced out my opinion bout finishing what you started. "It doesn't mean if you start something, you MUST finish it especially when you know you are not born to be a dancer" was what my teacher told us (my another friend has the same principle). To tell the truth, I really feel like giving up but I can't because I have my principle to follow. If I give up now, I can't face myself when I look at the mirror. Its kind of hard to juggle between studies, classes, chores and stuff like that. I can't focus on either one and excel in any. I'm just a type of "jack of all trades, master to none".
Few days back I helped my teacher to teach her class at another ballet school, then I returned to my ballet school to return the CDs because I borrowed from my school. When I enter the school, my lady boss's daughter was so delighted to see me that she hugged me. My lady boss was also happy to see me and she asked about my studies since I stopped work to "study / revise". Then she asked about my plans after the exam and I asked why. She replied" cos I want you back here to work, that gal very blur la." Appreciating me was what I always look for in life, and I was so happy for the rest of the day. When I told my mother about what my lady boss said, she was happy for me too and said :" Go and work lar since you'll be free." Well, the problem is, she don't like the fuss of sending me up and down and can't rely me to take care of the house or fetch my sister from school when she's not free. The moment I hinted her these problems, straight away she said :" NO NO!! Don't work!!" See, my mother can change her mind just in a blink of eye and can promise you things without thinking through. When she realise there is a loop hole somewhere, she'll break your heart and plans by telling you the CONS...
Anyway, all these feelings have been so mixed up that I do not know if I have anymore feelings. Do not look forward to tomorrow...NO!! Tomorrow must go temple..MUST!!!
Alright, what I feel like doing now is just lie on my cozy bed and indulge in a never ending story book. I know maybe I can do it after the exam but ever since the study break started, I can't take my hands off Harry Potter series. After finishing all the seven books, I went to my "small library" and started to look for other interesting books. Ah, interesting books are paradise to me!!!
Next, I realised I haven't been going to the temple for almost a year since I started to dislike the teacher who was imparting her valuable knowledge to us. I skipped the first day of class because I hate introduction day and honestly almost every year we learn (repeat) the same old things, and first day is always about basic. The next week, I went and its was ok until I realise she was a control freak. " Raise your hands when you want to speak", "you cannot go to the toilet when I am teaching", "why did you not attend my last week's class?", "if you skip another day, I would love you to not attend my class for the rest of the year"....etc. Every time she start to chant her favourite phrase as above, I would have the urge to tell her off and I can actually feel heat spreading throughout my body. Its not good to have anger in a temple but I can't help it because, HELLO!! We took the initiative to attend your pathetic class and we get your lectures instead? Its not like we asked our mother to be sick and not send us to the temple??!!
Anyway, I'll try to attend the puja from tomorrow onwards at least since I have been going to the temple since 6 years old.
On 2nd Jan, our beloved Health Minister resigned. I was actually angry that he was involved in such scandal but I can't help feeling sad that he resigned. Yes, its a bad reputation but he did so MUCH good!! He actually knows what it feels to be a doctor, to work hard and thus he implemented a lot of changes that is advantageous to doctors. But because he did something disgraceful, people condemned him(yours truly is guilty too). But his private life doesn't really affects his way of working. Come on, I doubt that all our ministers in Malaysia are clean. Everyone has weakness!! The bottom line is, I hate to see a good man leave.
I honestly think I suck in ballet. I can't improve and my basic are just sucky. I really feel that taking up ballet is a huge mistake. I don't see the point of doing the same thing over and over again without any improvement. There's a few times where I felt like giving up and just cry. I just am not born to dance ballet. I just do not have the talent. Bur on the other hand, I do not like to do things half way. I always feel that if you start something, you make sure you finish it up. Just moments ago in class, my teacher asked us why are we here at this level and still want to progress by taking the exam? She asked us further why not continue dancing without taking exam, it'll make life easier for us and her (she wont feel so stressed up). At the instant, I voiced out my opinion bout finishing what you started. "It doesn't mean if you start something, you MUST finish it especially when you know you are not born to be a dancer" was what my teacher told us (my another friend has the same principle). To tell the truth, I really feel like giving up but I can't because I have my principle to follow. If I give up now, I can't face myself when I look at the mirror. Its kind of hard to juggle between studies, classes, chores and stuff like that. I can't focus on either one and excel in any. I'm just a type of "jack of all trades, master to none".
Few days back I helped my teacher to teach her class at another ballet school, then I returned to my ballet school to return the CDs because I borrowed from my school. When I enter the school, my lady boss's daughter was so delighted to see me that she hugged me. My lady boss was also happy to see me and she asked about my studies since I stopped work to "study / revise". Then she asked about my plans after the exam and I asked why. She replied" cos I want you back here to work, that gal very blur la." Appreciating me was what I always look for in life, and I was so happy for the rest of the day. When I told my mother about what my lady boss said, she was happy for me too and said :" Go and work lar since you'll be free." Well, the problem is, she don't like the fuss of sending me up and down and can't rely me to take care of the house or fetch my sister from school when she's not free. The moment I hinted her these problems, straight away she said :" NO NO!! Don't work!!" See, my mother can change her mind just in a blink of eye and can promise you things without thinking through. When she realise there is a loop hole somewhere, she'll break your heart and plans by telling you the CONS...
Anyway, all these feelings have been so mixed up that I do not know if I have anymore feelings. Do not look forward to tomorrow...NO!! Tomorrow must go temple..MUST!!!
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
jeremy sumpter
First of all Happy New Year to everyone!!!
Next, I would like to introduce someone to all of you.
MEI JEAN, YOU CAN SKIP THIS PART, THE LOWER PART IS NOT ABOUT HIM OK!!
May be you guys know him but maybe not. So why take the chances?
Let me present....Jeremy Sumpter...
MEI JEAN, NEXT PARAGRAPH!!!
Instead of studying (Bad Hwei jene), I watched the television. Tv2 was showing Peter Pan and ya, he acted as the boy who'll never grow old. He was so cute and hot that when I came online, I went and Googled him. He's is younger than me 1 year, ok, he's 19 this year. He has a twin sister and another younger sister, maybe thats why he looks so girlish. Anyway, he's such a cutie.
ok, I was showing MJ his pic in msn and she said he was so girl and she said if I'm going to blog about him she'll not read my blog so you can see many red huge warning words for her.
What have I achieved last year. Quite a lot I confess but I'm not going to blog about it today because today is a new year, a new beginning, a new start. No, I'm not going to blog about what my resolution is either.
I am going to talk about what I read on 30th Dec 2008, the front page of New Straits Time. The BIG title was ---So What's Safe To Eat Now? Actually what caught my eye was---bread and cereal products top the 'health risk' list, followed by fish, fruits and beverages. I have been eating stuff like this since I stopped consuming rice and now they said it'll kill me. So what can we eat??
While I was browsing to get the link, another story caught my attention. Today's front page--I am the one in the sex DVD, says Chua. What a shock I have to actually read this news. For once I believed he and Dato Ong Ka Ting are honest man. People that do not agree to corruption and eeuuww, this is way worst than corruption!!
1 week ago, I attend my work place's annual dinner at Tai Thong at SS2 and I actually saw him. I was so excited because I have the luck to meet the health minister. When I went home, I was so happy to tell my mother and when I found this news I was disgusted to announce my discovery. We were sitting on the same chair (she's sitting on it, I was just leaning) and reading his confession. A health minister involved in an affair. Now who is to blame? MAN!! The wife was so lovely and supportive and he had an affair??!! And what's worst? The wife gets to know the affair through a sex DVD!!!
Let me share a joke entitled--Women As Explained by Engineers
And I wonder who to blame?? Making us female so complicated??
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU TOO ^^
Next, I would like to introduce someone to all of you.
MEI JEAN, YOU CAN SKIP THIS PART, THE LOWER PART IS NOT ABOUT HIM OK!!
May be you guys know him but maybe not. So why take the chances?
Let me present....Jeremy Sumpter...
MEI JEAN, NEXT PARAGRAPH!!!
Instead of studying (Bad Hwei jene), I watched the television. Tv2 was showing Peter Pan and ya, he acted as the boy who'll never grow old. He was so cute and hot that when I came online, I went and Googled him. He's is younger than me 1 year, ok, he's 19 this year. He has a twin sister and another younger sister, maybe thats why he looks so girlish. Anyway, he's such a cutie.
ok, I was showing MJ his pic in msn and she said he was so girl and she said if I'm going to blog about him she'll not read my blog so you can see many red huge warning words for her.
What have I achieved last year. Quite a lot I confess but I'm not going to blog about it today because today is a new year, a new beginning, a new start. No, I'm not going to blog about what my resolution is either.
I am going to talk about what I read on 30th Dec 2008, the front page of New Straits Time. The BIG title was ---So What's Safe To Eat Now? Actually what caught my eye was---bread and cereal products top the 'health risk' list, followed by fish, fruits and beverages. I have been eating stuff like this since I stopped consuming rice and now they said it'll kill me. So what can we eat??
While I was browsing to get the link, another story caught my attention. Today's front page--I am the one in the sex DVD, says Chua. What a shock I have to actually read this news. For once I believed he and Dato Ong Ka Ting are honest man. People that do not agree to corruption and eeuuww, this is way worst than corruption!!
1 week ago, I attend my work place's annual dinner at Tai Thong at SS2 and I actually saw him. I was so excited because I have the luck to meet the health minister. When I went home, I was so happy to tell my mother and when I found this news I was disgusted to announce my discovery. We were sitting on the same chair (she's sitting on it, I was just leaning) and reading his confession. A health minister involved in an affair. Now who is to blame? MAN!! The wife was so lovely and supportive and he had an affair??!! And what's worst? The wife gets to know the affair through a sex DVD!!!
Let me share a joke entitled--Women As Explained by Engineers
And I wonder who to blame?? Making us female so complicated??
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU TOO ^^
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