Merdeka!!!

Gonna be a short post because I am emo~~

The tradition which my band started when I was in form 1--joining Merdeka parade every year, strutting and doing our stuff along Dataran, getting claps and cheers from the audience, feeling patriotic and all...

Now what is left is disappointment and shame because I guess after my batch left the band, juniors performed poorly and got kicked out by the military. The military are the one that trained us before we get the honour to perform during 31st August.

For all my years in band in secondary school, building the reputation, forming the ideal band with discipline and all...now are wasted. So sad...Effort felt like wasted...

29th was the full dress rehearsal and I was in the train at 10 something and I saw a lot of buses on the road and I felt sad because I know none of the buses is fetching my band =(

This morning, the helicopters and jets were practicing their stuff (passed by the vista's blocks)and it reminds me the experience of being at Dataran, running around, socialising and spotting some old band friends made during previous merdeka rehearsals.....haih....

WHY LA THEY DID SO BADLY IN YEAR 2007 THAT THEY GOT KICKED OUT??!!!!!

Orientation part 3

Ok, my mistake, Threesome NOW ROCKS!!!!!

Friday was Treasure Hunt, my most favourite activity of all in Orientation and SURPRISINGLY 15 turned up!!! Yes, freaking 15!!! And we had lots of fun!!! I loved it even though there were no ragging or whatsoever, and the games and people involved were GREAT!!!!

1st station--the macha wannabe gang--commander crawl on mud + egg+ paint and use mouth pick up the ping pong ball in the mud. Yes, those brainless people still went on with the game even after learning bout parasite and bacteria but it was fun and they were nice. DUH...most of the Indians involved were those bullied badly last orientation. But we had great fun and happy ^^ (actually all of us OO were scared when we saw them at first because we thought we'll get ragged badly..LOL) We just end up muddy and smelly and those who wore shorts had small cuts.

2nd station--Indian Gals from our batch--blindfold and balance a sponge on the head while one of us give instructions, next person take the sponge when the blindfolded person reach a point, duck walk to a place and fill up a bottle. The game was actually fun but some of the station master people spoiled the fun. But, I was OK with them. They just shoot water at us and put paint on our face/shirt.

3rd station--Jon, Jade, Jo Ann and Wei Phin's station--shave 2 balloons with a small shaver. It was OK but the fact that Wei Phin was there make it NOT FUN (joking). It was Ok but we lost so end up one of our junior turned into JOKER. Flour all over his face, lipstick to make his mouth and he really looked like Joker, seriously!! Apparently Wei Phin asked one of the junior to do something to me but nothing happened and Wei Phin told that junior " do **** to Hui Ling..." What a PBL mate to forget my name. I am so gonna shoot him and make life difficult for him during PBL because I know he don't really search for all the learning issues..hehehe...

4th station--dancing gang--those 3 that think they are ugly step out, next pull another 3 that are ugly out. Of course I volunteered (dun since when I say I am not ugly..LOL), end up playing Jay Jay and Rudy's Yes, No, mm, ah game. Of course lost. LOL

5th station--Jun Hua and Teddy's Crusaider Club--Answer some questions regarding HIV and the answer is written on something. Our 1st answer was saliva (question--HIV can't be transmitted via?) and the word saliva was written on an egg. EGG!!!! I went crazy and volunteered to let one of my juniors crack the egg on my head. HE WAS SO BODOH!!!!!!!! Hahahaha....he took the head and hit on my head hoping my head is hard enough to crack the egg, happily he hit my head with the egg and end up all of us laughing coz the egg was NOT cracked but my head HURTS!!! hahahahahahaha.....so funny!!!! Ya, had the egg on my head then we got to search 2 pieces od papers (clues) in a container filled with flour and all of got to search for it without using our hand. Hence we blew and blew AND BLEW and end up looking like Geishas. The bodoh guy who cracked the egg aka joker was so Good!!!! He blew like the wolf who tried to blow the pig's house down and he was soo GOOD!!! hahahahaha, I just couldn't stop laughing because it was just down right FUNNY!!! hahahahaha.....Jun Hua aka our group OO was happy to hear our cheer because we were great. Team spirit RULES!!!!

6th station--another more senior gang--This station was FUNNY!! We were asked volunteer 1 bridegroom, 1 bride, 1 bride's maid, 1 best man and a priest. The other gals were asked to pour green sticky yucky stuff on the hair while us OOs pour those same yucky greeny slimy "mucous" on their slippers. I think those disgusting stuffs are starch. Anyway, after pronouncing them husband and wife, he made us draw organs on 2 guys. Next, we got to dance cha cha down the stairs and shout (LOL) Param is Gay. Hahahaha, Param is one of our junior, a Punjab from Aussie. Why him? Blame his mouth..Hahahahaha....Btw, the station master said our cheer was the BEST SO FAR!!!! Wooooo~~~~~

Overall, we did great and bonded well, real well. The only thing that pissed me off was some of the OOs. The few gals OOs are just pure "Gals/Sissy/Bimbos"!!! Seriously, they keep talking, stalling us, complain, whine etc. So irritating and one of them had the nerves to say "faster la, you guys so slow!!" And she was the last person walking behind there...Grrrr...so...ISH!!!!! The whole journey, what did she contributed? Err....NOTHING besides making us slow. Every single station, I joined in and got dirty and they were so clean!!! This other bimbo was so irritating because she brought her oh-so-important bag and asked me to carry. If it was a knapsack I don't mind at all but it was a sling bag and so hard to run with it you know. You bring, you carry but Noooo, can you help me carry please and off she went trying to "bond" with the juniors. So ISH!!! Got more but haih, whatever la, I know they joined because they want to know the cute guys.

Apparently group 7 to 12 had to face the 2 notorious macha gang where they actually used curry powder and raw fish. Like usual, asked the guys to take off their shirt and dumped it in the raw fish+ donno-what-smelly water then wear it again. So sad...lucky us ^^

Signature Hunt
We have a list of senior's signature to get and I don't understand the other OOs who stays in Vista aka apartments opposite uni. The juniors finished their class by 12.30, we have class at 2.45 so bring the juniors for signature hunt la!!!! They need at least one OO and what were all the other OOs doing? I don't want to know, trying to not raise my blood pressure here. Anyway, went and search for the juniors after I reached uni, brought them and hunted for signature. Actually it was fun because I got to know the sem3 seniors better and they are all nice people ^^

Telematch this morning was FUN!!!!! Threesome really was threesome because only 3 juniors turned up and I have no idea what made us so enthu. We actually won 4 out of 6 stations and our cheer was REALLY LOUD!!! Actually 4 juniors turned up, 1 was late. There was 4 OOs too so Threesome had 8 people, compared to the other groups which had at least 10 juniors excluding OOs.

Before the station games started, OOs VS juniors--caterpillar walk up the hill and DUH of course we OOs won!! LOL

1st station--transfer chairs from one end to another without touching the floor and we were GREAT because even thought we had only 4 juniors we won and was way quicker than the other group which had almost 17 people. Yeah Threesome!!!

2nd station--we had to roll dice and each number represent a food to eat. There were
1. choc powder + raw egg
2. yogurt + garlic + onion
3. raw chopped onions
4. raw vegetable
5. raw vegetable + raw bitter gourd
After finishing the food assigned to us, we had to drink coffee too. YUCK!! I had the onions and it was gross...eeuuww....when I burped still can smell the oniony smell....eeuuwww...anyway we WON!!!

3rd station--duck walk, blow balloon til it burst, last person commander crawl. Sounds easy? The catch was--balloon was so hard to blow, very slippery and it was soaked in chilly water. YUP, so it was hot!!!! We lost but we had fun ^^

4th station--Impulse--station master flip a coin, if it is heads u squeeze the behind person's hand and that person will squeeze the next person hand...last person got to pick up a sponge before the next team does. The catch is, you might be too excited and accidentally squeeze your friend's hand hence sending a wrong impulse. We lost here too.

5th station--walk on 2 bricks to the other end+ 3 legged walk + helicopter turns. 8 person played this game so 4 on each side and repeat the same thing. We WON!!!!! We were GREAT!!!!! LOL

6th station--Arm destructor--the whole group got to do push ups and accumulate them till 400. The opponent group had LOTS of people but we 8 actually finished first and without any other seniors help. Meaning 8 of us managed to accumulate 400 push ups faster than the other team which had more people. More people means each of them can do less and not end up tired. 8 of us just ROCKS!!!!!!

7th station--baking session--There were about 8 pieces of newspapers on the ground and each newspaper had flour/curry powder/butter etc on it. Since we were the last group, all the curry powder on the newspaper, flour, butter were dried up so it was only the seniors pouring onto our head or putting it on us. It was OK la....LOL

Next was cheer. Not cheer fight, just cheer and rest but end up we sem2 seniors went crazy and keep shouting our batch cheer "MEDT bang bang bang" so the committee members asked all batch to gather and present to the juniors our batch cheer for IMU Cup. We actually did not have any batch cheer besides that short cheer so we end up incorporating Bombshell's cheer and presented to them. LOL.

Then it was handball game (seniors VS juniors) and those that did not take part just rested under the trees hence we seniors who also didn't join took water balloons and ambushed them. Izyan and I well, targeted on you-know-who. It was so funny because our 1st attempt failed miserably. We threw the water balloon on him and it BOUNCED off and hit the floor....it was doink....splashed. When it splashed of course Paul escaped. Second attempt failed too but not that bad because the balloon burst in our hands when we started throwing at him. It was just so FUNNY!!! hahahahaha.....BUT during photo taking session, someone passed a packet of flour to me so YUP, Paul got it!! Hahahaha, revenge for the revenge he made.

Anyway, the angry part for this telematch was, SOME OO was so free to sleep instead of joining us and even dare to wake up, bid us goodbye then continue to sleep. WHAT THE!!!! I actually sacrificed my 1pm-7pm ballet class and mind you each class I missed cost me RM35!!!! So I lost out RM70!!!! Grrr...but honestly it was really worth it and that latecomer was really someone I did not expect to see---one of the Malay guy. You see, all this orientation activities clashes with their praying time so most of the time they won't join us so he coming was WOW!! Yeah!!

I stayed overnight at Izyan's place again after Treasure Hunt because there weren't enough OOs for telematch. All of us (the group and OOs) had supper till 12 something am then Gaik Si (Izyan's house mate also one of the OO) gatal, went and called a few people (Alex, Elaine, Jian Loong and Shu Yi) to stay over and watch Ju-On and they were so scared. Seriously, I don't think they actually watched it because most of the time they were either closing their eyes, turning away or take a pillow to cover their face. I think I was too tired till no feel. LOL

Anyway, this week has been a great week for me except that I am extremely tired and I haven't been studying. Mock exam is on 15th September and I am so dead!!! I am really proud of my group now and so happy for them. So glad that we managed to get our team spirit and members to join the activities and had so much fun together!!! Next week will be the things I don't fancy--Dress code, Variety night--where we got to perform and make a sketch or dance or something. BUT I am the OO, so I guess it won't be that bad unless my group screw it up again. LOL

PS: During Treasure Hunt, whatever dirt/butter/flour on me, some went to Paul. LOL. Izyan and I even went hunting for flour and pour on his shirt and hair. During telematch, more flour and we used our water balloon on him. Hahaha, I know we were bad but we 3 had FUN pouring flour on each other and chasing each other with watever dirt we have. LOL. Ya, someone asked Paul if Karam and I are dating and I wonder who is that person. Paul has mosquito brain when it comes to remembering senior's name =( Honestly, of Karam and I dating, we would be...laughing non-stop the whole time but maybe will act like usual..talking and laughing....I have to admit I like Karam's company but not that type of like...LOL

Couldn't resist not putting this picture..LOL

Orientation part 2

Threesome....is a little disappointing. The original group consists of 17 people but for yesterday's Ice Breakers, only 10 showed up and that totally broke the team spirit. They were trying to have fun but eventually, you can see "defeat" written all over their face. It was very obvious when there was cheerfight and all because when every group sat and rest, our group has the shortest line. SAD =( They were practically not enthu at all and the turnout makes us OOs sad too. Besides, they had lots of time to meet up and discuss but everytime when we asked if they are meeting, the answer is No, the others are at home resting....what the...

Anyway, Ice Breakers was fun..FOR US OOs because we syok sendiri. One of the game was sorting according to month of birthday, state of origin, college etc and all of us OO gathered and formed an OO month, IMU state, OO college etc. Later at wet ice breakers, we got dirty and it's so obvious that it is the seniors that are having fun because most of the station masters are our batch mates so instead of focusing on the juniors, we got it bad--margarine, flour, paints, wet flour, glue etc all over our head, face, shirt...
NEWS: Paul kena teruk teruk from me because I had lots of dirty stuff on me so I went and passed it on to Paul, he was...Hahahahahaha....

Staying overnight at Izyan's/ Nirmals's / Gaik si's place was FUN!! After having supper with the juniors and tried to bond them up, we reached home finding Ash on the couch at the living room. Instead of making him start his AIR Topic, we end up chatting. All 5 of us chat till 4.30am and I had Clinical Skills Unit at 8am so I practically slept for 2.5 hours. WOW right? Don't ask me what we chat because I don't recall half of it since we were actually dead tired.

At night I joined my OOs and jing, went to the Sri Petaling steamboat to celebrate Jun Hua's birthday. When Karam send me his msg, I accidentally said his name out loud and out of the 5 Oos, 3 reads my blog and they find the name "Karam" very familiar and one of them (I know was joking) asked whether I am dating Karam. OMG!!! SO HILARIOUS!!! I can't imagine Karam and I having a date, sitting opposite each other, having a candle night dinner .....Hahahahahahahah...... Karam, we dating??!! Hahahahahahhahaa......

Tomorrow we are having treasure hunt, the activity I look forward the most!! Remembered a sem 5 seniors named me the most sporting junior. LOL Hopefully everything will continue happily and more people will turn up and have fun!!!!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUN HUA AND LILIAN!!!

Orientation for M2/08

Well, I am extremely excited because I got to play around with juniors and HAHAHAHA....PAUL IS ONE OF THEM!!!! hahahahaha...OK, I am evil. I was actually hoping that Paul will be in my group but he is in Esther's group, its good because that group's OO are GREAT!!!!

Anyway, as some of you know number 3 is one of my lucky number and yup, my group is Group 3 and we named ourselves as Threesome!!! I know it sounds wrong, wait till u know, Group 4 is called FOURPLAY!!!! hahahahahaha....weird people with weird name. Sadly to say I find my group similar to MY orientation group. I don't think the members are enthu enough (ask Paul about this group!! His group leader SIAO!!! Perfectionist!!! Did not let them go home because they need to finish up their cheer and flag and all...my group, all went back and zzz...LOL)

Enough said about orientation, I'll fill you guys up after the activities and mind you, I am so gonna find Paul's "cuteness" in this orientation and broadcast it here..LOL

My gang, has been....I don't know...hating each other? Each of us somehow dislike some of us. An example, I really can't stand people with punctuality issue and yup, there is a few with it..let's not touch about responsibilities (Gosh, asking someone to just book seats is like going to HELL). My batch is really a kiasu batch. One hour before lecture, most of us got to get into the lecture hall to actually book place, if you are late, you can see that most of the chairs have paper on it and mind you, those paper are just maybe a blank sheet of paper or the lecture note. Hence, I got to be like them, KIASU and I don't know why the other gang (except Jing) ALWAYS take their own sweet time, come in late and don't even bother to take the initiative to save seats for us (not even once). I do not mind saving 5 seats its just that the attitude I get back. Grr...feel so used!!

Btw, I just want to make SOME people jealous (go scold/blame/merajuk at him again if you dare!!). Karam called me (straight from aussie)and we talked for almost an hour!! Muahahahah...nanny nanny poo poo!! =P

Tonight the orientation activity is ice breaker and it'll end quite late and we'll be WET (so looking forward to it) so I am staying overnight at Izzy's place ^^ I also spoke to my mother's best friend's son (finally) and was shocked when Ray Mun actually knows my name and teased him "you don't know she's from HELP meh?" then another shocking thing from that guy "my mother said your maths very good, always get 90 and above"..Hahahah...so not true because I think I got all above 95 mind you!! Hahaha...JOKING!!! Anyway, Maths is insignificant in my field of studies so it doesn't matter now. (Just thinking back old times when I am so confident with myself when it comes to Maths, now.....blah...)

Got to go, could find time to blog because my ballet teacher overslept again and I woke up early for nothing. So tired lately don't know why =(

PS: I miss you guys a lot!!!!

me OO??

OO=orientation officer

I have no idea why when people start to ask around about the coming orientation and when I tell them I am an OO, they will be shocked. Is it because I don't seem like the people that do things like this? Am I being judge as nerd/geek/anti-social that becoming an OO is something extra ordinary?

Anyway, Saturday morning went to Uni for the OO briefing and boy the crowd was shocking...there was only about 10 of us who showed up. Anyway, finally can see the real Woei Jiun in action and He is ahem, err, I don't know how he came up with the habit of putting one of his finger at his chin when he thinks or doubts what he is saying. Hahaha, weird la he. BTW, why am I talking about him? Because he is my mother's bestfriend's son and apparently we met and played together when we were small (I do not recall at all).

I have the feeling that this orientation will not be as crazy as ours because I recall the committee that organised our orientation are people with enthusiasm, very crazy and very high but on Saturday, this bunch of people were normal looking not crazy type except the Treasure Hunt guy. Boy he is really excited with his Day!! Hahahaha....

After the briefing, we learned the mass dance and it was FUN!! OK, now I totally understand what my ballet teacher say when she said I am not dancing but always doing the movement. I think and analyse too much. It was so obvious when we learning the dance. Many of us did not have dancing background and they just danced and enjoyed themselves while I was thinking and grr....anyway, when I realised bout this I loosen up and really enjoyed myself.

Next, I rushed to the train station because I have a high tea to catch and like what I have expected, when I am too excited or happy about things, those things will not turn out good and I usually will end up feeling sad.
1st- Mother was late
2nd- I had to wait under the sun for her for almost an hour
3rd- we could not spot each other and I end up getting scolding (like usual)
4th- food was sucky
5th- THERE WAS NO CHOCOLATE FONDUE!!! There goes my 1st time =(

I was supposed to study and catch up with the lectures but end up spending the whole day and night watching HBO because I do not have ASTRO at home and the movies were those nice ones-The pest (a stupid funny comedy),Vampire Bat (science fiction about mutated bats), Superman Return, Shrek 2, House of Wax....etc...

Now I end up completing nothing--studies, AIR, notes but I did accomplished something---sleeping a lot =(

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I don't know why but I have friends who tell me their stuffs and ask for my advice on certain things (love) like about bf or gf stuff. I am curious because I never had a real long lasting good memorable relationship because like what Navin said--I am a chicken. Yes, almost every flings that I have that end up with the question or hint of "wanna be my gf", makes me freak out and I'll like usual reject and say I don't know. And yes I usually regret that decision BUT I still cope with it AND still repeat the answer. Hence, I told myself rather than going through any of these nonsense I prefer staying single and NEVER available. LOL

Thats why ^^

Passed CPR!!!

I woke up late today and end up getting crushed in the train again. Enough is enough, seriously it is not fun to ride on train like what I've thought when I was younger.

Reached Uni and had breakfast, you guys should be proud of me since I AM EATING BREAKFAST but honestly I had breakfast because I had gastric when I woke up and it was too late for me to even make milk since I know if I take the later train, It'll be even more packed.

After breakfast, I went and prepare for my PBL and I met Kor Woi and Kyan. They really shocked me with what they have to say and really make my day. They told me I passed my CPR!! Yeah and I didn't even really take it seriously. The exam time was from 5pm to 6pm and by 5.30pm I've left the exam hall. LOL See how serious I took this exam? Me leaving the exam hall early is so not me!!

Next surprising news was, there were 79 people failed. I've prepared myself to fail because apparently they fail students to earn money since we have to pay RM40 when we resit and resit is compulsory. So from what I heard, they randomly fail students. Anyway, there is 121 medical students and 44 dental students. Out of this 212 medical students, 61 failed and out of 44 dental students, 18 failed. What is more shocking is 2 of the students that failed are qualified 1st aiders!! And 1 of them even ave the "corporal" rank!!

Kor Woi, our batch rep who was also my 1st sem PBL mate went and complained and after our lecture, the president of the SRC (student representative council) came in and gave a short speech regarding the CPR case and OSPE. The president, Leslie should be a lecturer because the moment he starts talking, all eyes were on him and for the 1st time I know that everyone was paying attention.

BTW, my PBL today was so FUN!!!!!! Starting to love PBL even more....LOL

Its a small small world...lalala

Just moments ago, when I checked my email I received a new friend request and well, I don't usually add people I don't know so off i went to check her profile and ...OMG!!!!

This friend of mine is Joanne's friend (why I put her name up, later I'll tell you guys). And they were school mates!!! See what she send me that make me remembered her....

"OH MY GOSH! is this a small world or WHAT!? i hope u remember me. our mothers used to work together at CIMB. we used to hang out at every company trip they go to! we used to love swimming together! please say u remember! do u???"

Yup, she is a friend whom I only meet and play with when our mother's company organises trips. I remember spending a lot of time at the pool with her..LOL and I'm so going back to tell my mother, I'm sure she'll be surprised too ^^
BUT OMG!!!! Really such a small world!!!

Back to Joanne. She's my uni mate and few days back I became Karam and her middle person. They are going to get engaged...NOT...OK, they were friends back in high school thru debate thing and now she is the middle person between me and my long lost childhood friend!!!

There are more inter-linking friends here. For an example Jing and Jacq, Karam and Nirmal, Wan Hoe and Kyan...just to name a few....

Reminds me of the song...
its a small world after all..
its a small world after all...
its a small world after all...
its a small... small world....
lala la la la..lala la la la....


**My batch mates, well actually all of us are just feeling stressed and tired. After the 1st lecture, was the PPD lecture (lecture that will not be asked in exam) so more than half of our batch left and the few of us went crazy waiting for the next lecturer to come. It all started with a 3 guys sitting in front, leaning against the wall, then more and more people joined. Next our beloved batch rep started singing (he always sings with the mike in front) and then he put up the song "I'm Yours" and most of us started to sing along......until the lecturer came which surprisingly told us that this is included in exam. (claps for those who left!!!)
The lecture was not interesting but not boring neither, I don't know, maybe all of us there were bonkus that we did not know what was going on. LOL

People!!!!!

I am so tired but yesterday just cheered me up...LOL

This week, my ballet school is having the term break BUT I still have ballet class because my teacher ffk me a few times so she asked me to come for replacement class. I am now currently catching up with studies and I am reaching there soon because I stopped making notes =(

Yesterday, I was thinking and started to doubt myself if I am the friend I think I am. Recently a lot of things happened and my temper is flaring and as a friend, we should accept everyone with an open heart and when I mean accept, I mean accept their blunders, bad habits and all. UNFORTUNATELY, I have been annoyed easily with the things people around me are doing. Somehow, the little things they say, the non-verbal gesture, their thought, the things they do and many more just drive me up the wall. WHY am I not accepting them like how I did previously to all of you guys? What had happened to me?

So while I was in my deep thought, I heard my hand phone beeping so off I went and distracted myself from feeling more guilty. Surprisingly I received 2 messages and they are from the people that I always lend my ears and support to-my dearest beloved sifu and my equation friend (-----). The messages contained just a few words but it meant a lot to me. It woke me up from the negative thought (how could I doubt myself?!) and I realised, I have ups and down and maybe they caught me at the wrong time (who am I kidding?).

Okay, honestly that confidence did not last long UNTIL another someone send me a message that reminded me a lot of things (yes dear, I am drinking lots of water ^^) and boom!!! I felt happy and I stopped doubting myself. I know, its so fake but that was what I felt and hence this is what I blog.

ANYWAY, like what I've said earlier, I am catching up with studies and I am so looking forward to this Saturday!!!! Saturday morning I am going to Taman Megah and visit those "special" kids then....drum role..............longer please.............a little more..........and...........*chiang* I am going to stay overnight at a hotel and have high tea!!!!! Yeah!!!!!! Hahahahahaha....fat fat la =P (thats why I am dieting lor...LOL)


Olympics are going on at Beijing but there is another olympic going on in my mind.....

My Grrr Day...

First of all, I don't know how long I can stand living in this state. I practically sleep less then 6 hours per day, constantly working or thinking about things, lagging in studies hence trying so hard to catch up, suck in ballet so trying to find time to practice, slowly allowing friends to get on my nerves and I HATE THE FREAKIN TRAIN!!!!!!!

Let's be comical/sarcastic/funny/stoopid/weird/dumb/bimbo in this post...

I have no idea why I woke up by 4.30am so I went and finished my PBL research. Took the 6.48am train and I was literally squashed!!!!! Seriously, I was already feeling a little uneasy being in close range with so many people, then when the train reach the next stop, those people really pushed hard to get in and I was really squashed!!!! Haih, enough said about the train stuff, I'm sick and tired of complaining BUT I was actually smiling for a while because this whole incident made me think of MJ's reaction. I can practically hear her muttering F*** under her breath. LOL

Came to LRT, was trying hard to read back what I printed for PBL (I was sleepy already). Next thing I know, I missed my stop and got to change train. Fortunately I was optimistic because I was telling myself this is better than dozing off on the train and missing lots of stops and end up in an unfamiliar place. And ya, I broke my shoe strap yesterday when climbing the stairs at the train station. (Yik Jing, you are my savor!!)

Reached Uni, went to the library to print the notes from the lecturer I was angry with. Serious, almost all my batch mates hate her and guess what, I went up to her and gave her a piece of my mind when she stepped into the auditorium. I had a great big fight with her. I told her straight to her face that WE HATE HER and her jokes are REALLY LAME AND RACIST and I even asked her to not act cute. I actually said " Yes, one more thing, please act as your age alright? You're not in the age or era for cuteness, so grow up." That lecturer of course shouted things back at me and the whole auditorium was quiet, listening and looking at us intently. Never guessed I was this aggressive??

Her lecture for yesterday was alright until she started to cracked those lame jokes. She asked us-Do you know why we can get atherosclerosis? And guess what all of us replied? Yup, we shouted back-because of the Indonesians. hahahaha....it was amusing because she actually laughed so hard til we can see tears in her eyes. Besides, she even said that yesterday's lectures will be her last lecture with us and most of us smiled and said "awww" sarcastically. I on the other hand said--Thank god...praise the lord. I have no idea who put those words in my mouth but that was what I said and quite a few people heard me. (Opps...)

Quite a lot of blogs written by my batch mates have negative comments about her. I love Ashvini's the most. She just took down her picture, posted it up and wrote--someone please shoot her.
Its not that she's bad or what, I actually (minus the jokes) like her lectures. I don't feel sleepy or get lost in her lecture and that is good. BUT why am I so negative? Blame her habit of not putting the notes earlier.

Yup, another thing---later I am having my ballet trial exam and I am so........Ya, so.......
Guess I should just shut up and learn to be patience and strong. Ya, and learn to cope with my recent short temper, Yup, that bitch is back. Grrr...


** the paragraph in red went like this**
Reached Uni, went to the library and to print the notes from the lecturer I was angry with. serious, all my batch mates hate her and guessed what, I went up to her when she stepped into the auditorium. I told her (I don't know what tone I was using) that she haven't upload the Monday's notes yet and the one she uploaded was a repetition of the first lecture. later she announced to the whole batch that she's sorry and she'll upload it later. Ya, and things went well because I told myself to attend her lecture with an open mind, accept her for who she is and serious, everything was fine UNTIL SHE STARTED HER RACIST JOKES AGAIN. LOL. I tried didn't I?? And for those that believed I had a fight with her, you don't know me that well right??

perfectionist + Stoopid A***e T*y

Dear Helpies, do you guys remember all the nomination of different categories for the year book thing? Don't know what am I talking about? The one where you nominate your friend under different category such as Drama Queen, Drama King, future billionaire and stuff? Well, I was nominated under perfectionist and well, you-know-who nominated me...

Anyway, I actually did not expect any nomination but somehow my name got there and honestly deep down in me, I am sort of a perfectionist. Share with you guys somethings. When I was in primary school, I usually tie my own hair but when my Kakak tie for me, she usually will get scolding. Why? Because I always want my hair to be perfect and smooth, no bumps, no extra hair sticking out or anything like that. Ya, I was just too much because I remembered she spend almost half an hour just to tie my ponytail but in the end I pulled it off because she did not tie it perfectly.

And I guess I had lots of fun in Genting because I went there without any expectations. IF MJ actually told me the plan, I might actually end up not having as much as fun as those days. Just like in Band, whatever I do, I must plan and I literally plan it. I actually put time and what to do, and seriously I plan every hour. Hahaha, siao right? Anyway, like last Friday, the Chillies outing. It was supposed to be just 5 of us but somehow the plan was ruin and everything that happened after those "uninvited" people came, I just feel annoyed. HMPH!!!!

Who is A***e T*y?? She a lecturer and I HATE HER!!!!!!!!!!! Serious!!! I never hated any teacher or lecturer but she is the first!!!! Gosh!!!! She cracks lame jokes. Seriously LAME JOKES!!! Trying to imitate Dr.SriKumar, ARGH!!!! And she freaking haven't upload her notes onto the "I" Drive, the place where we get the lecture notes. That lecture was on MONDAY and today is WEDNESDAY!!!!!! I HATE HER!!!!!! She is so racist too!!!! Whatever disease such as Tuberculosis that happen here in Malaysia, she said Indonesian brought it here (and she finds it amusing because she laughs so hard). Then when she say if Tuberculosis is found in UK, the African brought it there. HELLO!!!! ONLY INDONESIAN COMES TO MALAYSIA IS IT?? ARGH!!!! Actually I hate her because she haven't upload the notes and since then whatever she says, I'll find fault. SERIOUS!!! SHE JUST RUINS MY DAY LA!!!!
And I guess because I planned to write notes after each lecturer and she ruined my plans, so ITS HER FAULT!!!!


Gosh, I am so cranky!!!! =(

blood finally clotting

Hey people, thanks so much for the concern. Really really appreciate all the care. Told you guys I wanted attention and attention I received. Hahaha....thanks so much ya!!!!!

Well, by 7ish, when I touched my wound with a tissue, there were still red blood stains but in a smaller portion and I could see the yellowish fluid aka plasma. By 10ish, FINALLY its more on plasma and less on bloody red. SO, I AM FINE!!! DON'T WORRY!!!

Dearest people that cared, I never like to visit the doctor since small because I hate being sick. Seriously, I can tell you all that few times I went and see the doctor or was admitted to hospital was due to my bad stomach cramps. Not menstrual cramp but donno what cramp. It'll be so painful that I could not stand up straight or walk properly that kind of pain and the last time I met the doctor was on Feb24 when I got gastroenteritis aka food poisoning.

Anyway, just touched my head with the tissue and its more on plasma, and just a little bloody red. SO DON'T WORRY. I guess my wound is a little deeper than what my mother thought, so it took a longer time to clot and since it is clotting nicely, I'll just ignore it and let my own body fix it ^^ (maybe my body lack some clotting factors or I lack of vitamin K?? Hmm...)


**Scary part was, when I combed my hair last night before going out for dinner, I forgot where my hair parting was!!! I thought I was going into amnesia!!!! Hahahahah...but, now I feel perfectly fine and ballet class was canceled so here I am blogging at such an early hour (6.30am).

Btw, how do you change your settings to publish post WITH time at the bottom? Mine is just date, no time.

Ouch!!! Pain!!!

I was packing and cleaning my room after so many weeks. Anyway, I got tired so went out and pet Spritz. He was lying below my mother's room's window, nicely dozing away. I went and pet until I was happy, then when I stood up, OUCH!!!!!!! I hit my head at the edge of the glass window. I did not realise it was open until I banged my head. Took a nice look at the edge of that window and saw so many strands of hair.

Went into the house, took a look at the mirror and then guess what I saw? BLOOD FLOWING DOWN TILL MY EARS!!! And I did not realise at all!!! Quickly went to the bathroom and wash the blood off. After letting the water flow for a few minutes, MENINGITIS AND LECTURE ON CELL INJURY appeared in my mind. Gosh, will I get meningitis? Will I succumb to blood clot in my brain? Swelling and all...for your info, our white blood cells aka leukocyte actually cause more damage when they do their job.

After that washing and scaring myself session, I went to the mirror and saw the same blood was still at the same place so off I went to hunt for tissues. Wiped it off and I just stoned, what to do next???!!! ARGH!!! Went into my room and smsed a few uni mates and asked for their advice. After chilling, I decided to tell my mother. I hate complaining such things to mother because I know I'll end up in tears. BUT, well, she is my mother so I woke her up and showed her my head.

When she sleeps and you wake her up, she'll be very grumpy and will scold us but this time she opened her eyes wide and asked me what happened. After relating the incident, she say its not deep, just about half an inch deep then SHE WENT BACK AND SLEEP!!!!! So I rather depend on my friends, and I was deciding whether to put antiseptic or not.

Anyway, to cut the story short, my head is still bleeding even after an hour, put antiseptic already and my head is throbbing so badly....will I become dumber?? =(




What I wrote above was written at 2 something. Now, its 6.30pm and when I touch the wound with tissue, it's still wet with blood, yes red blood not plasma ya. Anyway, I think I am being paranoid, know too much disease and keep relating to the things I have learned. I think, I am just Seeking for ATTENTION...so don't worry. Its just me trying to get sympathy and I am not going to see the doctor. Feel stupid if I see one. LOL

1st Chillies with uni mates

I guess Allen still made my day today. Went to uni happily, was not stressed in PBL, had fun in community service club's welcoming party and later at Chillies.

At the welcoming party, I was err...have you had the experience of wanting to tell someone something badly but never had the guts and when you got enough courage to approach him, he's no where to be found? This is about my mother's best friend's son. My mother's best friend was the one that asked my mom to send me to HELP because her son was there, she was also the one that asked my mom to send me to IMU. So he sort of was the guinea pig, testing the water before I dive in. Anyway,his mother helped me a lot as in get me my books and lab coat and all so I thought of introducing myself and ask him to thank his mom for me but, ya I chickened out. How did I know him and he didn't know me? It was more of a coincidence since we share an almost same name. Me Hwei Jene, he Woei Jin....ya, so In HELP some incident happened and that was how I knew who he was.

Anyway the Chillies part. It was at first a little annoying because it all started with the 2 birthday gals wanted to celebrate their birthday, then I wanted to join (How could I resist Molten Choc?), then the guys too so it was supposed to be 5 of us. Later, one of the guy asked another friend who drives (I think because he did not want to pay for taxi or train fee) to go then that guy likes this gal and wants that gal to go and well, more people was included. I don't mind big company but the gal had choir till 7pm and we were at Chillies by 6.15pm and was hungry so we went ahead and waited at Chillies (to book place too). It was a big mess because things were not organised and everything was not following the original plan and guess what? That choir gal was not even confirm if she's going so basically we were waiting for the other 2 who was waiting for this unconfirmed choir gal. You get what I mean?

It was getting on my nerves and to (sort of) pay back, we ordered our food and ate before they came. We 4 were really having a good time, well I was because I was high and happy and talking funnily and I was just so happy. I think it was the thought of Molten Choc. LOL. I was really really really happy and was really really really enjoying myself. We finished our food even before they arrived and so when they FINALLY arrived, we ordered our molten choc .

When OUR choc molten arrived, a few of them came and practically ate half of it for us. I was really really really annoyed by this spoon on my left which was NOT supposed to be there, digging and digging so MUCH!!!!!!!!!! Molten choc was supposed to eat like this ----> vanilla ice cream on top + choc cake + choc sauce oozing out=fabulous!!! BUT Noooo...this spoon on my left was digging non stop and hence the vanilla ice cream fell to the side, the choc sauce was all over and not oozing out anymore. Bottom line, this illegal annoying spoon was eating MY portion!!!!! I hate that person (I don't really know who because I was focusing on the spoon on how it destroy this fantastic mouth watering molten choc). So gonna hate this person...FREE LOADER!!!!!! I don't mind if you want to try, few spoons alright la but not la too much!!!! TAK TAU MALU!!!

Yer, so annoying la. When this gang of people came, I actually felt that they were intruding the space 4 of us had. I did not liked their company at all. Sad la that this 1st time had to end like this. Today is the opening ceremony for Olympic right? So when Malaysia was on TV, we shouted M'sia boleh twice and it was so funny. Almost all the customers in Chillies were looking and laughing at us. LOL

I found out that some "friends" do not deserve my friendship at all. I don't care what you feel, hurt or not because if you are that type of person, I don't give a damn. I'll be mean and I'll ignore you so I think that person should not even approach and talk to me because I really can be mean and rude. What type of person am I referring to? The person that makes friends because he can gain advantage or use us to get to some gal he is interested in. Gosh, hate these type of people la. If you are one of it, you better don't let me find out because if you cross my path, I really can make life difficult for you. Shoo!!!!!

On a lighter note, Karam called me again and I had molten choc (even though it was not a very satisfying one)!! AND I had 5 and a half cup of fruit juice!!! 2 apple juice, 1 mango, 1 green guava, 1 tomato (like drinking those can tomato sauce) and hald cup of orange juice. Hahahaha
Mmmmm......me want more!!!! See the vanilla ice cream in the chocolate coating flowind down and see the sauce oozing out?? Mmmm.....

someone made my day ^^

When I walked out from house, I was a little angry because dad did not send me to the train station to catch the train. I was a little annoyed because I was tired especially after my ballet class. But after walking and enjoying the morning breeze, I felt better and did not regret walking to the station. Few more meters before the station, it started to pour and the rain drops on my face made me feel fresh and light hearted. I miss walking under the rain.

When I walked to the ticket counter to buy my ticket, a tall guy and big build was walking towards me but he was covering his face with newspaper (sort of like indulging in the news). I actually did not recognise or even bother to want to look at him but somehow I was curious about him. Suddenly....ALLEN!!!! Hahahahahaha!!!!!!

Allen was one of the refugees who was working in ACTS (the place I completed my COP) and I was drawn to him because of the tattoos on his arm and body. He was (don't laugh) sexy and hot. He was tall and cute and macho all at the same time and he was mysterious when we first arrived at ACTS because he did not talk or mix with us like the others. I was actually counting my days till I meet him at the train station ever since he told me he stayed at Kepong.

Talked to him and found out that he was staying just few shops away from my ballet school!!!! Hahahahah!!!! He even told me that they were talking about me few days back because I haven't been going there for a while. I was actually scared when he say they were talking about me because I scared I did something wrong when I was helping out there, but well, they actually missed me. And I did not know he was already in his 40s, he looked like early 30s!!!! And he has 2 kids already!! One 12 years old, the other one 24!!! OMG!!

Later in lecture hall when I was telling Jing about the whole incident, I have no idea why I was so high, so happy, so funny...LOL...Allen Allen Allen...LOL. I guess maybe he is the guy I consider as good looking (its hard to come by, me considering guys good looking)? I don't know...LOL
AND Karam called me!!!!! Hahahaha....

Anyway, the stupid KTM was late again, for 1 hour and I am so dead because I haven't finish my PBL!!! ARGH but somehow I was not really mad, just annoyed like this morning. We are having CPR class this Saturday, anyone wanna be my dummy? Tomorrow (Friday)going to Chilis....miss the molten choc so much.

Ya, btw...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONATHAN CHEW RUZHE!!!!!!!

Sleepiness....zzz...

My feet is still killing me especially my calf!! When I climb up the stairs, I'll be telling myself no pain no pain.....Grr....

Friday in heels, walked around uni, mid valley, Sogo and Dataran...DAMN!!! How can that CC win So You Think You Can Dance??!! She is the weakest of them all, have an attitude problem, cry baby and just HATE HER!!!!! YER~~~~
Saturday, I had ballet class from 1pm til 7pm, so my toes and feet ached even more....
Sunday, went to give out the fliers from 7am till 12pm, walked the whole Damansara and later went to Aminda's house for her farewell party...envy her because she is so close with her family and she really can be Malaysia's mascot--father Chindia + mother Malay= Muhibah!!! LOL

Anyway, so tired and sleepy and worst, had lab session at 8am just now, had PBL at 11am and now here...later having class at 1.30pm then...I'm so dead. BTW, Happy Birthday Yik Jing and happy belated birthday Sharon!!

I have nothing in mind right now, just brain dead and debating with myself if I should go for lunch. Nothing is new except that I am lagging in studies, feeling sooo sleepy and mentally and physically tired and ya, brain dead....


I am so tired and really really scared if I'll do well in exam. Really am so disappointed with myself for indulging too much in band stuff which I should let go by now...ballet...mother and father sort of hinting me to stop my ballet and I don't know after my this exam should I continue or not. So much to do, so much to study, so much to complete, so much to catch up...and so little time!! Where has my discipline gone to? Where has my time management skill flushed to? I am just so angry of myself!!!!!

call me a coward

It's not new for my dad, uncles and sometimes brother to sweep their problem under the carpet. My mother always emphasised that we CANNOT follow their footsteps hence I did not (proven when I was in band). But lately, to be more precise..today I nearly did what my mother warned me not to.

Yesterday was a really tiring day for me. Wearing high heels walking all over Uni, then Mid Valley, then Sogo then at Dataran Merdeka...my feet was really killing me!!! But it was a fruitful day because we got the present, I got the t-shirt and met quite a lot of band friends.

So TODAY, I was supposed to join my 2nd ballet teacher's class. This teacher is very very fierce and when she stares at me, I really really am stressed and scared because I know I did mistakes or did not achieved what she expected and wanted in that routine. Anyway, I was so scared to attend her class today because I know I suck in ballet and I know I will definitely got a lot of scolding so I was in bed, closing my eyes thinking of all sorts of excuses to escape.

It was already 8am and I was still on my bed, eyes closed, cooking up plans, refusing to wake up. By 9am I was still doing the same thing and really really wanted to skip the class (imagine how scared I was!!). By 10am, I decided to wake up and face the music. Die die la!!! Scold scold la!! Just accept it and try to be brave.

Class was at 1pm till 2.30pm, 2.30 till 4pm and 5.30 till 7pm and it wasn't that bad. She did correct me here and there but did not scold me. Thank God!! Hence I realised, I was being a coward and was on the way to sweep my this problem under the carpet, hoping that I'll escape and don't need to bother further. How stupid I am!!!

Have you let people manipulate you?? Well, I realised I am always being used and manipulated. Tomorrow, I plan to catch up on my studies and suddenly my ballet school principal called me and asked me to help her distribute fliers to promote the ballet school. I did try to reject but she insisted and hence I gave in so tomorrow I won't have time to study (DIE!!) but this is not what I want to say. What I want to say is, why am I so easily manipulated? This is not the 1st time and I guess won't be the last time. Some friends and teachers used and manipulated me but I always gave in and follow where ever they want me to do because somehow, the concept of HELPING and REACHING OUT to people have been drummed into me...So...will I ever stop letting people use me?? I doubt so....sad....=(


***I really really miss my band life....I really really miss the sound of drum beat...I really really miss the sound of brass and wood wind instruments....and most of all, I miss being in the competition having thousands of eyes watching me (especially during my solo) and friends cheering for me and the audience clapping for me...I really really really really REALLY miss being in the spot light ^^