09' Band Concert

My band is having their 3rd concert this Saturday (1/8/09) and I have been going back to help out a bit.

I have only one word to describe

DISAPPOINTING!!!

Seriously, from the leadership and management skills to their performance, it was utterly down right very saddening.

I ask them the most basic question - "How many members are there in the band" and all the answer I got was "I don't know".

I ask the president anything and all I get was, "wait, I'll go ask the teacher". Shouldn't the President be a know-it-all when it come to band stuff??

Disappointed. Very Disappointed.

Their playing was ok. If I can criticize, the post would be LOOOOONG but heck it, even my band tutor who got so mad threw the conductor book on the floor and shouted at them. Honestly, this is my 1st time seeing him as mad as this.

Apparently, this is not really a concert but just a performance to show the parents and school on their accomplishment, on how's their progression and standard. Hence it's not really a real concert. Besides, the retirement ceremony will be held after the performance.

Trumpet section. It's my year all over again. Only one loud while the others are so soft that when that loud one is not around, no trumpet sound can be heard. Mind you, during my year there was only about 5 trumpeters and now there's almost 10!!! DOUBLE yet their sound...haih

The songs they are playing are songs that have climax, anticlimax and a story behind it such as Free World Fantasy, written by Jacob De Haan about the world without war (it was written during the German war) and Phantom of the Opera. I have been listening to the Phantom of the Opera songs (I have the CD) so I know where and when and how I should feel but they just can't give me that feeling. All thanks to the trumpet section because everytime they join, they should be loud to bring out that climax but everytime they play, they are just so soft that the feeling build by the other section just evaporated. WASTED EFFORT!!!! Not forgetting clarinet section that are just too loud and noisy in Loch Lomond. Ish!!

Gah, I just hope that they will be no other school band members watching and I just hope that they won't embarrass themselves. I guess this would be my last year going back helping the band since my juniors are now form 5 and leaving the band. Boohoo!!! (Ig I still go back, I'll be a stranger to the whole band and they might question me being there.)

I envy this retiring batch because they have juniors to perform for them. The juniors will be singing a song dedicated to the seniors and honestly if I were the seniors sitting in front of them, I will definitely cry because it's just so touching. It's like your hardwork is appreciated and you can really leave the band.

My retirement ceremony was a very simple one. Yes, there was a concert held but this concert was our 1st concert and we did not have that "goodbye band, I am retiring" kinda feeling. AH HA!! Now I know why I always go back band, because I don't have the feeling of retired!!! Hahaha, crap!! LOL

Ok, enough boring you guys.

Anyway, if you have the time please do come and join me in critisizing them. The ticket is just RM5, 1/8/09 at 8pm at my school hall. =)

PS: Jo Ann, I've asked them to contact all the seniors and already emphasized your name so if they didn't contact you, then you'll know what I mean when I say disappointed with their leadership and management skills.

Busy...

So far what have I been up to?

--Teach ballet classes
--Teach tuition
--Ballet rehearsal for Saturday's performance
--Ballet classes (extra 2 classes per week)
--Finish Kekkaishi manga
--Reading some Jodi Piccoult's book
--(Sat) Danced
--(Sun) Helped out with the concert

AND

I am tired...

If there's any pictures on my dance, I'll try to upload here.
Meanwhile, I want to get my rest back....

jeez!!

I was so happy to find back Piano no mori but end up so disappointed because the translator only uploaded the manga til Chapter 43 hence I googled other websites and the most was chapter 44 where the finals begins.

Gah, they did not even bother to upload to the part where the winner is announced!!!

I remember I read til kai was a grown up and he dressed up as a women (he is VERY pretty) and plays the piano as a living.

Haih, guess I'll give Mr.Chong a ring and get the manga instead.

HELP!! I think I'm turning into a manga freak!!! AAAAhhhhh!!!

I FOUND IT!!!!!

I am so happy!! Cloud nine actually!!!

I FOUND IT!!!!

Piano no Mori

It's the first set of comic book I've ever read.

When I found it, I can recall how I manage to get it -It was a Saturday and Mr.Chong (my band instructor) fetched me home after I accompanied him during lunch. He passed me that whole set of comic book and I finished everything within that day because it was awesome!!!

It's about a boy named Ichinose Kai who has the talent in music. He is the only person who can play the piano that was left in the forest by a famous talented piano player who met with an accident and hurt his left arm and Kai has the perfect pitch. When you chew, he can even tell you which tooth of yours is rotten!!! Hahaha!! The best thing is he can play any piece after listening to it once!! His 1st obstacle was playing Chopin's pieces, can you believe it??!! So cool!!!

Sypnosis from Wikipedia
Piano no Mori (ピアノの森 -The perfect world of KAI, lit. "Piano Forest") is an ongoing manga by Makoto Isshiki, about Amamiya Shu, who transfers to Moriwaki elementary filled with hope and ambition about his new life. But it doesn't take long before he gets picked on by the class bullies, and gets involved in a dare to play the mysterious piano in the forest, leading to his meeting an enigmatic child that goes by the name of Ichinose Kai, who seems to be the only one capable getting sound out of the thought to be broken piano. His ability earns him the respect of Shu and his music teacher, former master pianist Ajino Sousuke. At first Ichinose is resistant to refining his art but after hearing Sousuke sensei play Chopin, a song he just can't seem to play by himself, he relents.

I don't know why but I am so happy =)

The manga I'm currently finishing are Kekkaishi and Piano no Mori. I've finished Eyeshield 21, Kaikan Phrase and catched up the latest Bleach.

PS: Apparently Mr.Chong only fetched my batch of members around in his car to so many places and always treat us lunch hehe. After our batch, no members were treated like us. Mr.Chong joked less and was stricter now, maybe because he just love my batch cause we rock!!! =)

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Today, I went to ACTS and instead of helping out at the receptionist area (which was my duty) I was asked to sit in with the doctor and observe how they treat the patients. At first I was confident but when he asked me to check the blood pressure, he kinda offended me. After reporting the blood pressure, he wanted to double check which I totally understand but he said "sometimes I just can't trust you students because some of you guys are rubbish". I was shocked by the word "rubbish" and after that I was intimidated and lost my confidence.

But anyhow, I did get to practice my BP taking skills and got to use the auroscope (tool to look into the ear) and I even corrected him LOL because I remembered for adults we pull the pinna up and back but for children we pull it down and back but he pulled the pinna up and back for a kid and I corrected him (this happened before the checking BP incident).

Haih, I wonder if I will ever manage to graduate confidently...

I Seriously Hate Endings

I seriously hate hate hate endings!!!!

Be it manga, anime or books!!!!

Sorry, a little emotional here.
I just finished the whole collection of Harry Potter and I really don't like that feeling of "the story ends here". I want to know what happened to the other professors in Hogwarts such as Prof Mcgonagall, what happened to the other DA members like Luna Lovegood or other characters like Aberforth or Dursley or Hagrid or the Weasley family or Neville's Grandma (she disappeared after meeting HP and said she wants to aid her grandson) and what happened after Voldemort died and also to the 3 deathly hallows (What did he use the Resurrection stone for?)?? I want to know more about Dumbledore, Severus Snape, James and Lily Potter!!! And I wonder if Dumbledore's portrait can talk and think and instruct, why can't Harry just talked to him??!! Jeez... And I hate how characters that I grow fondly of get killed in the end!!!

Oh, I went and googled and found out about this and this. OMG!!!
I know I should be excited with the new HP movie but somehow, I am not LOL.

Eyeshield 21 and Kaikan Phrase too!!! I really wanted more and I really hate how the authors finish their hard work. It's like "oh, this is the last episode or chapter, let's just finish it."

Ya, I know...use your imagination!! But I want to know JK Rowling's imagination. OK, I admit. I am too into the stories.

Let's move on..

So what have I been up to lately??

Besides trying to read as much fiction books as I can, I am trying to get as much $$ as I can, hoping to get my own laptop or a new phone. I don't know anything about laptops hence I am clueless!!! Gah..I want to sleep after so many early mornings and late nights trying to finish the books.

PS: Hon Way emailed me...WOW!!!

I need a long long rest from being a mum and a wife

This is something you guys should see for yourself

"From Facebook"

Lilian Kueh took 6panadols in a row and its not enough to cure the pain of her heart. PEOPLE I NEED MORE PANADOLS PLEASE!!!

Patrick Chan at 9:15am July 11

Please, don't kill yourself... there's more in life

Andrew Leve at 9:42am July 11

What wrong?

Ng Hwei Jene at 9:42am July 11

eh..r u ok?

Lilian Kueh at 9:47am July 11

trying to kill myself

And this is from the private messages I sent her.

hey gal..what happened?
are you joking bout "killing" yourself?
wanna talk bout it?

nolaa... im just very sad and stress laa.. about this thing.
i need a rest... and i mean it! a long long rest from being a mum and a wife...

I always know the consequences of getting pregnant before you have a proper income, worst if you're still studying. I know. But this time, I understand. I can actually put myself in her shoes and feel the consequences. I finally understand and pity her. "A long long rest from being a mum and a wife". WTH!!! Mind you, she's still pregnant, another 4-5 weeks and she'll have a baby and then, that's when hell starts. No kidding. OK, want to rest from being a wife, ultimate answer--divorce but the child will be the one suffering so think twice and thrice and many many times. Hmm, maybe she's not ready yet??

You think any mother ever take a rest?? I always feel that once you're a mother, it's like..erm.. making a deal with a devil that lasts forever, no breaks in between, no holidays and no time out. OK, maybe "making a deal with a devil" is a wrong way to describe but this is how I feel. Sorry, no offense mothers out there. You guys are one brave courageous soldier who dares take up this challenge that lasts forever. Really salute you guys. I don't think I want to walk that path, or maybe I'm just not ready yet. Who am I kidding, I'm still 20 and kicking!! =P

Ok, a little intro bout her.
She's 22 this year, was studying in Aussie, met the guy at a club (I'm not sure if she met him once and had a "lucky" one night stand) or she knows him for sometime and..yeah...Anyway, she's 8 months pregnant and she married that guy who was so lucky to be a Malaysian, Sarawakian when she was already 2-3 months pregnant. I guess pregnancy is not an easy thing so I guess I don't blame her for being so stress.

I don't know about your views on pre-marital sex but I honestly feel, as a gal you should learn to resist whatever temptation that guy gives you.

"if you love me, let's make love."

My foot!!!! If ever I hear any of my friends told me they are not virgin because of that phrase, I'm so going to kill her. Such stupidity and so naive. Like my mom always tell my brother-- You have no proper income, no job, no money, no car...NO GIRLFRIEND.

I think Rebecca's Tale (which I finished yesterday) influenced me. At the end of the chapter, one of the character who spent her whole life nursing and caring for her sick mother then her sick father finally was free when both her parents passed away. Instead of becoming a Doctor's wife (lucky her to have such a suitor), she left him and the town to London for liberty.

I quote this where she found out that the guy she likes (not the Doctor mind you) is a GAY!!!! (This story took place in 1951)
"I've decided to regard my former feelings for Tom as an affliction, and I've set about curing myself. I prescribed remedies for myself, Latimer (the suitor/Doctor's name) style. I've swallowed the pills of common sense and distraction; there have been side effects- but I told myself that's only to be expected. I expect time is the surest cure, and I also place faith in absence. I refuse to believe it makes the heart grow fonder- that's a myth, it's an old wives' tale."

People with broken hearts, this would definitely make you feel better I think =)


PS: Gals, always have save sex to protect yourself from unwanted child and sexually transmitted disease (STD) k? Play save is your best bet but of course, the best bet is not "playing".

Weirdest dream EVER!!!

I spent my last week (after exam) sitting in front if the computer reading manga and playing online games.

This week onwards I plan to finish the 2 new books I bought the other day and maybe reread Harry Potter. Anyway, I am 3/4 into one of the books and I guess I'll finish it off by today if I can find time (Ballet 9am-10.30am, 5.30pm-7pm and 7pm-8.30pm).

This book is Rebecca's Tale.

The main story is set about 20 years after the death of Rebecca de Winter and follows the attempts of the former magistrate Colonel Julyan to uncover the truth behind her enigmatic life and death, with the help of his daughter Ellie and a mysterious young scholar. There is also a "prequel" section that reproduces a journal that Rebecca wrote shortly before she died.

The other book which I have yet to start is Jester by James Patterson and Andrew Gross.

The jester is Hugh De Luc, an innkeeper who the comedian Jackie Vernon would have described as "poor but poverty stricken;" in a moment of bad judgment, he joins the First Crusade. Sick at heart and disillusioned over what he experiences and witnesses, he returns to his village to find it laid to waste, his inn destroyed, his infant son --- whom he never knew --- murdered and his beloved wife, Sophie, abducted. The instigator of this carnage is a ruthless Duke who believes that De Luc is in possession of a priceless religious relic. De Luc, seeking revenge, disguises himself as a jester in order to infiltrate the duke's court, where he believes his wife is being held. He is aided in his quest by an enigmatic young woman named Emilie, who has more to risk by assisting De Luc than he can imagine. But that is not the only surprise that awaits De Luc. He soon finds that his quest for rescue and revenge will take him to places far beyond any he could have anticipated.

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I was walking at this place which I have no memory of. There, I met my mother and I was holding a box of cake. Surprisingly I celebrated her birthday there and we were surrounded by books so I assumed we were either at a library which allows food or at a bookstore.

I went out to throw the used tissues when (Guess who appeared....*Drumroll*) Chan Chee Yong!!! appeared. I was obviously flabbergasted but we had a nice long chat which I don't remember where my mother went while I ended up in his house. I was shock to learn that we were at Australia so I was thinking to myself...I PMS-ed to Australia then. Oh well....

Next scene, my mother and I were at the beach and we were at the rooftop with a bunch of Aussies. The place there was like a baseball field but the field was replaced by a lot of sand and the sea. There, I saw (*drumroll*) Joo Hor, Chee Leong and another few gals from my high school which I know but don't know them. (I know there were from my school, my batch but don't remember which class or their names.) They were sitting opposite me and like usual Joo hor just acknowledged me and they went off. I was thinking to myself, maybe there were all from Sunway College.

Next, another unexpected person appeared!! Teoh Zhen Khai!!! We had a short chat and the feeling ZK gave me was he was rushing off so we didn't talk much. Suddenly my alarm rang, and I woke up...

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Weird weird dream!! Gah, of all people to appear in my dream. Don't ask me why them because I don't know and only recently (This year) I learned to dream, before this I always had dreamless sleep. I blame Rebecca's Tale because the story revolves around the beach. I guess I'll just continue with Rebecca's Tale then get ready for ballet.

PS: I bought The Sim2 game BUT I CAN'T PLAY!!! T.T It's in DVD while my desktop has a CD drive and my brother doesn't allow me to install the game in his laptop T.T

Tears for manga/anime

I think I have been quite emotional lately.

I read about MJ's (Not Loong MJ k) funeral, tributes and anything like that I'll shed tears.
I read Bleach, I shed tears.
I read Eyeshield 21, I shed tears.
I finished Eyeshield 21, I shed more tears.

I get touched so so easily. Jeez, this is bad...

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On 10th July, the result was released at 3pm but I was nearly late because I went back and visited band and had a nice long chat with my band tutor. I hopped on the train at 4pm hoping to reach uni before 5pm and instead of worrying if I'll pass or fail, I was more worried if I can't reach in time to get my result.

Thank god I reached uni by 4.40pm so I ran like I never ran before and reached AAD by 5pm. I did not even hesitate to open the envelop which contains my CPR cert, PBL evaluation form and the most important one-EOS result slip. Tore it, looked at it and went up to library to continue with my Eyeshield 21 =P

I sat in front of the PC from 5.15pm to 8.45pm and I covered almost 50 episodes!! The connection in uni is so good!!! I really enjoyed myself but somehow at library I did not shed that much tears maybe because the current sem3 keep appearing and asking me -- "How??"

You must be wondering what shed tears?? Well, I kinda always get touched by Bleach (it's about Death God) when Ichigo has that desire to always protect his friends, how they strive to save Inoue, how they tried so hard in the name of protecting someone dear to them aka friend.

For Eyeshield 21 (it's about American football), I shed tears reading about how they desperately got stronger to achieve their dream together (Christmas Bowl), how Kurita wanted to protect Hiruma or Mamori protecting Sena, how they NEVER give up even till the last 1 second on the field, how they encouraged and supported each other to beat the other team, and I shed the most tears seeing their team spirit. And now I shed again because I finished reading the whole story and I miss reading it.


Both stories, well I would say almost all Japanese stories are touching as they relate to friendship, team work etc, things that I want and crave to have.

I want friends that I can rely on, friends that constantly encourage and pull me up when I give up on myself, friends that I know would be there for me, friends like these characters in these anime/manga. I really hope I'll find one soon. Honestly, I really hope they exist, I mean these characters.

This is the 1st time I did not plan anything for my holiday and surprisingly this is the 1st time I have yet to go on movie marathon like how I always do after collecting my result. I have another 3 weeks before my electives and I really don't know what to do. I don't feel like starting another manga because I hate endings and goodbyes. I really really hate them. I know it's part of life but since I have the choice, I would rather avoid them.

So now, do what ah?? Oh ya, tomorrow go Metro Prima and see can get The Sims or not hehehe...


PS: Do you know I wake up early and start reading the manga latest by 6am and stop if my mom scolds BUT I'll read at least 7 hours hahaha...gonna miss this since I've done with Eyeshield 21

Thank god

Thank god I pass!!!!

Live Like You Were Dying

He said I was in my early forties, with a lot of life before me
And one moment came that stopped me on a dime
I spent most of the next days, looking at the x-rays
Talking bout' the options and talking bout' sweet times.
I asked him when it sank in, that this might really be the real end
How's it hit 'cha when you get that kind of news?
Man what did ya do?
He said

I went skydiving
I went rocky mountain climbing
I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu
And I loved deeper
And I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denyin'
And he said some day I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dyin'

He said I was finally the husband, that most the time I wasn't
And I became a friend, a friend would like to have
And all of a sudden goin' fishin, wasn't such an imposition
And I went three times that year I lost my dad
Well I finally read the good book, and I took a good long hard look
At what I'd do if I could do it all again
And then

I went skydiving
I went rocky mountain climbing
I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Shu
And I loved deeper
And I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denyin'
And he said some day I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dyin'

Like tomorrow was the end
And ya got eternity to think about what to do with it
What should you do with it
What can I do with it
What would I do with it

Skydiving
I went rocky mountain climbing
I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu
And man I loved deeper
And I spoke sweeter
And I watched an eagle as it was flyin'
And he said some day I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dyin'

To live like you were dyin' (4x)

I have been having bad feelings lately. It's as if I'm a sure fail. I don't know how I'll face my first failure in my studies.
I am scared....

annoying

It's so annoying that some people just take you for granted.

You have problem you want to share, you want to discuss bout it, go ahead. But when you use my time and my $ returning your smses and never ever once say thank you, that's too much.

This is for Wan Hoe's friend who is starting to get on my nerves.

He thinks I'm 24/7 ready to answer his questions and he expects me to know everything. Not able to see and touch is hard to confirm what he's having or experiencing but he gives me the feeling that I should know what to do about it. Yes I know and acknowledge that he's scared and worried (my behavioral skills is fantastic ok but screwed up in OSCE...wth) and I don't mind a bit him asking me for advice or opinions but not when he takes me for granted and steps overboard.

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On a lighter note, I am officially a volunteer for Acts. I'll be helping out soon =)

I am also invited to be the emcee for the 2nd time for my band's music festival in August. Apparently band sucks and my current chairperson told me (quote her)
'you'll cry if you come back and see the band.' Because they have not improved and the band is so sissy (they'll cry if you scold them). Gah, and my band tutor apparently also changed a lot. He sort of became stricter, no more jokes and even leaves the band 1 hour before practice. Has the band became so bad that my band tutor lost interest with our band? I'll find out next week.

Currently, I have been watching Bleach again and boy I am so in love with Zaraki Kenpachi (Captain of the 11th Division)

Toshiro Hitsugaya (Captain of the 10th Division)

One is utmost crazy and one is utmost cool and steady.

I love Japanese anime or drama series because they are good in extracting all the emotions that you can feel. I admit that I'll shed a tear or two when I watch any Japanese drama series because they are so real and so motivating. Motivating, something I need currently and maybe even more after my result is out.

The other character I like is also Jushiro Ukitake, Captain of the 13th Division.


Of course, who would miss the cool Byakuya Kuchiki, Captain of the 6th Division. Love his bankai, named Senbonzakura Kageyoshi ( literally "Vibrant Display of a Thousand Cherry Blossoms").


If only these people were real....lol

Hello!! I'm Back!!

Hey peeps, how are you??

Exam is over and I'm not going to talk about it but please do pray heard for me because I really did not do well and the paper was so much difficult. Ok, enough said.

What happened within this few weeks? Much but I'm not going to talk about the past too.

What am I going to do this week before result is out? Nothing was planned so I'll just start with cleaning =)

The whole time studying, I've turned into very negative. I keep analysing things when I'm in a bad mood hence making things worse as I always end up blaming the other party for everything that they did not do and have done. I end up being sad and grumpy all the time. Sheesh, only yesterday did I realise what I've been doing after reading an article in the newspaper. We should never start analysing and understand things when we're in a bad mood.

I've watched Dance Subaru and Transformers2 and they were good. Not gonna elaborate more. Bought 2 books from Popular and because they had 70% discount but none of them are Jodi Piccoult's book. Planned to go to Mid Valley today to start my movie marathon but sister is still sleeping and don't feel like going out since I found all the old animes that my bro downloaded last year so instead of spending money I've decided to stay home.

My ballet school is having a concert in August but because the rehearsal started 3 or 4 months back and it was every Sunday from 10am till 5pm, I decided not to join because Sunday is the day where I get the whole day to study so here I am just helping out at the back stage letting go my last chance of performing on stage.

BUT

few days before my exam started, my ballet teacher got a request from a corporate company to have a few students to perform in one of their function. Perfect because I don't need to spend months to rehearse yet get to perform in front of a whole new crowd and get a different kind of experience. This performance only involved 4 ballerina including me so we're so going to have fun =)

Well, for the moment I don't feel like blogging too much since I've learned how to resist myself from blogging and checking my email 24/7. yet I think I've grew to get addicted to play online games.

To anyone out there who has 'The Sim' game, can you lend it to me? I miss playing the game and controlling the character =P

If I do pass my exam, I'll ask my dad to get me a laptop since I have not asked anything from him since form 1(when I asked him to buy me my trumpet). If I have the money, I'll change my phone too since it's deteriorating (Anyone call, It'll shut off by itself and sometimes I don't get any messages until I restart the phone) and if I get the phone with mp3 function then I can save $$ from buying a mp4. Ya, I don't have any of this gadget except a phone. Cool right?

Oh ya, my brother has been playing final fantasy with his laptop so I have been using the desktop and somehow msn can't function here. It needs to be upgraded by every time I click upgrade, it'll end stating that the upgrade failed. So I won't be appearing in msn for the moment.

I have yet to watch any horror movies in the cinema. Maybe I should give it a try. Maybe the next time I go for my movie marathon, I watch one horror movie =)
What should I watch in my movie marathon? State of Play and Departure sounds good, Ice Age3 should be very funny, Blood The Last Vampire, Drag Me To Hell or The Last House On The Left can be considered as horror movie? 17 again, Night In The Museum and Hannah Montana would be one of my last choices.




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