hey yoh!!

Hey hey, how is everyone? I am currently having a hectic week because every time I open my book to revise, some voice in my head will repeat ~~ I am going to fail my 1st test!! Yes, I am going nuts and this is only my 1st semester.

Currently there is a lot of clubs having freshie party and election. I will admit. I miss my school life in secondary school because I miss bossing people around and knowing that you have the power to make people do things. Since form 1, I was sort of the section leader in band and was the monitor in class. Form 2, I officially became the section leader and sort of the junior leader and still was the monitor. Then came to form 3, 4 and 5 where I held more and higher posts in various clubs and uniform bodies.

OK, maybe I am crazy of power, bossy and a control freak but all this were in secondary school!! In college I was not active in anything (since we spent almost everyday studying or attending class till 4pm). Now in university, looking at all my batch mates holding post in various club just make me feel jealous. I was a bossy control freak and now I am just a normal student without extra curriculum life aka NERD.

I want to get back to my active life where I go everywhere and will say HI to every single person I bump into. I miss those days where people just come up to me just to strike up a conversation. I miss those days where I can help the "naughty" students to escape their punishment. I miss making real important decisions. I miss those days where people just come up to me just to "bodek" (lick my shoes?) me. I miss being someone powerful.

Enough said, remember PBL session? Where we were given triggers or situation and we got to make hypothesis and come up with learning issues? Example...

Ms. Jay fell down and heard a crack. She can't move her knees. Our hypothesis are she has a fractured leg, she broke her spinal cord...learning issues are which spinal cord is connected to her knees, what bone is easily fractured...

You get what I mean? OK, back to the story. We are all suppose to come out with 8 learning issues or more and do our research on all 8 then present together. But my group did it differently. We divide all the learning issues so each person have a topic to present. YOU KNOW ME....I usually do all the learning issues and will add any extra info after the person present (OK, call me nerd but we ARE SUPPOSE TO DO ALL!!). So today, we had PBL session and I did my usual stuff. But one of my group mate make it a big issue and a few started calling me professor Jene. The moment I heard that "compliment", that voice came again!! I WILL FAIL MY 1ST EXAM!!!! AAAhhhhh......

Anyway, Mr.Chan who has been our facilitator since the 1st PBL session is gonna leave us. We will surely miss him because he is funny is a way because he is sort of sarcastic and can you believe that he actually did the sweat sign with his 3 fingers( lll) when we come up with something really stupid? Next week onwards, all facilitators are switched and we got a real professor as our faci and apparently he is those strict serious type where we got to do all the learning issues and everyone got to present and talk about it at the same time. I don't know how are we gonna do it but since other groups did it, I guess we can manage too. What I pity is that one of my group mate who loves to joke around and come up with weird hypothesis will suffer. Weird hypothesis?? EXAMPLE...

Jack Sparrow (yes, this name was used) brushed his teeth everyday and noticed that his gums bled but the bleeding stopped after a while.
His hypothesis~~ He had french kiss and did it too hard...
We~~??? But everyday???
Him~~~ coz he did it everyday mar....

Yes, he is the one that made us laugh and enjoy our PBL session. And do you know that personality will never change(truth!!) till the day you die? So gals out there, don't ever believe it when a guy tells you that he will change for you...So, I wonder how will our PBL session next week will go on. Hehehe, we sort of got a plan....after we pretend that we finish our 1st PBL session, we will come back to the same room and still will delegate the topics. Before the second session where we got to present our learning issues, we will gather again and have our own PBL session and sort of rehearse. (SMART??? Muahahaha....SWT!!!)

Ok, so far so good...here it comes again....I WILL FAIL FAIL FAIL!!!!!
Yeah, take care and have a nice day and remember to drink lots of water and stay happy. Guess I got too much glucose from late lunch just now. Heheheh....

But then again....since when I give up on things easily??
No I wont fail any exam!!!!

old old post

I was reading back my old blogs at live spaces and it's all so funny and emo. One of it that I think was my best post ever was this...written on May 26, year 2007.

Heart Break

Do you know how hurtful it is to get all these crap from you!!!

Of all....U!!!! Don't you know how important you are to me!!!!

The things you are doing to me....

Break up is the best solution....

But knowing me....giving up is not a choice....it'll never be a choice....

Haih...I just don't know what to do....

really confuse.....

Thinking about all these crap just make my headache worst....

It's getting worse day by day....

Are you happy seeing me like this??

If so...FINE!!!

So be it.....

You are just another cruel creature....

I'll hate you forever....

but....

I fell too deeply for you....

Its just not easy for me to just forget about you....

After all the effort I put in...

After all these years.....

Its just hard.....

I just wonder....

Why now?? Why at such hard time??

I'm just so sad....

You always make me feel so depressed...

You know that YOU are the culprit for all my so call depression!!!

Why cant you just change??

Just be a little more easy for me to understand you!!!

I'll never ask for more....

Just this....just THIS!!!!

Aaaaaahhhhhh!!!!

See!!! My head is singing again....

Want to know the rhythm??

Tt goes...ying..ying...ying....

So now you know....will you change??

Will you really change??

I don think so....

I think you'll never change....

You're just stay the same and continue to make me feel sad....

I want to feel proud of you again....

Why don't u let me??

Why?? Why??

What did I do wrong this time??

Why just cant you be easy on me??

I just love you so much to let you go....

Will you ever understand??

Haiz....

I know you'll never....never....NEVER!!!!

How I wish you would.....

Then I wont suffer so much....

Can u?? Please?? PLEASE???!!!

Haiz...I know I don't have even the slightest chance....

Never mind.....I'll just try my best to overcome this obstacle....

So be it if I'll be alone this time....

I tell you....I will never give up!!!

Just hope that I really wont break down....

Further Maths~~~~

I want to score A!!!!

So can you not break my heart and be easier??

G0t 0ver

I have so much things to tell especially things that happened this past week. I am so sorry for not updating because, I could not find time to use the computer.

Let me just go to the main points and reduce the elaboration....

My lecturer sang a song entitled Roza Rio to start his lecture on Heart. Cool eh and the day before that lecture was his wife's birthday. This lecturer was/is a surgeon and he's from Sri Lanka. He's initial is JP and his wife's also JP. Cool eh. Both teaching in the same University. And I have no idea why I can't treat these lecturers like how I treat my school teachers and college lecturers. I guess knowing that they are qualified doctors just make me scared to be too friendly to them.

Next, on Monday my group members went out for a steam boat and I being my usual self skipped lunch and end up with a gastric. And guess what, I had tom yum despite of the pain in my stomach. After finishing the meal, I had cramps and when we went to Carefur to have ice-cream, one of my OO brought me to the Guardian and introduced to me a gastric pill that is effective and it is chewable!! After eating one, the pain was still there so I pop another one and the pain was still there. It went off after I went to bed and woke up in the morning.

On Wednesday, my college mates had gathering and AT LAST MET UP WITH KARAM!!!!!! Yeah, I was so happy and all of us talked for solid 3 hours!!! This shows that we all miss each other from the bottom of our hearts, well, I do. Anyway, you might be thinking that a group of 11 peeps must have their own small group of conversation. I would say yes and no because Edmund who was sitting at the end of the table spoke to me which was also sitting at the other end of the table!!!! hahaha!!!

OMG!!! I found another Neha!!!! If you know what I mean, this person is way worst than her because this person really irritates you to the maximum and since everything is so much tougher to understand and absorb, this person just does not help and making me hating everything bout that person!!!! Grr....

My hp spoiled already!! It can't vibrate anymore so if I put it in silent mode, I wont know any incoming message or calls!!! Sad....

Today, instead of studying I went shopping with mother because I need a jacket very badly. What I have in mind is the jacket I wore to college, those normal sweater type but mom instead bought me a formal jacket/coat. Gosh, imagine me wearing that jacket just to be in the library.

Now, I know all of you guys are having guessing games about my post entitled "l0ve st0ry''. To be honest, I did not know why I wrote and even post it up but well, my explanation goes like this...

Ok, Jian Wei, you guessed right. Ok, it is about someone and it is quite clear in my post what's happening right?? Well, let's say that I found reasons to get over it (at last). I found out that he is not the "perfect guy" that I thought he was. I don't know if this is my heart or my head speaking but whatever it is, I am so gonna get over everything based on the recent discoveries bout him.

~~~If you just realise what I just realised.....

sung by colbie caillat but have diff meaning...lol

Today is Ash and Angeline's birthday so..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH OF YOU!!!

Short and straight to the point right? LOL

replies on previous post

I AM NOT IN LOVE!!!!!!!!




JW dear....don la so scared....lol...i don do stupid silly stuffs

l0vE st0Ry

Do you believe in long distance relationship? Till now, I still do not believe in it. Well, I don't even believe in love-in-the-1st-sight. Fate? Yes, I do believe in this.

It's been almost 1.5 years and it is still fresh in my mind. It sometimes still hurts. It sometimes just makes me wonder what if I accepted and tried making it work. The things that happened changed my life and the way I look at it.

When I get news about the whereabouts, I just want to know more but the more I know, the more it hurts. How can memories are just left behind and move on just like nothing had happened? How could it be so? And within few months, a new one came in the picture. I just could not believe it and how much it affected me after getting the news.

Maybe I was the one giving problems and not making decision right on time but the decision making and rationalising it is just isn't in me. Hearing my thoughts and explanations, agreeing to it making it harder for me to make up my mind and not being encouraging is one of the reasons too.

Anyway, when I am angry I really hope bad things happen but when it is raining, I become emo. Just like now...raining heavily, listening to the raindrops beating on the concrete, feeling cold, smelling the grass-smell and listening to that song reminds me of everything.

It is still aching and I just realised that I still could not let it go...just yet....

Adapt and change

Reporting for duty from university....

This morning, I catch the train to uni and while waiting for the oh-so-punctual train, I met up with Ronnie aka TURTLE!! Yup, another Taylorian, doing accounting. We were talking and all the while I keep avoiding his question, the usual question when you meet up with old friends---what are you studying now? After about half an hour, I finally let the cat out of the bag and he was surprised. It was all written on his face. Hence I asked what type of carrier I would choose based on his interpretation. After much hesitation and a lot of erm...he finally said- accounting. Why?? Because I have the money minded look(SWT).

But eventually the fact that I am in that course kind of sink in and I kept reminding him of the "IF I FAIL" phrase. Funnily he keep telling me that I'll not fail but he knows I am just an average student back in secondary school. AND, I have no idea what is his issue with the word FATE because when I told him my brother is in Taylors, he said fate will allow them to bump with each other. Then before he left, he mentioned that fate allowed us to meet and chat in the train. I wonder if he's looking for a wife or girlfriend named Fate. heheheh....

Today's lecture on stress was fun because the lecturer was once a high ranking post officer in the Ministry of Health. He likes sharing stories with us such as when he was elaborating on the level of stress from jail. He said that back in Ipoh, he met up with his friend who was a drug addict. So he asked what has he been doing and his reply was:
Oh, nothing much. I just got out from jail and might be going back again when I am needed.
When you are needed? Why so??
Oh, because the lower ranking officer will ask us to go to the Taiping jail when their boss (higher ranking police officer) complained why are there so many free drug addicts on the road.
Yup, so sometimes all those pictures in the newspaper where drug addicts were caught to be send to jail might be bogus (entered the jail on free will).

What is stress?? Stress is a change in the environment may it be caused by studies, family or even a baby. Stress can be a good thing and the usual bad thing. I wont elaborate much on the stress lecture but it's fun to know because I am having the symptoms now. If I could not cope with it, I'll enter exhaustion, illness and then break down. I guess recently all the thoughts of catching up with studies and manage my time really stressed me out. One thing leads to another and I end up blogging it out.

Honestly since young till before I started blogging, I never tell or share my problems with people including my best friends. I don't find it helpful instead I think it's a burden when you relate it to others. If I tell anyone about the problem, I'll be worried if that person will spread it and I'll end up in an embarrassment. That was before I knew how to blog. Now, via blogging, I tend to slowly let problems and feelings leak out in alphabets. It might be easier to convey my feelings and thoughts this way as i can shy away from how people react when they know about it.

Take the last post for an example. I was honestly surprised that Jing actually visited my blog and when she told me and explained some stuff that I misunderstood, I felt weird. Yes, it was awkward and funny but she did it for a good course. I am glad to say that things are better now and I am going to adapt to the environment or stress. Humans are a magnificent creature where they can learn to adapt to a new environment. I might take time but I know eventually, I'll get used to it or better still, found my own clique of friends. People out there who were worried for me, rest assured that I will adapt and change. And guess what, I might be able to join the Saturday's community service program because my ballet teacher allows me to join the late afternoon class (free work class).


**WH, hey sorry that I did not believe you when you say you can't make friends back in INTI. I totally understand it now. Sorry ya ^^ And I just found out that to come to my house from Taylors area, you need to travel by train for about 1 HOUR!!!! So touched le.... =P

left out

If you want to feel left out, just be me in my campus or be me. My group members always leave me out in their activities because I don't stay at the hostels. They usually have dinner together and sometimes gather at one of the group mate's house having fun. Me? At home.

Today is Esther's birthday (Happy Birthday ESTHER!!!) and they had a small gathering and wrote messages on a big huge card for her. I did not know about it and no one told me. When I found out, it was already 1pm and it was Esther who told me and later gave me a pen to add my message. =(

OK, maybe this is a small issue because they stay at the hostels together and I can't join them till late night so they save some credit and did not inform me. Never mind but what hurts me most is this 1 small matter. Each of us need to log into the computer with our own student ID and they supply each of us RM10 for the printing job (we print our own notes). So when we run out of $$, we need to top up. Hence, my group members (they planned without me)have this agreement where everyone take turns to print 1 week's lecture notes and photocopy for the others. Never once did the leader remembered me. Every time they photostate and I asked if there's my share, the leader will go ~ OH!! Sorry, I forgot bout you. Sorry sorry sorry~~

Its sort of sad because I don't really have a big gang of friends like during college or high school. I don't really like to be alone and I am now often alone or hanging out with my group members (which was from 20 people to a mere 4, the others found their own clique of friends) but feeling left out. They tend to talk about the past night activities they had together without me and I'll go blur and it's weird to be the quiet one in a group. I hate that feeling!!!!!

Come to think of it, I actually don't really have a gang of friends that I can really hang out with. I know I might be the problem but it's just feel weird. Primary school I had YP, form 1 I had a REAL GANG of friends, form 2 and 3 I hung out with Jayne and SY (band members), form 4 and 5 I did not really had time to hang out with any friends since I'll be on duty during recess and I was never close to any prefect board members (I was forced into it remember?). College life? To be honest, we only had lunch together and rest of the time, Kelly, Edmund and gang will be hanging out while I'll be with Karam. Biology class? Not really close too because we were all in different class and under different lecturer.

Gosh, I always thought that I have tonnes of friends that I can hang out or clique with anytime. Now, I've realised I was just lying to myself. Sad sad life.....

Emo now, so don't disturb me.

Personality me...

Today's second lecture was FUN!!! It was about personality and it was just cool because I love this topic. Anyway, the lecturer started the topic with him giving us some personality test to complete and my result was ESFJ. What does it means? Each questions have 2 categories, for example: J-judgement, F-feeling, S-sensitive and E-extrovert . Anyway, the answer can be found in google and it says that I am....

The social status of successful people can be quite alluring to ESFJs and many marry prosperous mates and encourage them to accumulate the material signs of prosperity. Other ESFJs seem to fit in with the poor and the needy. In either case their dependability, dedication, and commitment to providing for the needs of others is, at times, overlooked. This can lead to the ESFJ feeling unappreciated and neglected. They can harbor uncomfortable feelings, which they then feel guilty and shameful about, and then they find themselves suffering from emotional denial.

If stress continues, the ESFJ will begin to feel dejected and despondent. A sense of gloom seems to be attached to their memories and the ESFJ fosters feelings of self-blame and guilt about certain past experiences. Always conscious of a sense of indebtedness, the ESFJ feels generally remorseful and may regret imagined woes. If stress becomes overwhelming, ESFJs will complain of their burdens, suspect dreadful things about their health, become critical of others who have "betrayed" them, and become generally melancholic. The ESFJ feels forsaken after all they have put up with and done for others. Their complaints immobilize so they are unable to nurture others or fulfill their demanding obligations.

Careers

This lists represent careers and jobs people of your type tend to enjoy doing. The job requirements are similar to the personality tendencies of your personality type. It is important to remember that this is not a list of all the jobs possible. And it is very important to remember that people can, and frequently do, fill jobs that are dissimilar to their personality... this happens all the time...and sometimes works out quite well.
nurse
social worker
caterer
flight attendant
bookkeeper
medical/dental assistant
exercise physiologist
elementary school teacher
minister/priest/rabbi
retail owner
officer manager
telemarketer
counselor
special education teacher
merchandise planner
credit counselor
athletic coach
insurance agent
sales representative
massage therapist
medical secretary
child care provider
bilingual education teacher
professional volunteer

Maybe to a certain extend I am but not that chronic because I don't fall into depression just because someone did not appreciate me. Yes I do mind and feel sad when I am not being appreciated just like last year when I helped my band in their 2nd concert by being the MC, they totally ignore Jayne and I after the whole concert. I mean, I felt unappreciated but Jayne felt it too!! We discussed about it but after that, life went on like usual and I did not fell into depression.

Another explanation of ESFJ...

• Most frequent type among education majors.
  
• In national sample "Leisure Activities," underrepresented in "Writing."
  
• Academic subjects preferred: math, music. (YES YES!!!! TOTALLY!!!!)
  
• Highest of all types in national sample liking work environments with "Toe the line expectations"; among 3 highest types favoring "Clear structure," "Loyalty and security," and "Making the job as simple as possible."
  
• Most important feature of an ideal job: service to others. (Sort of agree)
  
• In national sample, were among those most satisfied with their work and where they work, and unlikely to leave job. (This is called being loyal!!!)
  
• In national sample, greatest work environment satisfiers are "People I work with," "Amount of responsibility," and "Opportunity for societal contribution."
  
• Most frequent type among women with coronary heart disease. (Gonna die of heart attack)
  
• In national sample, highest in coping with stress by "Talking to someone close" and "Relying on religious beliefs."
  
• In national sample, ranked 2nd highest in "Belief in a higher spiritual power."
  
• In national sample, ranked highest in satisfaction with "Marriage/intimate relationship."

I have no idea why but I still don't have the confident in telling the whole wide world about what I am studying now. Just now went and buy grocery with mother, met a form 1 friend and we chat. When she asked me what I am studying now, I was reluctant to tell and keep changing topic. Yes, I am still scared. The same lecturer who gave us the fun lecture told us that his wife (a psychologist who is also in the Uni) will be on duty when ever the semester 4 and 5's result is released. WHY?? To avoid any suicide attempt. Yes, the moment I heard about it, I totally got scared all over again. WHAT IF I FAIL IN SEM4? WHERE WILL I GO NEXT??

Anyway, I was actually planing to stay back and study in the library but the plan was canceled because when I was in the museum studying the bones and memorising the name of each lines and humps on the bone, a senior came by and we started talking. Apparently, if we just study the lecture notes, we can get A+. As I've mentioned earlier, 2 hours of lectures per day and thus means 2 different topic per day. If I study the reference book that we were all recommended to buy, I'll use 4 hours to study 1 chapter which is equivalent to 1 hour of lecture. This is why I don't have time to relax and catch up.

Actually this is the 4th senior telling me to just study notes and not reference book. I don't know whether to trust them or waste another 4 hours studying? I mean, I don't mind reading all the extra information and gain more knowledge, but it's the time that is insufficient. I am 6 chapters behind and I am here blogging. Haha.

Ya, today I AM SOOOO HAPPY!!! Why?? Because I played with 2 Goldens!! 1 adult (9 years old) and 1 baby (2 months old). Ale just bough a new puppy yesterday and her 2 old dogs (another 9 years old cocker spaniard) still haven't welcome her yet. She loves to stick to them and play with them but the 2 old dogs just don't like her. They growl and when she gets too close, the golden showed her teeth and was kinda fierce. The baby also loves to chase and follow the spaniard but the spaniard just run away from her and eventually growl at her. I wonder where's the Golden adult's motherly instinct because the old golden is a female but haven't given birth to any puppies. Anyway, she is just so CUTE!!!!!! Aaww, I want one!!!

**Hint...September might be a good reason to receive 1. Hehehe....joking ^^

What Ifs...

Both ears down

What If.....
One ear up, One ear down

Family
1. I was born handicapped?
2. I have an elder sister instead of a brother?
3. I have a younger brother instead of a sister?
4. I have more siblings?
5. I was an orphan?
6. I was dump by my parents?
7. My parents divorced?
8. I was the only child?
9. I was born in a very very poor family?
10. I was born in a very ulu place?
11. I was not sent to Sunday school?
12. I was not taken care by parent's friends?
13. Kakak never came?
14. Kakak stayed with us till today?
14. My mother did not quit her job?
15. I have handicapped parents?
16. I have handicapped siblings?
17. I was born in a rich family?
18. I was not sent to school?
19. I hate studying?
20. I was not a Chinese?
21. I have no relatives?
22. I have no cousins?
23. My dad was not from north?
24. I've met my grandpa?
25. I never met my grandma?
26. I was abused?
27. I was introvert?
28. My family speaks in Chinese everyday?
29. I hate Maths?
30. I was married off when small?
31. I was sold to other family?
32. I was adopted?
33. My siblings are adopted?
34. My siblings were separated?
35. My parents don't act like parents?
36. My parents were famous people?
37. My brother was NOT LAZY?!
38. My sister was not annoying?
39. My relationship with my siblings were better?
40. My whole family travels every year?
41. I have relatives all over the world?
42. I have studious relatives?
43. I was the eldest?
44. I was a boy?
45. I was abnormal?
46. My siblings are crazy?
47. My parents were murderer?
48. I was born in jail?
49. My parents tried to kill me?
50. I was never given choices?
Both ears half up

Friends and relationships
51. I was never bullied?
52. I was abusive?
53. I was not friendly?
54. I was materialistic?
55. I was demanding?
56. I was not loyal?
57. I accepted him?
58. I never hurt him?
59. I never broke up?
60. I treated him nicer?
61. I confessed my feelings?
62. He cheated on me?
63. He was not possessive?
64. He was less caring?
65. I never met him?
66. I tried long distance relationship?
67. I forgiven him?
68. I accepted her?
69. I did some illegal things?
70. I sacrificed a lot for him?
71. I told him my true feelings?
72. I did not accepted him?
73. I gave up on our friendship?
74. I hold on tight and never let go?
75. I never introduced them?
76. I was not in band?
77. I flirt around?
78. I never forgiven her?
79. I was not close with her?
80. I was not close with him?
81. I forget about him after a week?
82. He still have my heart?
83. He never let go of me?
84. We end up married?
85. He was poor?
86. He was not committed?
87. He never cry in front of me?
88. She never confessed her feelings?
89. She hated me?
90. We never sit down and talked it out?
91. We haven forgive each other?
92. We never met?
93. We were not meant to be together?
94. We met at the right time and the right place?
95. We finally meet face to face?
96. They never confide their feelings in me?
97. I always hurt people's feelings on purpose?
98. I never care bout them?
99. I never truly liked them?
100. All of my friends are imaginary?
Both ears forever Up

Should stop with all these what ifs.....got to finish the assignments!!!

tag again

Ultimate Top 8 Survey
Name Your Top 8
#1:	Jian Wei
#2:	Jayne
#3:	Jay
#4:	Mei jean
#5:	Noel
#6:	YP
#7:	WH
#8:	RG
Start With The Basics...
How long have you known 1?:	since very very small..maybe at about 9 years old?
Where did you meet 2?:	standard 5
has 3 met your parents?:	NOPE!! LOL
have you ever been to 4's house?:	Outside
when was the last time you talked to 5?:	few eeks back..sms to be exact
is 6 really afraid of 7?:	They don't know each other
is 8 online right now?:	Nope
do 1 and 8 know each other?:	Nope
would 7 and 2 get along if they met?:	Actually 2 said she don't like him..lol
Of Your Top 8, who is the...
Oldest?:	Jay
Youngest?:	Noel
Funniest?:	I would say JW
Most gangsta?:	RG
Most likely to become U.S. President?:	Jian Wei
Craziest?:	Mei-Jean
Loudest?:	Mei-Jean definitely!
Most likely to live the longest?:	if i can predict the future
One who gets the best grades?:	Jian wei
One You've known the longest?:	Jian Wei or YP
One you met most recently?:	Jian Wei
One that lives closest to you?:	Mei Jean
Biggest Flirt?:	Wan Hoe....no questions asked...LOL
Most Likely to end up with their own TV show?:	Jay!!! He is in the Tv anyway
Most Athletic?:	Noel
If...
You could give one of your Top 8 a million dollars, who would it be?:	Jayne coz she'll sure share half with me
You and your Top 8 were stranded on an island, who would you eat first?:	I don't eat meat then...I'll be vegetarian
You and Your Top 8 go to the mall, who usually spends the most money?:	Jay?? hahaha
You were arrested, who from your Top 8 would you call to bail you out?:	Definitely Jayne
You and you Top 8 went out drinking, who would be the designated driver?:	what if i don't drink?
Final Random Questions...
Could you handle working at the same job as 6 and 8?:	No problem but RG would be...very long winded...
Could You Survive being roomates with1,3, 5, and 7?:	YES!!!! How did u know i'll put all guys?? N JAY!!!!
which 2 people from your top 8 would make the best couple?:	Noel n Jayne?
Have You ever celebrated New Years wth any of your Top 8?:	err..does celebrating online count??
Do you think you will still be friends with 4 ten years from now?:	Yes. I will make sure.
If 5 jumped off a bridge, would you follow?:	this fella trained as life guard ok!!!
do you have any myspace pictures with 1 or 2?:	Yup, actually both also I hv in my hp.
does 6 cut their wrists?:	I hope not.
without looking do you know what place you are on 7's top friends?:	where?? which site?
has 8 commented you in the past 3 days?:	nope but 4 days ago..ya..
Do you think any of them will repost this?:	most of them posted alrd...

Jay's craze + dream

Ya, I've met him...
Ya, I still love his songs...
Ya, I admit he's not as handsome as other guy singers...Ya, I still think that he is cool...
Ya, I love his slow and romantic songs best...
Ya, I have all his album and they are all ORIGINALS...
Ya, I'll stare hard at you if you say his songs sucks...
Ya, I'll eventually burn u down if you repeat it in front of me...
Ya, I am crazy bout his songs...

What happened to me?? Why suddenly blog about this?

Well, remember the tag that I did few days back? I was put as no.2 at my friend's blog and the question was what's my favourite song. So that smarty pants put someone else other than JAY!! I mean, which friend of mine that knows me for more than a year does not know that I love JAY's songs?! Gosh, what a friend.

Anyway, I replied at his chat box and eventually found out that his other few friends love his songs too and one of them sang Cai Hong and recorded it. I visited his blog and err, he's a Chinese that don't know how to read Chinese (banana). But that is not a problem at all, the problem was...he was out!! I mean, he keeps singing the wrong tune and argh..spoiled the song but his guitar playing was correct and nice but ARGH, he spoiled the song!!

**I just realised that when I listen to songs, I listen to the music and not the lyrics. Quite a lot of time occurred when Ale repeated some part of the lyric and comment about it, I'll go blur and stay blur until I listen to the song and pay attention to the lyrics. A band member through and through. ^^

Anyhow, enough said about that, what I wanna blog about now is.....I keep dreaming about the same thing.

What dream?

My parents telling me that they can't pay and support my education because it is too expensive.
In the dream, it's either they tell me or pass me a paper that state it!!

Hence I've asked my mother since after the first dream if she can afford my edu's fees. She keeps saying yes and asked me not to worry. But what if half way through the course, she tells me ~ "Jene, you have to drop out because we don't have the money."

I am so worried and I feel bad in a way too. My mother quit her job and now taking law (using money in a way). My dad thus is the sole breadwinner and he was a government servant before he retired. Now he is working part time but he works so hard and its so painful to see him getting older day by day. It really hurts to see him coming home complaining about leg pain or some other ache. I FEEL SO GUILTY....

I was never a top student in class. I was never a smart gal. I was never a scholarship holder (exclude HELP's). I was never a great achiever (HELP's motto..LOL). I am still a normal student.

You know, it seems like any Tom, Dick and Harry is taking the same course and I am one of these Tom, Dick and Harry. When I look around in lecture hall, scanning all 270 people's face (ok, not all 270 faces), I feel like some of us does not belong in there. Let me speak for me, myself and I only. These people in my Uni are really smart people. They are either JPA scholarship holder, some other scholarship holder or some top student in their previous school and not forgetting ASEAN scholarship holder. Some of them have been dreaming of this profession since young or have some seniors like parents, cousin or uncles/ aunts to look up to.

Me? I have no one. I never dream of being in this profession. I never wanted to be in this course till few months earlier. I am so scared that I'll fail and get expelled. But hey, maybe that would be a blessing in disguise--save money for my parents.

what a dilemma eh??

some more pics from orientation

I want to blog about something but now I forgot what is it...
Anyway, lets post some pictures that I took from Facebook, quite a lot got tagged from friends and seniors....

Wet ice- breakers
See I'm so happy because I was not wet yet...
This is us getting wet, see the legs in front? We're supposed to pass bottles to each other while getting sprayed by water..spot my big fat femoral and fibular...medical terms for thigh and side of the leg...LOL
After the whole night playing...I was bullied by ash and reza..they were transferring some margarine, butter and starch to me!!!

Dress Code
Round and round the world and I'm playing peek-a-boo while Chan, the sumo wrestler is fixing his diapers..LOL
KISS ROCKS!!!
Quote from one of the dress code judge
~Best dressed for the Music Video theme for Dress Code, hands down. The makeup and instruments and all...awesome. Kudos again

My scene where I say~ Welcome!! Welcome to my *cough 100th birthday bash!! See the middle guy aka judge that loved us!!! He was so happy too!!! Before my group's performance, he kept pointing at me and say CUTE!! CUTE!! LOL
Presenting you the judge and what he wrote in facebook
~Yours truly with Hwei Jene a.k.a Maleficent from Disney's Sleeping Beauty.

And this, my friends, would be the most awesome dress for that Dress Code Day. Kudos, Dirty Dozen (Group 12)!
And I did that costume and horns all by my self!! So proud!!

Charity Home Visit
I forgot what we were doing but look at all the kids!!! Can spot me??
The part where we designed costume for the kids..my ward is the green shirt gal. Just spot the red jersey with number 2 and look at his butt...yup, that gal...LOL
Can see the gal and the sisters?? The do re mi...
The guy with white T-shirt and purple writing loves to ask...do you feel hot? I think it's me...
AND THE SHIRT WROTE ALMOST THE SAME THING!!!---If you feel hot, its just me! What the....

Random
Random picture. From left Sharon and Mei Yue. I was in the computer lab printing notes when they suddenly appeared and said want to camwhore...LOL
I look weird...like usual...

taggy

Do not copy each other's answers

The tag questions must be 100% the same

List Out 20 names

Tag people after doing it
1. ale
2. alicia
3. KH
4. WH
5. Eunice
6. Jac
7. Jason
8. Jhia wei
9. Jian wei
10. Jonathan
11. Mei jean
12. Mei Jun
13. Jay
14. Paulina
15. Shannon
16. Sharon
17. Victor
18. Reza
19. Ash
20. Joo Hor


How do you know 14? Paulina
- Through Vb

What would you do if you had never met 1? ale
- I'll be still using the train the Uni everyday

What would you do if 9 and 20 dated you? Jian Wei and Joo Hor
- Jian wei and Joo Hor...I don mind a bit....date means makan and chat....yeah...

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? Jac and Victor
- Hahahahahahahahahahaha....Jac and Vic..hmm...hahahahahaha....maybe yes?? (don't kill me)

Do you think 8 is attractive? Jhia wei
- I have no idea coz i haven meet him in person and haven really see his pic (yet)

Do you know anything about 12's family? Mei Jun
- Not really....

Tell me something about 7. Jason
- hahahaha....someone I "hate"

What is 18's favourite? Reza
- hmm...chicks?? food??

What language does 15 speak? shannon
- English! and err chinese..and err....

Who is going out with 19? Ash
- Opps....sensitive....he just broke up...

How old is 16 now? sharon
- 20!!! OLD!!! hahahaha...

When was the last time you talkes to 13? Jay
- well, he is a famous singer and actor and well, he sings to me and speak to me but not the other way round..LOL

Who is 2's favourite singer? alicia
- I have no idea...alicia..tell!!

Would you date 4? WH
- hahaha....well....we sort of err....i donno...

Would you date 17? Victor
- Vic? Date? Hmm...his hamster will kill me...muahahahaha

Is 15 single? shannon
- I think so....

What is 10's last name? jonathan
- chew?

Would you ever consider being in a relationship with 11? Mei jean
- OMG!!!! hahahahahahahaahaha....straight gals...

Which school does 3 go to? KH
- I have no idea....haven been keeping in touch

Where does 6 live? Jac
- Mines.....LOL

What is your favourite thing about 5? Eunice
- she's crazy and childish in a way, I mean she acts like a small cute hot sexy (happy?) kid and it makes me feel happy LOL

I tag all the 20 ppl above

jokers day

1st of April is suppose to be a fun day but I do not have the feeling of pranking anyone. It seems like I've outgrown that period of playing jokes on people until....

Lectures were on like usual and I if I did not remember wrongly it was BORING. The 2 lectures were on synapses and membrane potential & impulse. I loved this topic back in A Level and really really pay extra attention to this topic, so I was like fishing away in class as she was sort of repeating and it was not as detailed as the notes we have. Anyway, after the 2 lectures, our batch rep came up and started singing birthday song through the microphone.

"Happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to sean kingston (one of our friend's nick name),
happy birthday to you!!!"
Woo hoo....(he always syok sendiri)

I was like err....happy birthday to you.....(the last sentence)

then that fellow goes....APRIL FOOL!!! Hahahahaha.....

And I was like ....LAME!!!!

After that, we went for PBL (Problem based learning) session where we sit in groups and the facilitator will give us the question or also known as trigger and we'll start discussing the hypothesis and all. Anyway, when all of us except the batch rep (he's one of my group member) was already in class waiting, he came in and asked all of us to go out. He wants to fool our facilitator.

Hence we exchanged room with another group (each group about 10 people) and it was a wrong decision:
1. The room was so small compared to ours
2. the room was stuffy
3. the room has no air cond
4. the room was so noisy due to the construction going on
5. out facilitator was no where to be seen

The PBL sessions supposed to start by 10.30am but the faci found us at 11.00am. We actually saw him knocking door by door to look for us. LOL. Well, we were not that bad OK, we kept the door opened and make sure that he can see us when he passed by.

When he came in~~ Sorry, I was late because I just touch down from Shanghai (the lecturers went to Shanghai for something, trip or work purpose...unknown) at 2am and slept at 4am and now still so blur.
All of us~~ Hahahaha..err...sir...
me..1,2,3...
All of us~~ April Fool!!!
Faci~~ err...hahahahaha....

And guess what, that batch rep that suggested this prank was not in the room because he went out looking for the faci. And I have no idea why I felt happy for the whole day and even till today, my mood is still up!!

Today (4th April), is the last day for blood donation. I sincerely want to donate my blood and get that experience!! Last year, I couldn't donate because I was under45 kg and have not been sleeping for minimum 5 hours. This year, I couldn't donate because I am still under 45kg.

OK, I was actually planning to go through it anyway even if I'm underweight but changed my mind when I saw a gal nearly collapsing. I don't want to go through that too. Ale donated and she seriously look thinner than me but she's not underweight!! The whole experience with her was just so funny.

There was this guy who came in and lied beside ale after ale started giving her blood 10 minutes earlier and within few minutes, that guy finished filling the whole pack and his blood was still flowing like water when they filled up another 3 small tubes. We were complaining how can his blood flow so fast and laughed about it. Before he went off, he wished ale good luck and ale's blood bag was like only 3 quarter full.

When she FINALLY fill the whole bag, it was the 3 small tubes turn. Ale's blood was flowing out no, was dripping one drop after another (that guy's blood was really flowing) and by the 2nd tube, her blood was like stopped dripping so the nurse turn the needle that was stuck in her veins till it came off. But she did not realise it until she asked for help. By the way, Ale's hand was turning blueish and she was so scared (Oh no, my hand is dead...)

Anyway, I'll try to gain a little more weight, maybe just reach 45kg so that I can AT LAST donate some blood to help those who need it!!!