My 1st Night Shift

I was planning to get back to Abd today then to Edinburgh and because the car I am following is leaving early so I decided to go for a night shift instead. Not guilt ridden at all since I'm replacing the 2 half days (Thursday and Friday) with a 12 hour shift and nothing happens in the afternoon anyway since all jobs are done by 10ish 11am =)

Went to the ward in the morning at 8am and stayed till 1pm. I was actually leaving by 11ish 12pm but one of the FY1 saw me and asked me to follow him to the x-ray meeting. I'm in the surgical block and the meeting was for medical peeps but since he remembered me (we kinda talked a bit when I was with my surgical FY1) and I was not sleepy yet and it's educational, hence I followed along.

So I tried sleeping after a light lunch but I woke up every hour from 1-5pm. I set my alarm at 6pm but I was hungry by 5.30pm and could not force myself to sleep anymore so I just went to the kitchen for dinner. I made a great choice because I kinda socialised with the ang mohs and even Facetime in the kitchen with my friend at Abd who is a mutual friend of this cute funny ang moh.

Left to hospital at 8pm and did some jobs, tried to read something medical aka DVT but just couldn't concentrate and finally by 9ish pm, the on-call FY1 came and picked me and let me tag along. I was quite tired and sleepy by 10ish 11pm but with all the walking around, I managed to not fall asleep =P
At around 10ish, a woman came into A&E after a hit and run and unfortunately died even after 45minutes of CPR. The news was on BBC.

Sadly for me, it was a very very quiet night. So the FY1 and the GPST1 who was also on call, together with me did some BMJ quiz on IV fluids and we were all half asleep and half awake, trying to figure out the answers together (team effort woohoo~) and by 4ish am, we managed to finish 2 sets. Chat a bit and by 5ish 6pm, walked around the hospital and finally settled at the surgery ward room and chat with the on call surgical reg who had 6.5 hours of sleep in the on call reg room (envy~).

Overall, even though it was a quiet night, I did enjoy it because of the company and educational value =)
It was really great fun and I was lucky to get this FY1 and the GPST1 who were both so entertaining and funny and I learned quite a bit from them too ^^

Currently, after 2.5 cups of coffee for 14 hours, I am so so awake and hyper. I believe I will crash tonight =/

Elgin =)

I am now on my bed in the hospital accommodation in Elgin and I am loving every moment so far.

Leaving the house which I previously called home made me feel sad and happy. Sad because I no longer have a place called home, happy because I get to see new place and travel. I don't know, maybe sad because I am not going to have so much fun with my new housemates anymore and happy because I can have my own room and meet new hopefully nice people.

The journey to Elgin was 1.5 hours and I was lucky to have L with me and we talked throughout the whole journey =)

Something sad happened in the train. Just before departing, there was this breathless lady who boarded the train just before the door closed and she was pleading the train master to let her 2 friends who were just right in front of the closed train door to board but the train master refused and stopped them. So this lady were almost in tears trying to talk sense into the train master but her pleas fell on deaf ears and the reason the train master gave was 'we are 2 minutes late, I'm sorry' then walked away. So sad...

When L and I arrived at Elgin, we were shocked to see that we need to climb 2 flights of stairs to cross the railway to get to the other side! I was with this HUGE HEAVY luggage bag and the thought of bringing it up then down to reach the other side just made me scared. So we decided to let the other passengers to go ahead then only we'll try to achieve the almost impossible. L had 2 suitcases so I stayed at the bottom for her to bring her 1st suitcase over. When she came back for the 2nd suitcase, I braced myself and got ready to die then suddenly this chap appeared and offered to help me. I was so so SO HAPPY!!
'YES PLEASE!! Thank you so so SO MUCH!!' was my replied and he without any hesitation just picked my luggage up and put it on his shoulder! WOW!!

The stairs that I needed to cross...

So when L reached the other side, she was =.= to see that I was helped =P
But I helped her with her smaller suitcase.

Reached the hospital accommodation and met my senior who is working there as FY1. Ooo, my room is SO SPACIOUS!! Anyway, went grocery shopping and I bought lots of fruits, yogurt and even spent 3 pounds on 1.5kg of Alpen cereal

which I fell in love with when I tried it at London.

After unpacking, L and I went exploring and we went to this restaurant called Scribbles for dinner.

I enjoyed my Penne smoked sausage (Slices of smoked sausage and roasted vegetables in a creamy tomato and basil sauce) while L disliked her Morco Polo (Strips of duck breast, mushroom and onions in a sweet plum sauce with penne) LOL.

Then we went back and had cheesecake (baked by one of my friend) and talked about dogs for hours...I miss Spritzer boy...

Happy-ly High....

After that pizza hut buffet and hanging out with my fellow groupmates, I felt so much better. I'm sure they think that I am a weirdo Asian because I just couldn't stop talking. Anyway, took a few pictures with them and even had a proper long conversation with one of the guys that went to Inverness with me. It felt different talking to a Scottish compared to my fellow Asian friends and it's really shocking that I can hold a proper conversation with them LOL

Anyway, I am happy and high. Ask my housemate, kepochi-the-busybody and he'll tell you that I AM HIGH. Laughing so loudly, giggling away and smiling all the time. Wonder why?

Let me tell you why. I found something fun! I am addicted to House MD, a FB game. Every lunch break, I'll rush home just to spend that 1.5hours playing the game and when I am home, I am on it 24/7!

Well, I guess I am feeling so much better is because I managed to detox from something, I am having fun and I am actually communicating with friends =)

Ooo, kepochi-the-busybody opened my gates of hell. I am eating crisps again but oh well, at least I am happy hehehe....

Now, back to packing to Elgin...

Blues...

Have you had the feeling that you'll never be happy again?

The feeling that something is missing and you just don't know what?

I feel like crying and sobbing out loud but I can't and even if I want to, nothing is happening...

It's so difficult to go through the day with such heavy negativity in me....

What's wrong with me??

Sunny Sunday

First of all, Selamat Hari Raya!!! I have to admit, having the sun shining so brightly on a Sunday morning on Raya day just makes everything seems fine.

I must say, I'm glad that I have friends who actually sincerely care.

I have to admit I can't answer the question
'when I'm in trouble, who will be there for me'
but now I know I'm not alone...

Thank you so much...even though you guys are so far away and we have a huge time difference, effort makes all these obstacles seems so minute.

For those who didn't know, I got a shocking news yesterday and I needed someone to talk to and luckily a friend of mine was there for me and of course not forgetting those that wrote to me too.

A huge thanks to you guys =)

THANK YOU!!

1st Movies in UK Cinema

Don't judge me.

I know I have been in the UK for the past 1 over years but I am a very homey person in the sense that I don't spend much on clothes or entertainment like movies in the cinema. No doubt I spent money on food but food is essential in life no?

Anyway, yesterday night I finally had the chance to watch movies in the UK cinema. Honestly, the cinema is not much different from back home so there were no 'WOW' factors involved like how I felt when I went to the toy store in London. Now, that was WOW!

Last night was a very very exciting night. I did something kinda illegal =P
I borrowed a senior's unlimited movie card to buy ticket for free. I know it's wrong and hence the excitement. When Kepochi-the-Busybody bought the ticket, my heart were racing and I was so scared that we'll get caught! And when we entered the cinema, I had real hardcore palpitations and even tremor! Yes, I'm such a coward. Hey, I got palpitations even by looking at the edge of a white paper of my classmate's exam paper during a small test so shoot me!

Bourne Legacy

I have to admit, maybe due to the excitement and adrenaline rush from all the ticketing issue, I find the front part a wee bit slow. I know they were trying to explain and relate back to the previous Bourne movies and hence it was kinda draggy but towards the end, it was good. Compared to the previous Bourne movies, I think it lacks something, don't ask me what.

The Expendables 2

Now this movie is just hilarious, corny and has very funny lame script. There were a few parody scenes such as when Arnold Schwarzenegger appeared, catch phrases like 'I'll terminate your butt', 'I'll be back' etc just cracked me up. Chuck Norris appeared too and Ennio Morricone's spaghetti western theme song plays whenever he presented himself on screen. (Is it me or does Chuck Norris looks like Tim Allen? )
A few other catch phrases were there to laugh about too like 'yippie-kai-yay' from die hard and 'what's next? Rambo?' LOL.
I like what Bruce Willis said 'we all should be in the museum!'. Yes, you all should be, so that you guys will be remembered forever =)

Right, I felt that this movie is just so fake with all the blood bursting at each gun shot and I wondered how hundreds of men can't even aim and shoot at this 6 hugely build guys. You could have thought that with so much surface area to aim, they could have got scratched a little? Oh and sorry but I have to mention about Mr. Stallone's and Mr. Van Damme's make up, too much foundation perhaps? And why Jet Li only appeared in the beginning? Another thing to note, Liam Hemsworth as Billy Boy was a bit cute for this movie maybe? But I am not complaining because he reminds me of Legolas in Lord of the Ring =P

But in all honesty, I like and enjoyed the movie. It's nice to see all the old famous macho actors come together and remind us of how great they were back then =)

Movies on plane

I know someone is dying to read something outside the medicine life but too bad, I am still not in the mood to blog about things to let you read too much into me =P

Right, Movies on the A380 plane that I managed to watch in between my 40 winks.

1. The Avengers

Yes I know, I am so outdated and so late but hey, don't judge me. I was preparing for me exams and there were too much to watch on youtube! So how did I feel about this movie, honestly? It was just OK for me. Any particular character that I rooted for? Nil, Zilch, none. Somehow, this movie was not as good as what I expected. Note to oneself, never set an expectation if you wanna enjoy the show.
I'm still waiting for the movie that will make me go 'WOAH~' like how the 1st transformers did back in 2007.

2. Battleship

Yup, the movie with Rihanna in it. Well, I thought that Rihanna was acting just like herself. I've watched her on Norton Graham Show and I felt in the movie, she was just being herself or maybe she was also acting in the chat show and if she did, she's good then no? Overall, I felt it was quite interesting and I like the characters in the movie. As you know, I was leaving my homeland and should be feeling homesick and all but surprisingly, I did not cry nor teared up during the sad parts like when the brother died. Hmm, I wonder why. I love Liam Neelson and every time I see him, the famous quote from Taken will appear on my mind 'I don't know who you are. I don't know what you want. If you are looking for ransom, I can tell you I don't have money. But what I do have are a very particular set of skills; skills I have acquired over a very long career. Skills that make me a nightmare for people like you. If you let my daughter go now, that'll be the end of it. I will not look for you, I will not pursue you. But if you don't, I will look for you, I will find you, and I will kill you' LOL

3. 50/50

There were tonnes of other movies to watch but I chose this based on Joseph Gordon -Levitt's face. From the poster, you can see and assume that he plays the lead character right? Yup, you guessed right. Anyway, it was interesting to watch him act as a cancer patient and how he cope with his life receiving treatment, watching his cancer friends die, talking to therapist, staying with a cheating girlfriend, having a friend who uses the phrase 'my best friend has cancer' to get laid etc and most of all, to have a perspective from a young cancer patient who did not see this coming. I have to say I paused to nap for a few times but I finished the movie and that got to mean something right?

4. Date Night

Yes I know, this movie is ancient (2 years old ) but 2010 was my huge exam year! Anyway, typical stupid jokes, cheesy lines yet an entertaining movie. Having Steve Carell and Tina Fey together was brilliant! Totally enjoyed the show =)

I think I slept a lot hence only got to watch 4 movies...or did I miss some out. It's OK, it's old movies anyway =P

Right, I'm down with runny nose thanks to the weather (but it was so sunny and windy this afternoon =/) and hopefully the movie and Japanese food plan later will work. Fingers crossed =)

Complicated

Things have been complicated.

I am going to retreat into my comfort zone again...

Remember me mentioning about 'gloom soon'? Well, it's more like 'gloom in the morning' because every morning, when I wake up at 1ish 2am, I go to youtube and watch tear jerking stuff like the petronas advert on Hari Raya (about the deaf and blind kid) and CNY (Sek Fan) then today, I was watching the tribute to Stephan Gately. Gosh...I don't know how did I end up there.

Anyway, class starts today. Hopefully everything will go on smoothly....hopefully...

For the complicated things, I hope it won't occupy my mind that much...just pray hard that things will be fine in the end...

1st day back...

Should I tell how great, cozy and nice was the A380 plane? Should I talk about how stressful was it to check in at KLIA or should I talk about how I have no homesick feeling or no tears involved in this journey?

Well, it's 4am and I have been up since 1ish 2am because I slept at 8ish pm.

What am I feeling now? I am not sure.
Homesick? Not really
Missing anyone? Well...not that much but we're all talking so it's not too bad
Happy that I'm back? Yup, love how cooling and clean the air is here compared to the hazy, hot and dirty KL

But in all honesty, it doesn't feel like I'm home.
New housemates, new place to sleep aka couch in the living room, new atmosphere in the house, can I still call it home again? It'll take time to let everything fall in but at this current moment, I don't like how I am feeling.

I have this nagging feeling that I am going into a period of gloom very very soon since I will be moving about every 8 weeks, Jene can't handle big change that often. and I'll need to learn to settle down as soon as possible.

But you know what, I am going to keep thinking and being positive. There's no point feeling gloomy when its not even gloomy here now. Think of Happy care bears, rainbows...

Ponies, unicorn....

=)

Things have definitely changed.
Seniors are all working and most of them went back to M'sia or Sg.
My fellow batchmates are going to be sent to different parts of Scotland and will I take the effort to keep in touch?
I will be alone most of the time with the fellow unknown local students at that specific part of Scotland for 8 weeks. Hopefully I'll be able to find friends among them like how I found mine among my groupmates.
I'll be a final year student and most probably won't be let off so easy when I make a mistake.

I really hate don't like all these uncertainties.

How I wish I have Hermione's time turner.....

FB stuff that makes sense

Just a few pictures that I saw on FB that I could relate =)

On relationship status...

Oooo, loving SINGLE =)

Happens everyday at UK =)

On texting...

 I really really hate slow texters especially those that are in the middle of a conversation with me.

And there is only a few who actually does that. I guess it's due to coincidence =)

Love it when I see texts on my phone when I wake up =)

And hence my phone is switched off. It's time to move on...

Happens to me all the time....=/

 Ya, used to be....

On feelings... 

Happens all the time and only a handful understands.

Get the heads up dude!

Yup, reality sucks. Happened a lot of times and still is disappointing.

On friends...

 Used to be used.

On tears...

 The reason of my tears last Dec.

On me... 

And you obviously don't know me.

Shit, I think I'm going to burst into tears tomorrow night. Dang, I'm tearing up now. SHIT!