Sunday out

This morning I went to church just for fun and it was a weird session for me. There were lots of singing and talking and more singing. It was awkward in the beginning but after a while, I got transfixed with the drum set. Instead of singing along, I was trying to catch the tempo and the style of the drummer. It lasted for 2 hours and the bible talking part was interesting at the start but I started to feel sleepy so I went and observe my surroundings.

Next, went for lunch with seniors and spent 10.90! But it was kinda worth it because it felt like having dimsum buffet LOL and tomorrow I might be able to start using my new phone because the older J might be having a day off since he's gonna be a locum tonight =)

Then went shopping with the girls. I just accompanied them but it was fun. This is one of my 1st time hanging out with girls and shopping and all, never did these back at home =)

OK, I am tired and I'm just blogging for the sake of blogging. Nothing much then so bye...

Cybership...

I don't know why but I tend to get a lot of 'attention' in the internet from my cyber friends.

Cyber friends = friends who I talk to via msn/ yahoo messenger/ facebook/ facebook chat/ skype but seldom meet. Maybe met once or twice.

So some how, I am someone's wife then now I am another person's gf and future wife etc. Wow, life is so fun in the internet =P

I hope I haven't lose the bet by being a cyber gf/ wife =P

A lone ranger

As you know, I'm staying out alone, somewhere. Anyway, I went for house searching at those websites and found a lot of houses and rooms so I emailed them and I got 4 replies. Out of this 4, I went and viewed 2 and this 2 houses are so different.

One was a house, staying with the landlady who is an Indian and looked fierce (and very religious, everywhere was Jesus's pictures). Even though the house was kinda small and lonely looking (when I went into the room that I might be staying, I felt so lonely and depressed), it's cheap and near to the hospital (about 10 minutes walk) and the co-operative store is 5 minutes away.

The other was a flat like the one I am currently staying at. I will be sharing with another 2 students and one side of the room was full mirror like my ballet school! So it made the room looked so big LOL!

This 2 place has it's own uniqueness and I can't compare because it's so different. Price is just about 10-20 pounds different!

I talked to my seniors on my way back yesterday and the news spread and just moments ago another senior called and asked if I'm interested in sharing a house with a FY1 who is from IMU but studied at Dundee but coming here for her FY1 (housemanship) so another option for me. Then one of my batchmate who is from KL but started her 1st year here also offered the room in her house and she was worried of me staying out alone. The reason I didn't feel like staying with her was the distance from her place to the hospital is around 20-25 minutes walk. Winter time, walk I die lar...

Today I woke up feeling a little blue. I didn't dream like usual so I have no idea why I felt so sad. Read back what my dad wrote to me at my facebook and I teared. After skyping with my mom, I teared again. Went to uni, came home and skyped with dad and after that teared again. No, it's not homesick. I just feel like crying but instead of bursting out with tears, my tears just flow down slowly...

Listened to Sara B's Gravity and totally hooked on to it.

PS: Yesterday (and today) the wind was crazy! It stopped me in my tracks and even managed to push me backwards! I was crossing the road half way when the wind came and push me back to the middle of the road! The traffic lights turned green but I was still struggling at the middle of the road and eventually I ran and leaned forward and fought the wind!! The drivers must be laughing in their cars.

PPS: I asked my mom if I put on weight and she said no. Then when I said I finished half a packet of pasta (Yes, I can cook) she said I fat. Latter when I asked my dad if I'm fatter, he answered that I looked old =.="'

Feeling a lot of love from seniors and friends =)

Touched but somehow, I don't want this type of feeling. I am greedy, I will want more. Better stop receiving before I crave for more..

PPPS: Jon, faster come so we can find house together...

Deal..

Made up my mind. I shall get my own room outside. Thanks for reading LOL

Dilemma.....haih....

I won't say that the thing that is happening is not affecting me but I somehow manage to hide it when I need to not think about it. But I got to give an answer now so let me break it down here.

10 came then 10-9.

Out of 9 all paired up so 4(1+1) + 1

One of the 1+1 asked me to join them (pitied me)

But when they start searching, they realised that 3 is difficult to find

So I volunteered to let them be (1+1)

Later they found a 1+1 place and owner allows 1+1+1

So they asked me to join (living room= room)
Fine, Happy.

Then they search another and owner also allows 1+1+1

BUT kitchen connected to living room

so no privacy, no bed, living room smell of cooked/ fried smell but cheap though...

So how??

Now with 1+1 200, outside with own room but share with stranger 300 and 500 if stay alone.

That 1+1 wants an answer by today. I never had the time to sit and do my own research or go for viewing.... =(

How la now.... =(

The Whale Challenge =)

I AM STUFFED!!!!!!!!

Went to The Ashvale for a Whale challenge where they serve you a pound of Haddock Fish and Chips for 12.25 pounds. If you finish it, you are rewarded with either another whale or dessert (which they call sweets) on the house =)

Knowing me who loves to EAT, I actually ate 2 plates of whale then another banana split =P

Proofs are as below (used the tar tar sauce to write stuff)

See how huge is it!!!

The end product of my 1st plate

My 2nd plate hehe

The banana split with extra lot of whipped cream...

Even got a certificate =P

But now, suffer like hell...so full...can't walk, feel like throwing up, tummy so huge =(

I am going to starve for the next whole week (s) =P

Happenings...

Honestly, things have not been going smoothly for some time.

- I could not go holiday around parts of UK with mom

- I couldn't get a white phone

- My bf's relationship might be ending soon. I know I should be glad but I know deep down, this ending will make everyone sad

- My research group progress is quite slow because most of us are clueless about the topic

- I got to stay out myself

The last one was something I know and expected hence the indifference when everyone was hyped up on searching for a house. Initially we wanted to stay together but circumstances is different now because some of us are being posted out. Actually the worse part was getting a sms that was kinda harsh. Maybe I am being too sensitive but I'm not exactly affected by it now. Maybe at that moment when I was reading it but not now.

Now what I feel is to just stop any communication. Every time I on my laptop, there will definitely be people saying hi via msn, yahoo messenger, Skype and Facebook chat. I sincerely honestly want to thank these people from the bottom of my heart for having me on their mind and wanting to share their day with me but not now.

Sadly, I could not ignore my bf's skype call and end up knowing that she cried. It really breaks my heart into pieces and I'm not exactly a person who likes to discuss about my problem so sharing with her my thoughts and feelings are out of the question. What I can do now is to be there for her, listening to her ramblings, saying the right things and give her the right reactions.

Deep down, I want to escape to the beach. Finally, I have a reason...

Listening to Joe Hisashi's song from the movie Departure, having such a gloomy cold day just makes me want to crawl up and hide under my duvet....or take a 30 minutes walk to the beach and spent my time there emoing =P

Spontaneous beach trip

I was just blogging about wanting to lie on the beach and emo alone? Well, kinda got it but instead of emo, I ended up with 2 scoops of ice cream and with a crowd =)

I was skyping with mom, then suddenly dad called via skyped. I thought he's at outstation so I hold my mom's call and answered my dad's call. Then what I saw was the same background as my mom. They were both sitting side by side in the living room but they were both using their OWN laptop to skype with me!! Hahaha...

Half way through, my friend suddenly msn and told me the older J bro is bringing us to the beach! I was like...WHAT??!! NOW??!!

Then I went kaboom! I had my bf on hold, my mom on hold, my dad talking to me (all 3 at skype), my another 2 friends at MSN and another 1 at Yahoo Messenger and another one at Facebook chat!!!

Anyway, I was in the midst of panic when suddenly the elder J bro called and asked "where are you? I'm downstairs already." I was like...WHAT?!!!!! I haven't change, haven't pee and haven't say bye to everyone!!! Anyway, didn't change (was wearing slippers and 3 quarter pants!), faster peed and shut down my lappie then rushed down.

It was cold, well the wind was cold and we had ICE CREAM!!!! I bought 2 scoops while some bought 3 scoops and we enjoyed it in the cold cold wind...I was shivering inside and outside but after a while, I didn't feel cold anymore, numb would be the word =P

Spent 1-2 hours then came back, happy =)

Love the sky...really wanted to just lie down on the beach and stare at the sky...

I still wanna emo alone there one day though...something I MUST do =)

Yesterday too bored, went facebook and stalked friend's family members and munched down 8 packets of chips!!! Such an experience =)

I want to...

I want to go to the Aberdeen beach and lie there alone,

looking at the (blue or grey) sky and fluffy white clouds,

listen to the sound of wave,

getting blown by the cold wind,

escape to tranquility of my own....

I just want to try that out before I die....

Hot body...

For you guys, don't feel sad or depressed after seeing this guy's body OK?

To me it's one of the most perfect, proportionate body I've ever seen =)

If only he can be just a wee more muscular at the shoulder but overall, he's just H.O.T

He is tall (compare him with the tall older man beside him), broad shoulder, small waist, long legs, wearing canvas shoes (not all guys can bring out the hotness of wearing canvas shoes) and has NO TUMMY!!!! Argh, if only I can meet more of this type of guys =P

emo...

I'm so emo now. I know it's so stupid to feel so emo for such a small thing but if from the beginning the people around me didn't encourage me and that blaardy salesperson didn't misunderstand, then I won't have my hopes so high for the white colour!!

Haih....

I can't get

=(

But what I can get is

See the difference

White one nicer right?

Sob...

=,(