Ended elective with a bomb!!!

This morning, we went to the hospital at 6.15am.

WHY?!!!

Because the Health Director-General Tan Sri Dr Ismail Merican came for the morning rounds and he is kinda the head of head department of Hepatology. Anyway, he is not nice and he is VERY sarcastic and he made all of us emo. Can't blame him because we can't answer his questions properly BUT he 'scolds' the MOs, specialist and I think sometimes the consultants. He put so much stress that we can see that some doc are VERY nervous that they pant and have SOB while presenting their case to him. It was really a rare sight and we kinda have a taste of how houseman will go through.

Actually some doctors kinda warned us that he'll target medical students. There was this one doc that wanted us to go so badly because he wants us to be the target instead of them. Mean mean evil Dr.Sara!!! But overall, the doctors there are like one big family and I kinda got attached to them =(

I MISS THEM SO BADLY NOW THAT I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK UNI!!!!

I was emo after the morning round which lasted from 6.30 to 8ish am. I felt bad for making some doctors get more scolding because Tan Sri blamed them for our short of knowledge. Pity them. I really feel like coming back on Monday LOL.

Oh well, at least I did enjoy my electives =)


PS: I did not go in detail but the session with Tan Sri was gruesome and Thamarai actually told me her legs were shaking!! Yes, that scary!! Guess because we were IMU students and we carry IMU's name there.

End of Elective and back to Uni

Surprisingly I have been in the hospital for 3 weeks (This is the 3rd week)!!!
I am kinda used to be in the ward at 8am and I know I actually enjoyed myself there even though it can be so boring sometimes.

I am so going to miss this 3 weeks and the fantastic doctors there!! Seriously!!

Today one of the consultant praised us "good good" for able to answer his question.
Then later another specialist said we are good for coming everyday.

2 praises in 1 day. Wheee...Even though it is the 1st and I guess the last time getting praises =)

I wonder how does the doctors remember all the theories?? They really amaze me!!! I envy them!!!

Yesterday I went home early and had a long afternoon nap (4ish to 7ish) then slept again from 9ish to the next morning and I HAD A BAD NIGHTMARE!!!!

I was in the exam sitting for some paper when suddenly I teared my question or answer paper and I insisted that I got to go home to take some cellotape to tape the teared paper!! Somehow, in the process of going home and going back to the exam halls, weird things happened and I could not make it back in time to finish the remaining questions. I woke up with palpitation and I was so scared!!!

NEVER TAKE NAPs when you are not used to it.


PS: I don't look forward going back to uni =(

Over the craze

Ya, I think I am done and over with the craze with that something.

Maybe because I got what I seek and woke up from that weird craziness.

Haha, it's up to you to guess what I am crazy about but it's not important since I'm done and over with it.

I think.

I hope.

Oh please, please let me let go of this craze!!!

I think I am crazy

YES!!!

I THINK I AM CRAZY!!!!

VERY VERY CRAZY!!!

SHOOT LA!!!!

HOW??!!

GOSH!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!

Sudden change of emotions

Since the start of holiday, I had a moderately constant feelings, not too happy or too sad.

BUT

This week especially today, I went through a mode of VERY happy to just happy then to annoyed then to angry and lastly to depressed. I have no idea why the sudden change of emotion just because of certain news received at the moment.

Elective today was fun thanks to June. We were practically trying to match make her with her head of surgical department Dr.Chan then changed topic to how many kids she'll have to our future of being a doctor. We were all just laughing our heads out at the cafeteria.

Next, Thama and I went and continued our electives and I was still in the happy mode.

Later in the afternoon, I was still stuck in the hospital alone because my dear mother was settling her case at court. She told me it'll take an hour but she took longer than that, she took almost 3.30 hours!! I was annoyed because she did not reply any of my messages and I was a little hungry. The food in the hospital was so limited and kinda dirty looking, so not appetising.

Next, when my mother was on the road and being her indecisive self again, it made my temper flared because she was wondering whether to go to Selayang Mall or Jusco and she always do the last minute turn which is so DANGEROUS!!! It's not the 1st time she's doing such thing and mind you I was tired, hungry and I don't want to meet with an accident or die.

I just went and check the sem 4 time table and found out stuff that I don't want to know. It's not that bad honestly, just need to hang in there for the new system and hopefully after endocrine system it'll change but another news made me felt so depressed. My best friend is going to move out from her house because she had enough of the things happening there. She'll be staying out, stop receiving allowance (she actually stopped receiving months ago), stop using the car which was her 18th birthday present and start a job (something that is not related to what she's studying such as salesgirl or something along that line)!!

I am so worried.

It may sound easy to just move out, rent a room, work and survive but I honestly think it's not that easy. Even though you might find it shocking coming out from me but I do feel that family is important. I don't want her thinking that she has finally let go and escaped but getting trapped again 10 or 20 years down the road. Blood relationship is not that easy to be forgotten and let go. I am deeply concerned with her decision. She sounded so happy with that plan and was so glad that all her friends are supporting her decision but somehow I do not support it completely and I really feel bad.

SHE tried to talk sense into ME but I just feel so unsettled, so worried, so depressed. I don't know why am I feeling so but I'm just having such unexplanable feelings. I know she was unhappy living there but I just feel that it's not a right and rational decision. I know if she reads this she'll be so disappointed but I just can't help feeling that this decision is not the right thing to do. Hopefully she'll change her mind within this 3 months before she finishes her degree and really excecute her plans which I doubt so. What I can do is just to pray hard that she'll be happy where ever she will be.

I am sorry....

Suspected H1N1

Anyone of you were more alert about your own hygiene lately or have been avoiding crowded area??

Well, I bet most of you did nothing particular to be more cautious because I did not really bother too.

UNTIL

I got a call from my ballet teacher stating that there's a girl from another ballet school who has been confirmed having that virus. Problem starts because all the ballet students (including my ballet school) who joined the end of month ballet concert has been going to that small studio for rehearsals and that girl went too even though she was having high fever!!

Why am I so worked up??

BECAUSE

My sis is involved in the rehearsals and she has been contaminated. If she (touch wood) gets the virus and start having influenza symptoms, I might be having high risk of contacting it too since my sis and I share the same room and I am having my elective in the hospital that has H1N1 patients!!!

Reality hits me and suddenly I am worried. Something I thought would not happen to me might be happening and getting worried now is too late!!! OK, I am not that anxious already but I am sure taking more precautions!!

You guys out there, take care!!!!

I wonder why is the government not shutting down all the schools.
If A is suspected to have the virus, she will be quarantined at home. (Before she went to the clinic/hospital, she has been sneezing and coughing in class and in the public). The parents and siblings lead a normal life, going to work and school and public places. When A confirm having the virus, the whole family or only A gets quarantined BUT the family (and A) who have been contaminated has been spreading the virus unknowingly. So I wonder, how good can the quarantine program help in reducing the spread of H1N1??

Haze is getting worse too!!!

My only car at home just broke down and I wonder how am I going to the hospital tomorrow!!

Bad day... =(

electives

So far, electives is kinda boring. Nothing to loom forward besides the morning ward rounds. After that there's nothing to see because the MO will key in new data into the system.

But I am thankful to have a kind consultant to talk to us =)