l0vE st0Ry

Do you believe in long distance relationship? Till now, I still do not believe in it. Well, I don't even believe in love-in-the-1st-sight. Fate? Yes, I do believe in this.

It's been almost 1.5 years and it is still fresh in my mind. It sometimes still hurts. It sometimes just makes me wonder what if I accepted and tried making it work. The things that happened changed my life and the way I look at it.

When I get news about the whereabouts, I just want to know more but the more I know, the more it hurts. How can memories are just left behind and move on just like nothing had happened? How could it be so? And within few months, a new one came in the picture. I just could not believe it and how much it affected me after getting the news.

Maybe I was the one giving problems and not making decision right on time but the decision making and rationalising it is just isn't in me. Hearing my thoughts and explanations, agreeing to it making it harder for me to make up my mind and not being encouraging is one of the reasons too.

Anyway, when I am angry I really hope bad things happen but when it is raining, I become emo. Just like now...raining heavily, listening to the raindrops beating on the concrete, feeling cold, smelling the grass-smell and listening to that song reminds me of everything.

It is still aching and I just realised that I still could not let it go...just yet....