memories

this afternoon, i spent my time cleaning my room...

used about 4 hours just to get rid of the excess dust on my tables, cupboards..etc...

after that, felt tired so sat on my bed with my old diaries...

i went thru the 1st diary which i started on my 1st day of form 1...

the way i write was so funny...so innocent...so weird....

cant believe it was me that was holding that pen and jotting down those stuff....

i went thru the 2nd diary which took off few months after i finished my 1st book..

my writing was more matured and the way i see things was different....

i read back the private letters that i received from frens, recalled how was my life back then...

so happy, free from real troubles, free from stress, free from so many stuff that i hope i can be free from now...

i missed those days, those days when all of us were so young and innocent...

was so true to ourselves, was not bothered by how others see us...

no actors between us (maybe got la but i am sure i was not acting)..

anyway, i recalled the form 2 incident....Jo Ann, you remembered??

bet you did, it affected most of us...well, it affected me...

form 1, that was how i was caught in the trap of a "playful" love...

i swear i got nothing to do with how i know him and stuff....

it was just at the wrong place and the wrong time (not forgetting the wrong person)...

form 2, that was how i was caught in the trap of puppy love...

when i chat with him now, i always wonder how we actually stop(you get what i mean)...

so after flipping thru the pages, there it was where the answer lies...

come to think of it, i would repeat the same thing if it would have happened again...

honestly, if u were a guy that got rejected, will you continue loving that gal or move on??

many will move on at that certain age but some would remain loyal and hopeful...

living proofs----those that add me at msn from vb

there are guys that are nice, loyal and all the sweet stuff you can find in them but the gals are just not attracted to them.....i donno why??

there is a saying in chinese that goes "guys not naughty, gals wont get attracted"

there is a little truth behind it.....for those gals that are inmatured, yes, this saying applies.

but for those practical smart gals, they know guys that are naughty are just for fun. So in the end, these smart gals are the one that dump these labelled as "cool" guys...

sorry folks, reality is harsh on some people....

now, do you believe in long distance relationship??

i know i've touched and blogged briefly bout this topic but i truely wonder...

can this happen??

i donno why but i just do not believe in it...eventhough my ballet teacher's relationship with her husband had this small experience. The hubby was away for about 2 years but they still went on well. As the saying goes time makes the heart grows fonder...but i believe trust and understanding is vital in relationship and i'm sure they have it ^^

back to that topic, you guys believe in it??

can you trust your beloved that is millions of km away from you??

maybe i have problem in trusting...maybe i just refuse to believe in it but hey you can voice out your opinion here...

updates for that gal...lets call her CarelesS....

CarelesS just told me her wedding date is on 17th nov...

err, i guess you can see that lump at her stomach by then...

well, i was the 1st person in my ballet school to know what happened to her...

so today she told me she'll announce it to the principal and teachers...

but actually one of the ballet teacher kinda guessed that she was pregnant...

coz she skipped class and when she asked if CarelesS have sweets, CarelesS gave her sour plum...

anyway, the ballet teacher confronted me but i acted dumb since she don want me to release the news 1st...

but from my expression, that ballet teacher who has been teaching me since i was 7 years old kinda confirmed herself...hahaha

got a little inside news...CarelesS's parents actually asked her if she wanna abort that child...

if u were in her shoes, would u???

to settle down...

ok, i had this blogspot since march 2007 but didn't really used it since most of my friends at that time were using space to blog.
so i kinda copied and pasted some old blogs just to try out....
and since i might switch to this blogspot permanently, i might as well start from the begining but this dumb gal just couldn't figure out how and don't wanna take the risk of deleting every single thing since she spent hours just to edit and beautify this blogsite....(as if it is beautiful)
anyway, its very messy with old post suddenly popping out from no where...

so if you are interested in knowing how was my old blogs like, you may visit
http://hweijene.spaces.live.com/

for those who has been following the updates at spaces, you can save your time by just clicking to this site coz i'll be posting the same thing at both sites...
thanks for all the comments and time spent reading my boring posts....
good nite^^

updates....

sorry guys for losing my cool and swearing away.

my bad, will learn how to overcome this bad habit.

okok...updates....

that gal who got pregnant is busy with her wedding stuff, make me work on her days...

then when a long time friend called to check up on me, he got annoyed that i am still working til the extent he asked me to go meet him up so that he can make me pregnant too...swt...

but on 2nd thought, he becoming my kid's dad is a great idea since he is a genius!!!

he just came back from Korea representing M'sia in a debate competiton...u can read more at the Edu Star section...

ok, i'll post the link here...

http://thestar.com.my/education/story.asp?file=/2007/8/12/education/18510162

that guy i am so mighty proud of is called jian wei....the genius looking guy...hahaha

my ballet production's rehearsals are going on like usual...

next month i'll be having rehearsals on sat also...wah, 5 ballet classes per week....so tiring...

on the last rehearsal, my group and i finished learning all the dance part...

we are suppose to act too...wah...hahaha....can u imagine me in the character of a court lady, being elegent and graceful.....hehehe....

and ya....can u believe siu voon thought today is my birthday??!!

after telling him he got it wrong he scolded me and accused me lying coz i don wanna admit today is my b'day...

so funny la he....TODAY IS NOT MY B'DAY LA!!!

nvm la, forgive him since he so old alrd...hahaha.....

ahem...

i have been actually using windows spaces to blog...
it was kinda slow....and irritating...
anyway, will still update both til i'm comfortable with this blogspot...
so far so good...

premarital sex

will you guys do it??

do u think its okay to lose your virginity before marriage??

well, if u are on it...please...PLEASE have a safe sex...

wear condom or whatsoever!!!

pills aint gonna help much if you eat it after the sex...

counting the dates aint gonna be accurate if you have irregular periods....(for gals la)

just because of one (or two..gasp!!) little sperm(s) that managed to penetrate thru the membrane layer of the ovum, a baby (living organism!!) is created...

and you think you have a choice of abortion??

you think if the gal gets pregnant the family would still act the same??!!

for guys, it'll be as easy to just say "i'll be responsible" as saying "i love you" when you are madly in love??

come back to reality people!

IT WOULD NOT BE THE SAME!!

yes, i do have college friends who are having premarital sex but i've warned them (pray hard they listen n be careful)..

i do have friends who accidentally brought a new cutie baby to the earth....

but what i do have and makes me angry now...is those who are (maybe) pregnant and would cost me trouble!!!!

hello!! you created the trouble, you think of the consequences la...but why muz i be involved!!!

i'm having enough stress from the ballet practises and from my studies....

aint i innocent?? or did you pull me into this mess just because i didn't warned you earlier??

gosh!! i didnt even know you were doing it with that guy....

okay, its my bad for releasing my anger here but i haven explode yet....

i donno why but yesterday i wasnt in a very good mood..

i actually went back to the evil jene who was in control of the band...

who always shoot people without thinking bout that person's feeling....

yesterday in class, i actually asked a friend of mine to shut up...

he has this bad habit of saying out loud his method to solve the maths questions on the board which was supposed to be done on a piece of paper SILENTLY....

this has been going on since.....forever...

and suddenly i just cant stand it and said out loud; "CAN YOU PLEASE SHUT UP??!!"

there was an awkward pause and then ivan suddenly became so happy and whispered smth to ck...

i heard my name mentioned a few times so i told him" if u wanna talk bout me say it loud in front of me...don whisper behind my back"

and so he smiled and said...no la, i just like ur style.....

later in class he tried to be nice to me.....blea!!!

of course i feel bad for shooting at jin...

its just not right!!

aaahhh...whatever la....just hope that he wont get mad and ask his gang or ex triad members to kill me....

so people, dont be surprise if you get the news that i was killed in a gang fight....lol....

chill....phew.....js hope that she is not pregnant....

SAFETY 1ST WHEN HAVING