Happenings...

Honestly, things have not been going smoothly for some time.

- I could not go holiday around parts of UK with mom

- I couldn't get a white phone

- My bf's relationship might be ending soon. I know I should be glad but I know deep down, this ending will make everyone sad

- My research group progress is quite slow because most of us are clueless about the topic

- I got to stay out myself

The last one was something I know and expected hence the indifference when everyone was hyped up on searching for a house. Initially we wanted to stay together but circumstances is different now because some of us are being posted out. Actually the worse part was getting a sms that was kinda harsh. Maybe I am being too sensitive but I'm not exactly affected by it now. Maybe at that moment when I was reading it but not now.

Now what I feel is to just stop any communication. Every time I on my laptop, there will definitely be people saying hi via msn, yahoo messenger, Skype and Facebook chat. I sincerely honestly want to thank these people from the bottom of my heart for having me on their mind and wanting to share their day with me but not now.

Sadly, I could not ignore my bf's skype call and end up knowing that she cried. It really breaks my heart into pieces and I'm not exactly a person who likes to discuss about my problem so sharing with her my thoughts and feelings are out of the question. What I can do now is to be there for her, listening to her ramblings, saying the right things and give her the right reactions.

Deep down, I want to escape to the beach. Finally, I have a reason...

Listening to Joe Hisashi's song from the movie Departure, having such a gloomy cold day just makes me want to crawl up and hide under my duvet....or take a 30 minutes walk to the beach and spent my time there emoing =P

Spontaneous beach trip

I was just blogging about wanting to lie on the beach and emo alone? Well, kinda got it but instead of emo, I ended up with 2 scoops of ice cream and with a crowd =)

I was skyping with mom, then suddenly dad called via skyped. I thought he's at outstation so I hold my mom's call and answered my dad's call. Then what I saw was the same background as my mom. They were both sitting side by side in the living room but they were both using their OWN laptop to skype with me!! Hahaha...

Half way through, my friend suddenly msn and told me the older J bro is bringing us to the beach! I was like...WHAT??!! NOW??!!

Then I went kaboom! I had my bf on hold, my mom on hold, my dad talking to me (all 3 at skype), my another 2 friends at MSN and another 1 at Yahoo Messenger and another one at Facebook chat!!!

Anyway, I was in the midst of panic when suddenly the elder J bro called and asked "where are you? I'm downstairs already." I was like...WHAT?!!!!! I haven't change, haven't pee and haven't say bye to everyone!!! Anyway, didn't change (was wearing slippers and 3 quarter pants!), faster peed and shut down my lappie then rushed down.

It was cold, well the wind was cold and we had ICE CREAM!!!! I bought 2 scoops while some bought 3 scoops and we enjoyed it in the cold cold wind...I was shivering inside and outside but after a while, I didn't feel cold anymore, numb would be the word =P

Spent 1-2 hours then came back, happy =)

Love the sky...really wanted to just lie down on the beach and stare at the sky...

I still wanna emo alone there one day though...something I MUST do =)

Yesterday too bored, went facebook and stalked friend's family members and munched down 8 packets of chips!!! Such an experience =)

I want to...

I want to go to the Aberdeen beach and lie there alone,

looking at the (blue or grey) sky and fluffy white clouds,

listen to the sound of wave,

getting blown by the cold wind,

escape to tranquility of my own....

I just want to try that out before I die....

Hot body...

For you guys, don't feel sad or depressed after seeing this guy's body OK?

To me it's one of the most perfect, proportionate body I've ever seen =)

If only he can be just a wee more muscular at the shoulder but overall, he's just H.O.T

He is tall (compare him with the tall older man beside him), broad shoulder, small waist, long legs, wearing canvas shoes (not all guys can bring out the hotness of wearing canvas shoes) and has NO TUMMY!!!! Argh, if only I can meet more of this type of guys =P

emo...

I'm so emo now. I know it's so stupid to feel so emo for such a small thing but if from the beginning the people around me didn't encourage me and that blaardy salesperson didn't misunderstand, then I won't have my hopes so high for the white colour!!

Haih....

I can't get

=(

But what I can get is

See the difference

White one nicer right?

Sob...

=,(