My 1st Night Shift

I was planning to get back to Abd today then to Edinburgh and because the car I am following is leaving early so I decided to go for a night shift instead. Not guilt ridden at all since I'm replacing the 2 half days (Thursday and Friday) with a 12 hour shift and nothing happens in the afternoon anyway since all jobs are done by 10ish 11am =)

Went to the ward in the morning at 8am and stayed till 1pm. I was actually leaving by 11ish 12pm but one of the FY1 saw me and asked me to follow him to the x-ray meeting. I'm in the surgical block and the meeting was for medical peeps but since he remembered me (we kinda talked a bit when I was with my surgical FY1) and I was not sleepy yet and it's educational, hence I followed along.

So I tried sleeping after a light lunch but I woke up every hour from 1-5pm. I set my alarm at 6pm but I was hungry by 5.30pm and could not force myself to sleep anymore so I just went to the kitchen for dinner. I made a great choice because I kinda socialised with the ang mohs and even Facetime in the kitchen with my friend at Abd who is a mutual friend of this cute funny ang moh.

Left to hospital at 8pm and did some jobs, tried to read something medical aka DVT but just couldn't concentrate and finally by 9ish pm, the on-call FY1 came and picked me and let me tag along. I was quite tired and sleepy by 10ish 11pm but with all the walking around, I managed to not fall asleep =P
At around 10ish, a woman came into A&E after a hit and run and unfortunately died even after 45minutes of CPR. The news was on BBC.

Sadly for me, it was a very very quiet night. So the FY1 and the GPST1 who was also on call, together with me did some BMJ quiz on IV fluids and we were all half asleep and half awake, trying to figure out the answers together (team effort woohoo~) and by 4ish am, we managed to finish 2 sets. Chat a bit and by 5ish 6pm, walked around the hospital and finally settled at the surgery ward room and chat with the on call surgical reg who had 6.5 hours of sleep in the on call reg room (envy~).

Overall, even though it was a quiet night, I did enjoy it because of the company and educational value =)
It was really great fun and I was lucky to get this FY1 and the GPST1 who were both so entertaining and funny and I learned quite a bit from them too ^^

Currently, after 2.5 cups of coffee for 14 hours, I am so so awake and hyper. I believe I will crash tonight =/

Elgin =)

I am now on my bed in the hospital accommodation in Elgin and I am loving every moment so far.

Leaving the house which I previously called home made me feel sad and happy. Sad because I no longer have a place called home, happy because I get to see new place and travel. I don't know, maybe sad because I am not going to have so much fun with my new housemates anymore and happy because I can have my own room and meet new hopefully nice people.

The journey to Elgin was 1.5 hours and I was lucky to have L with me and we talked throughout the whole journey =)

Something sad happened in the train. Just before departing, there was this breathless lady who boarded the train just before the door closed and she was pleading the train master to let her 2 friends who were just right in front of the closed train door to board but the train master refused and stopped them. So this lady were almost in tears trying to talk sense into the train master but her pleas fell on deaf ears and the reason the train master gave was 'we are 2 minutes late, I'm sorry' then walked away. So sad...

When L and I arrived at Elgin, we were shocked to see that we need to climb 2 flights of stairs to cross the railway to get to the other side! I was with this HUGE HEAVY luggage bag and the thought of bringing it up then down to reach the other side just made me scared. So we decided to let the other passengers to go ahead then only we'll try to achieve the almost impossible. L had 2 suitcases so I stayed at the bottom for her to bring her 1st suitcase over. When she came back for the 2nd suitcase, I braced myself and got ready to die then suddenly this chap appeared and offered to help me. I was so so SO HAPPY!!
'YES PLEASE!! Thank you so so SO MUCH!!' was my replied and he without any hesitation just picked my luggage up and put it on his shoulder! WOW!!

The stairs that I needed to cross...

So when L reached the other side, she was =.= to see that I was helped =P
But I helped her with her smaller suitcase.

Reached the hospital accommodation and met my senior who is working there as FY1. Ooo, my room is SO SPACIOUS!! Anyway, went grocery shopping and I bought lots of fruits, yogurt and even spent 3 pounds on 1.5kg of Alpen cereal

which I fell in love with when I tried it at London.

After unpacking, L and I went exploring and we went to this restaurant called Scribbles for dinner.

I enjoyed my Penne smoked sausage (Slices of smoked sausage and roasted vegetables in a creamy tomato and basil sauce) while L disliked her Morco Polo (Strips of duck breast, mushroom and onions in a sweet plum sauce with penne) LOL.

Then we went back and had cheesecake (baked by one of my friend) and talked about dogs for hours...I miss Spritzer boy...

Happy-ly High....

After that pizza hut buffet and hanging out with my fellow groupmates, I felt so much better. I'm sure they think that I am a weirdo Asian because I just couldn't stop talking. Anyway, took a few pictures with them and even had a proper long conversation with one of the guys that went to Inverness with me. It felt different talking to a Scottish compared to my fellow Asian friends and it's really shocking that I can hold a proper conversation with them LOL

Anyway, I am happy and high. Ask my housemate, kepochi-the-busybody and he'll tell you that I AM HIGH. Laughing so loudly, giggling away and smiling all the time. Wonder why?

Let me tell you why. I found something fun! I am addicted to House MD, a FB game. Every lunch break, I'll rush home just to spend that 1.5hours playing the game and when I am home, I am on it 24/7!

Well, I guess I am feeling so much better is because I managed to detox from something, I am having fun and I am actually communicating with friends =)

Ooo, kepochi-the-busybody opened my gates of hell. I am eating crisps again but oh well, at least I am happy hehehe....

Now, back to packing to Elgin...

Blues...

Have you had the feeling that you'll never be happy again?

The feeling that something is missing and you just don't know what?

I feel like crying and sobbing out loud but I can't and even if I want to, nothing is happening...

It's so difficult to go through the day with such heavy negativity in me....

What's wrong with me??

Sunny Sunday

First of all, Selamat Hari Raya!!! I have to admit, having the sun shining so brightly on a Sunday morning on Raya day just makes everything seems fine.

I must say, I'm glad that I have friends who actually sincerely care.

I have to admit I can't answer the question
'when I'm in trouble, who will be there for me'
but now I know I'm not alone...

Thank you so much...even though you guys are so far away and we have a huge time difference, effort makes all these obstacles seems so minute.

For those who didn't know, I got a shocking news yesterday and I needed someone to talk to and luckily a friend of mine was there for me and of course not forgetting those that wrote to me too.

A huge thanks to you guys =)

THANK YOU!!