Bad day

Had replacement class at 8am by Dr.Nilesh. FYI, Dr.Nilesh is from India and his Indian accent is still quite strong and he speaks very fast YET he's the best anatomist I've known so far. He's so knowledgeable that he just want to tell you everything he knows hence the speed of his sentences. I would die if I ever miss his lecture and hence this post.

KTM has been improving BUT on the replacement class day, it was late and was stopped between Segambut and Putra for 1.15 hours!!!! I take the 6.08am train and will usually reach uni by 7am if the train is puncture. That day, at 7am, I was still in the train 2 stops away from the station I was at and it was Dr.Nilesh's lecture!!!

I was so worried/ anxious/ scared/ pissed that I put my earphones on, increase the volume to maximum and listened to MCR shouting and singing away. It was helping at the beginning but after 30 minutes, I was so worried that my whole buccal mucosa's epithelium was being chewed on.

Thank goodness, I arrived in time for the lecture and I even managed to release the pent up anger before he started his lecture LOL.

Today, I retired from my club's post. Yeah!!! Had all I can eat Domino for lunch. Satisfying!!!

Today, had 2 hours of winks before I went to uni and surprisingly I survived til 5pm. Had a 15 minutes nap and here I am still awake but tired.

Got to do PBL, Com Med portfolio, study....
I was so stress yesterday that I felt like crying but couldn't. Ballet classes are taking up a lot of my time. Kinda feel like giving up sometimes =(

Welcome back??

OK, it's my bad and it's my fault for abandoning you for the past 1 month but I was busy hence limited/ allowed myself to use the computer only during the weekends.

There are quite a few issues that I would like to blog about. Don't say I didn't pre-warn you (any readers left? LOL) that it'll be a LONG post.

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Community Medicine week is over and MSK (musculoskeletal) system has started. It's interesting as we need to learn about the bones and parts of it. Spending time with Bobby was fun and it was better when he allowed me to touch him =P I'll post his picture up when I have the free time.

As I enter the second week of MSK, I'm starting to feel burned out. Sleeping less than 6 hours and trying to stay awake in the afternoon is just testing my mental power. Every time I enter the train (KTM), even though I am standing I can actually fall asleep and I nearly fell a few times. Ballet is also taking up quite a lot of my time and energy. I sometimes kinda dread going for class BUT recently I found out that it can be a place to release all the pent out stress especially when frog is around =)

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For PMS (partner medical school) students, we were required to write a narrative entitled "Your future plans and general career aspirations after graduation from PMS/IMU Clinical School (typewritten, not exceeding 250 words and in Font 12)". So after getting less sleep and more tired that usual, I managed to produce a not-too-bad narrative.

Now the issue I would like to address here is how some people would only approach you when they need help. So on the day we have to submit our narratives, there were some who have not talked/ approached me for some time appeared and asked for my help. I honestly didn't mind but after helping them, only did this thought sunk in "why ask me and not your other closer friends?" When I told my mother about it, she was a little unhappy that I offered to help because this narrative is quite important as (apparently) the PMS choose/consider us based on our narrative (besides our results). Quote her:

"this is a competition, everyone should do it by themselves so that it's fair."

BUT there were some who had their family members writing the essay for them so is this still call fair?

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Last month, I joined the Eco Friends Club because I thought the club needed people since one of IMU's policy in forming club is that there must be at least 20 members to start off. Besides, the founders are Jo Yee (a HELP friend) and another batch mate. Innocently I went there to increase the number of members but end up being in the committee board. I am willing to help out and commit myself BUT there were so many meetings and most of the time, I'll be sitting there quietly listening to the founders and the teacher-in-charge discussing about certain issues. The feeling I had was "I could have used this time to study."

Point to note- our club is not official yet- hence most of the time in the first few meetings were discussions on how to persuade the lady in charge of clubs to make us official. HOWEVER, I am glad that FINALLY we have something that I can help out!! The Student Representative Council is organising the Earth Day and they wanted us to help out in handling the poster competition. Yeah, at least in the meetings I can contribute a bit and not waste time =)

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Recently or I should say this year onwards, I have been feeling very annoyed with my family members. Everything they did just irritate me and make me feel angry (for no reason!!). I feel bad but after a while I would justify my feelings and the guilt just evaporated. This week, I have not had dinner with my family as I buy my own dinner and eat while study in my room while they go out for their dinner. Reasons for my actions are:
1. We have to wait for my mother and brother to come home from work and they usually reach home by 8ish and by time we go out for dinner, it would be 9ish
2. I wake up VERY early hence I got to sleep earlier but late dinner is just making me fat and unhealthy!!
3. If I have my dinner at home, I only need maximum 15 minutes while I'll waste almost 1.30hours if I join them for dinner
4. If I spend more time with them, I'll feel more irritated and annoyed =P

There you go, my valid reasons!! I sometimes just can't wait to fly away...

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Yesterday, my sem3 juniors asked me to help them at the CSU (clinical skills unit) and I gladly went and help since I understand what they are going through. I am happy that I actually took the initiative to teach them what I know because besides refreshing my memories (sem5's OSCE exam also include sem3's stuff), I got a SP for my future practices!! Yeah!!

In addition, I got praises from the juniors which helped me a little in my inferiority complex which I have been experiencing since I came to IMU. I always felt that everyone around me are so smart and I will be expelled anytime soon since I am not as good as them. I confess that this is one of the motivation that keep me studying all the time. I know feeling this way is bad and maybe I am not as bad as I think I am but I actually feel it deep down that I am a no good. Reaching sem5 is honestly a huge surprise for me but standing in front of me is another hurdle that I got to leap. I must pass sem5 and I will try to do it without putting so much stress on myself (which was what happened in sem3 and hence that result).

Pray for me people...

Hopefully I'll resume blogging by next week =)
Til then, take care people...
My favourite study place- the aquarium =)

books that I love...

I recently borrowed 2 fiction books from the library and I am so glad and proud of my choice of books =P

I borrowed The Thirteenth Tale by Diane Setterfield and The Book Club by Kate Mccabe.


The Thirteenth Tale is really a book which is very ancient poetic English type and kinda not my regular choice but I grew to love it because of the content and the breath of fresh air when reading it. It's interesting as it contains the passion for books such as Wuthering Heights and Jane Eyre (!!!), secrets of a family, ghost stories, mysteries and sadistic kids all in one book!!

This story is about how Margaret Lea was asked to write the biography of a Ms.Vida Winter who's a famous writer of books (one of them was called the Thirteen Tales but was renamed Tales of Change and Desperation because the book only contains 12 tales). Ms.Vida is sick and dying and it was later revealed that she was related to the Angelfield House and how there was a twins with a mentally sick mother, a sadistic uncle, a gardener, a missus, a governess who ran away, a doctor and a ghost in the house.


The Book Club is the type of fiction book that I will pick up to read to pass time. This story is also intriguing and exciting to read. For an avid book reader like me reading about a book club is so fun because it gives me the insight of starting one LOL. What made me love this book is because the 1st book they chose to read and share their views on is a book I've read before- Rebecca!! Bit the book I've read was Rebecca's Tale and the author of that book is Sally Beauman. According to Wikipedia, the book that I've read is kinda like a prequel to the real 1938 Rebecca. The next book was "The boy in the Stripped Pyjamas" and I've read this book too!! =)

This book is about how Marion who was bored hence wanted to start a book club after reading a book yet has no one to share with, Christy who joined the club to accompany his wife who loves reading and was recovering from her minor stroke, Liz who's grieving for the lost of her husband in a freak accident, Matt who's a divorcee and was interested in Marion, Nick who lost his fame as a poet and wants to write a novel to relaunch his carrier and Alan who was Marion's ex who joined the book club to get her back. All these characters were twisted and involved in each others live in a way. You can find romance, betrayal, deceit, and mystery all in this book.

Wow...if I can't pass out as a MD then I guess I'll get a job like Sandra Bullock in Proposal where I get to read all the unpublished manuscripts and decide who to publish and things like that. Yup, that'll be my dream job besides being involved in music, ballet and animals =)

text message

At 12am on 14th Jan 2010, I started sending text messages to all my friends in my phone list which includes the 3 lecturers from HELP- Ms.Ng, Mr.Khoo and Mr.R0nnie.
All 3 of them replied.

Ms.Ng's replies was the weirdest. She just sent Gong Hi Fat Choi". I mean, what? LOL

Mr.Khoo was surprised that I sent him the message and remembered him and we kinda chat for a while.

Mr.Ronnie who did not save my number (I think) just replied "Thanks, I think you are Ms.Ng from Kepong?" Hahah, and we also chat for a while and he said how can he forget us who treated him pizza LOL!! I recalled him wearing his Liverpool jersey and we just could not stop laughing hahaha. Good all days =)

Well, CNY is just another day to me and I did not go ang pau hunting so I assume this year's ang pau will be less than RM100 (exclude my parent's portion hehe).

Going to start uni next week and I am so dead =(

Going up North

Dang!! This time we have to go back up North for CNY =(

I really enjoy the company of my cousins BUT I don't like the process of traveling there. 7 hours stucked in a car really ruins everything. Gah!!

Have been busy watching movies and reading fiction books I borrowed from my uni's library. There's a whole good nice collection of fiction books. I like!!

Random updates for the sake of this dead blog. Honestly, no mood...