Post Mock Exam

What I would like to stress here is that I did not study for the mock exam and hence I have no expectation what so ever and hence the carefree attitude now. More over, I'm leaving to KL in another 7 hours time and what have I done so far?

The weekend before exam, I was watching The Mentalist season 3 and 4 and read lots of manga. Started flipping through the notes 6 hours before the exam. Came home after the written exam and was pumped up for the OSCE the next day but succumbed to the temptation of The Mentalist and manga so I prepared for my OSCE 4 hours before the exam.

After the exam, another episode of The Mentalist, packed my bag and was stranded at the train station because a tree fell and all the trains were cancelled. Thankfully after waiting for 1 hour, with the crazy cold strong wind and proper heavy rain, I could not feel my fingers but finally a bus was prepared for us. I had bus sick again and was sick a few times =(

Reached Aberdeen 4 hours later and took a cab to Jenan's place for an early Christmas dinner. Had lots of fun and laughter, left at 10ish, went home and unpacked, washed clothes, pack luggage for home and watched more The Mentalist, Skyped, Glee and manga.

It's 9am and I have not slept throughout the night and I am prepared to sleep in the airplane and hopefully, no plane cancelled.

See you guys back at KL soon =)

Oh I forgot to mention, I miss Inverness and my groupmates =(

1st snow and 1st foot injury week

I'm terribly sorry for not being as active as I should be here but this is one of my attempts to correct it.

Anyway, it snowed yesterday!!
It was dark and raining when I walked to the hospital at 8.30am, then at the start of ward round, the consultant announced loudly to the patient 'Good morning, 1st patient for the ward round and it's snowing outside.'

After that, I was looking at the window the whole time. Ward round? What ward round?

After about 10 minutes, the snow turned to rain again.

I shall make sure when it shows again, I'll be dashing out and touch it for MY FIRST TIME!!! Wheee....

On the unfortunate 23/11/11, I woke up from the study table in this hospital ghetto and transferred myself to my bed BUT I think my feet were numb and was sleeping as well. I fell in a very very awkward way.

Woke up few hours later with this shooting pain at my right foot and I could not move it at all!!! Got down from my bed and fell on the ground. COULD not stand at all

T.T

I panic!!! For my past 18-20 years of dancing career, I've never succumbed to any foot injury and my 1st foot injury is falling in a room half asleeply. GREAT, such a boost to my dancing career history.

Anyway, after panic much (got to go for ward round in another few hours!), I emailed my friend who we keep in touch everyday by mail and thank god I received the reply 5 minutes later. Was reminded the existence of 'ICE' so I dragged myself to the kitchen, put some water in a cup and let it sit in the freezer, then I dragged myself to my room and put cold tower on the injury.

After the whole thing, my foot became-

UGH!!! Fat and ugly =(

Shoes were tighter and I mastered the antalgic gait!

But yesterday night (25/11/11), I realised my right foot (the uninjured side) is getting shooting pain due to the extra pressure and weight it has been carrying for the past few days and while bathing I noticed my left calf is bigger than the right foot!!! WOW!!!! Great =(

End Of Psych

It's been a week past my Psychiatry Block. Boy was I depressed when it ended.

After that horrific 1st week, things settled and I really really enjoyed myself and learned a lot. I did a mistake by telling one of my consultant that I....if you know me well enough, you'll know what I'm not saying here. Anyway, he took the effort to tell the whole team and since then, everyone in the team would start asking me 'I heard that you're interested in Psychiatry.'

Well, I was praised quite a few times and it just made my day (the other consultant gave me positive comments and even added, 'if you need a recommendation letter, come find me')!!!! and this same consultant asked me after seeing my handwriting- 'Do you ave OCPD?'

So I took the time reading up personality disorder and I realised that I might have OCPD!!

OCPD is characterized by at least three of the following:

1. feelings of excessive doubt and caution;
2. preoccupation with details, rules, lists, order, organization or schedule;
3. perfectionism that interferes with task completion;
4. excessive conscientiousness, scrupulousness, and undue preoccupation with productivity to the exclusion of pleasure and interpersonal relationships;
5. excessive pedantry and adherence to social conventions;
6. rigidity and stubbornness;
7. unreasonable insistence by the individual that others submit exactly to his or her way of doing things, or unreasonable reluctance to allow others to do things;
8. intrusion of insistent and unwelcome thoughts or impulses.

Read through and tell me what do you think. Agree that I have some sort of OCPD trait? (I'm not so much of number 7 though, toned down a lot.)

So how did I end my last day of Psych? A trip to Aviemore with one of my consultant!!! The whole 45min -1 hour journey, we were talking non stop. Fine, he was talking to me non stop after I feed him with my ideas/ questions/ understanding about stuff. It was so fun!!

One of the highlight of the journey was me asking

'Do you psychoanalyse your friends?'

and his answer was.....

'Oh you mean the women I date?'

(I was thinking to myself, do I want to go there??!!! It was just an innocent question of a daily life, NOT personal life!)

Anyway, he did spill the beans about the women he dated hahahaha.....fun stuff!!!

One of the questions in the feedback form was 'how much time did you spend with your consultant?'

My friends answers were like 'a few times a week' while mine was 'almost everyday' LOL!!!! Well, you can't blame me since I was attached to 2 consultants while the others were attached to one!!!

Oh, remember from my last post that I was depressed and all the fun stuff? On Monday of my 2nd week of Psych, I talked to the Psych registrar and I totally felt better. Yup, I owned up the fact that I was lost and felt miserable and depressed since I came to this place. I guess it's either he psycho me or I felt better after confessing (shoo away the denial!) then I spoke to another registrar about it on the way home (he was kind enough to offer me a ride home, save my bus fare wheee) .

Wow, I know right??!! How in the world could I open up so easily? Maybe because I felt better and didn't think it was a big deal. I also told my consultant about my 'depression' during the long trip and he was like 'oh gosh, are you alright now?' Sweet~~ Hahahahaha....

In a nutshell, I really really like Psych and I miss it so much especially since I'm in the wards again and it's so different!! But after a week of cardiology, psych seems like a far away memory. A memory that I would cherish and treasure =)

Psychiatry

Well I just finished my 1st week of Psychiatry and boy am I lost.

Since I came to Inverness, things haven't been smooth for me. I could not focus on my studies, memory as bad as a goldfish, always feel so lost in the wards, don't feel settled in at all and I feel lonely most of the time.

Yes I do admit that I like to be alone (thanks to IMU for the training =.="') but Inverness is just not letting me enjoy my solitary.

Well if you have been checking FB, you might have glimpsed my status on Wednesday. I sat in with my consultant for his outpatient clinic and for the last patient, he wanted to speak to the consultant privately so the consultant asked me to wait at the library and he'll get me later. So I waited patiently from 3ish till 5ish and he didn't appear. I remembered that it's a 9-5 job so I went to his room and knocked on the door.

No sound. Tried to open the door, it was locked.

T.T

He left me....

Phone no battery...

Group mates left by 12pm...

Jacket was not thick enough for the cold cold freezing weather...

I got to wait for the bus...

I lost my pen and my favourite mechanical pencil...

T.T

Totally not my day....felt so abandoned...felt so lonely...felt like I am at the wrong place studying the wrong course...

Haih......

Hope things will be better soon...

And life MUST go on no matter what so can't give up!!!!

My Neighbour Totoro

I just finished watching this movie, My Neighbour Totoro (I'll continue studying soon =P) and it's so touching.

There's quite a few scenes in this movie which was made in 1988 that reminds me of Spirited Away =)

Well duh since it's made and produced by Studio Ghibli, written and directed by the famous Hayao Miyaki. Can't stop myself from announcing, I just love his movies!!

This reminds me of another touching sad movie- Grave of the Fireflies.

T.T

Both this movies are based around the Japan war and you just got to watch and experience it yourself.

I love Japanese movies because it always hit the right spot and just moves me to tears. And of course the music, definitely fit the scenarios all the time. I wonder how the Japanese do it...

Aaaahhhh, I miss playing the Japanese songs back at band times. Totally love playing them... Dang, now I miss my band life....

For this movie, I envy how the sisters are so close. I know my relationship with my siblings is far from this 'normal' but since I left home, I do think that I am closer to them in a way. I guess the phrase 'distance makes the heart grow fonder' can be applied here but it's so weird because usually it's used in a boy-girlfriend scenario.

Eeuuuwwww.....

Anyway, the bottomline- I just love Japanese movies =)