Email from Kurt Hugo Schneider

Yeah!! I got an email from Kurt!!

Who is Kurt? You don't know who is Kurt? Go smack your right head now...NOW!!!

Well, he's an American video editor, musician, singer and songwriter whose primary medium is YouTube. He started off producing music videos with Sam Tsui and eventually got famous. Hey, he appeared in The Ellen DeGeneres Show and The Oprah Winfrey Show!!! Whoever appeared in those 2 talk shows are worthy of being recognised!! Anyway, I prefer Kurt to Sam because, well besides music and all, Kurt graduated from Yale with a degree in Maths and is a chess master!! How sexy is that??!!

Now, back to my email from Kurt. YES, an email from Kurt thanking me for being one of his biggest fans. Share the email here? Nah...there's something secretive about the email that I can't share. Serious, he put in the link to a short clip of his latest movie (he's directing College Musical: The Movie) which can only be seen by his fans with this email. Boo yah, not sharing =P

Kurt <3

Waiting for my Domino's...I'm hungry and I can't concentrate with my studies...ARGH!!!! Pizza, pizza faster come!!

Neurosurgery week

This is my last week as a 4th year student. Gosh, I'm missing it already. To be honest, I love every posting except my orthopedic block which was very disappointing or maybe because I had high expectation. Hmm..

Anyway, for my this last week I am in my Neurosurgery posting and boy I loved how I ended it. The amount of compliments I received from 2 consultants from just 2 days is more than the whole year added together!!!

On Tuesday, I went for 2 clinics (morning by a registrar and in the afternoon, a Malaysian consultant's clinic). The morning clinic was funny because I think the reg was 'afraid' of me. The 1st patient did not attend the appointment so we were in the clinic room waiting for the next patient and I was bored so I started to ask questions. Instead of answering my question or quizzing me back, he said 'can you ask me an easier question?' LOL!!! Since then, he tried to not be in the clinic room alone with me, He'll go out to toilet, get a cup of water, read patient's notes outside of the room while I sat in the clinic room feeling bored. Towards the end of the clinic, I got a text from my group mate regarding Friday's assessment when he was outside of the room again. I was too happy reading the content of the message that I dropped my note books and stuff on the floor. It must have been loud because he came running in from outside and asking 'ARE YOU OK?!!' Hahahahahaha...he's nice =)

Then after tutorial, my group mate told me that the consultant who is having the clinic in the afternoon is a nice consultant who teaches students so instead of heading home and study, I went for the clinic hoping to learn more. The moment I stepped into the clinic, he said out loud 'comelnya~' and I was like 'Err....OK' then I introduced myself and he replied 'ni hao ma?' I was flabbergasted and I replied '...err....Okay??!!!' and went on introducing myself. He laughed and pointed to me where to sit and asked if I know Chinese so when I replied yes, he repeated himself again 'ni hao ma?'. I humored him and replied 'HAO!!!' hahahaha...

He did ask a few questions regarding my birthplace and instead of an answer of M'sia, he asked further 'where?' then 'which part?' so I asked him back if he's from M'sia and I got a HUGE 'NO' but eventually he admitted. He asked me a few questions and I managed to answer them correctly and he looked shocked and said 'I'm very impressed' then he became more keen in teaching me LOL....We had a few long winded patients and it delayed the whole clinic time and by the end of the day, he spoke to me in Malay!! Hahahaha....before releasing me, he asked if I have any question so I asked him one which was to just confirm my doubt but end up with 'I won't let you off that easy. Go back and read up then find me tomorrow at my office at 1pm OK?
Sheesh...another homework from another neurosurgeon (got one last Friday from the neurosurgeon who was teaching us).

On Wednesday, I planned to take the day off and study at home but since I have to 'pass up' my homework, I went to theater in the morning, hoping to kill time before 1pm and there was the neurosurgeon from last Friday, so I passed up my last Friday's homework to him and he was very happy. I made him happier when he asked me the next question and he rewarded me by asking if I would like to scrub in and assist him. DUH?? OF COURSE I WANT TO SCRUB IN AND ASSIST HIM!!!! But I informed him that I need to meet Mr.xx to pass up my homework.

To cut the story short, I assisted in a craniotomy for a right parasagittal meningioma!!!! The compliments what were threw at me just made me blushed all the time.
' 100%'
'Excellent!!'
'Good good'
'Wow, I'm impressed' etc....
Half way through the procedure, he stopped everything and just announced loudly....
(I turned to look at the anaesthetist thinking 'oh boy, what went wrong or what did I do to screw up the brain and what the anaesthetist can help!!)
....Listen, this medical student has been here since the start of the procedure, has been standing here doing all the right thing without me asking much and even came and inform me about xxxx which I didn't know when she asked me about it last week.... bla bla....

OMG!!! I was too embarrassed to actually listen word to word of what he was saying and I was trying to focus on the pulsating brain...I think I was very very red too. It's a fact that I don't know how to accept compliments because Malaysians are not compliment giver or taker LOL.

Anyway, the whole procedure lasted 6 HOURS!!! The procedure itself was 6 hours but I was in the theater since 9am (procedure started at 11am) so technically, I was standing without food and water for 8.5hours!!!!!!

Regarding the 1pm appointment with the other consultant, the theater nurse called him and informed him that I was assisting and hence could not turn up. Phew...

Before I left, he was convincing me to be a neurosurgeon. Pat on the shoulder and words like 'you have what it takes to be a surgeon, a neurosurgeon' etc came out from his mouth.....my confidence just went sky high and I don't need such confidence boost at such time because exam is in another 2 weeks and I am not studying as hard as I should be =/

But gosh, I love how I ended my 4th year =)
Hopefully I don't need to resit for anything!!! =/

Selfish much?

Seriously, I finally am pissed with people around me who are selfish. You keep information to yourself, you plan things and only inform those you deem worthy, you do stuff behind people's back and everything is for your own benefit.

Come on, life is more than just being self-centered. The world doesn't turn around you for god sake.

You are making me feel so pissed that I feel like slapping you, screaming at you and put some sense into you but I know it's not going to happen and it's not worth my time and effort since your thick skull is filled with 'I DON'T SHARE'.

I am not going to even think about the past things that you've done to me and others. Confronting you is just a waste of my precious time. I prefer to use that time into good use like freaking studying for my coming exam.

ARGH!!! Selfish people, just leave me alone and be selfish among your seafood friends!!!

Easily pleased and happy =)

I just finished my Ophthalmology week and I am kinda missing the staffs and the week.

Honestly did I learn much? Nope. BUT the people were nice and it just made me feel so comfortable and fit in just nicely. Take today for example, the clinic was horrible because it started late and the patients were waiting for >2 hours to see the doc and many were standing because there were not enough chairs. Mind you, the patients are all OLD.

And how was I? I was also standing outside of the clinic room together with the patients because I was sent off to watch OCT, fluorescein angiogram etc and every time I go back to the clinic, the room door was shut so I needed to wait outside.

The whole time I was waiting, I managed to speak to patients especially those that were there since 9am (I was there since 8.45am and the clinics started at 10am!). Speak, not taking history so I didn't feel tired or awkward standing outside of the room as well. Laughed most of the time as to how there were unhappy but they complained about it in their own funny ways. Facial expression alert!

Besides that, I managed to befriend a nurse who I saw at the cataract clinic on Tuesday. When I reached the eye outpatient clinic, she was walking pass the reception area and when she saw me, she stopped and loudly asked 'why are you here? Have you been following me around?!!' It was so funny and through out the whole morning, I kept bumping onto her and she kept asking me the same question 'You again?!! Why are you following me now?' Hahahaha, fun times =)

I guess as long as I can get along with patients and the doctors paid attention to me, I am very very happy with things. The registrar who I was with the whole morning and afternoon (he did the assessment for my group as well) kept calling me Daisy, which was my group mate's name the WHOLE MORNING so during the assessment, he asked 'Daisy' aka me to answer but the real Daisy answered so he realised his mistake and it was just so funny hahaha =)

Well, there you go. My week of ophthalmology has ended and I have this sad empty feeling now. Crazy, I know but I can't help it!

Was with the eye surgeon and he asked me ''so what does your future career hold?''
me: " I don't know yet =/"
surgeon: " Oooo, you should know by now so you can do stuff for brownie points"
me:" Ya I know but everything is just so interesting!! I like both medicine and surgery!!! =(

Dilemma...again >.<"'

cold gloomy lazy

It has been raining, drizzling, gloomy and cold for the past few days, makes me want to curl up on my bed and just close my eyes into oblivion.

No thoughts about the future, no thoughts about the past, no thoughts about the present....just disappear into something I call bliss....

As you know, cold gloomy rainy days bring out the emotional me.

Reminds me of the days when it rained during bandcamp and there I was, sitting all alone enjoying tranquility until my drum major rudely barged in and 'accompanied' me. Sharing a moment of quietness, I felt like we connected without any words and that was the start of our friendship and bond which turned into something more than I expected.

Sometimes, being alone isn't something to be ashamed of or something that defines pathetic. I learned that being alone doesn't mean lonely because you can feel lonely although you're in a crowd.

I don't know where I am going with this but I feel like composing a poem....