T.T

I don't want to go back..I don't want, I don't want, I don't want!!!

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Was sorting my cupboard when I realised that 60% of my clothes are band T-shirts and some school T-shirts (prefect, camps etc)...I'm such a loser....

Yup, you guessed right. I kept them all. I don't care if I'll have the chance to wear them in the future but I AM KEEPING THEM!!! Looking at each T-shirt, I can see myself wearing it when I was in band practice, when I was in band camp, when I was in prefect camp, when I went for leadership camp...

Told you I am a sentimental emotional freak....

and back to...

I don't want to go back..I don't want, I don't want, I don't want!!! 
;(

sob....

Another 2 more days

Warning...Rant time!

I seriously believe I'll feel very very homesick when I get back to Abd in 2 days time. I am dreading Friday. Perhaps having a friend with me will make things better as compared to last Dec when I went back alone, sobbing away at the Amsterdam airport, waiting for my 2 hours transit to pass. But does it really really make any difference?

I am a very sentimental emotional freak. I remember sitting at the back of the bus traveling back from Kuantan after our Merdeka parade with my whole school band and I was sobbing silently whilst everyone were fast asleep.
I was sobbing because of mixed emotions:
  I was relieved that things went smoothly,
  I was happy that we got to spent that whole week together as a band at another state,
  I was glad that we were given such chance,
but
  I was sad that it ended,
  I was convinced that when we go back to school everything will be back to normal,
  I was afraid that I didn't do enough for the band and let my teachers down...

Lots were going through my head at that time.
Well, you get my point- I am a sentimental emotional freak.

And worse, 现在的我开始像2007 的我了。 每秒钟都在看电话，等着简讯的到来。=(

Haih....

Another disappointing thing to point out. Chivalry is dead here in KL or maybe Malaysia. Gosh, a simple holding the door for the person behind of you which only takes a few second is so difficult to get. When I see what's happening around me now, I feel so sad that some M'sians are so uncivilized.

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Yesterday went and watched Batman, The Dark Knight Rises.

It was alright in my opinion but somehow at certain parts, I felt that it was a little too slow in terms of pace and a little too long as a movie. The 2 people sitting beside me keep checking their phone and it was so annoying. Yup, lots of flying cars and cool bike but I feel Tom Hardy really deserves an award for his dedication!

I knew Tom Hardy from the movie Brosnan and boy was he great in that movie.

Now looking at pictures of him as Bane

Wow...

Alright, I need distractions...lots of it!!!

Reminder for myself

It's so easy to get affected and swayed from the decisions made from years ago.

Jene, wake up. You should 彻底死心....

Stop having lingering thoughts. There is no outcome to it...there is no 'if' too....

Look at what happened to the other one, same result in the end. Later when things get a little bit more serious, it might be back to 2007 again...well not that bad but almost that way....

Hence with this post, its the first step to stop myself from getting too involved.

S.T.O.P already....

Homesick soon?

It's another week before I head back to UK.

Last night, we went to a Taiwanese restaurant (Fung Lye) for nice Chinese food =)
It's a restaurant where my mom's boss loves to go and he always tip the waiters and management well hence I felt that we were treated with extra care last night =P

The table setting were beautiful and the food were delicious. After the meal, they gave us lemon juice and special mixed fruits, all on the restaurant LOL

On our way back, we were all laughing and joking and suddenly mom said

'Jene, I think I'll miss you when you leave. Without you around, it's quiet. Usually pa and bro will talk or pa and ma will talk or min will tell stories about her school...seldom we can laugh like this together...'

Oh gosh......

I believe I'll be very very homesick especially since I'm really enjoying this break.

When I first arrived at UK, mom was with me and when she left I was busy with the bridging course and seniors kept us busy with weekly or almost daily meet ups and meals together.

Last Dec when I went back to UK alone, I was really really depressed. Never felt so sad and homesick ever (well duh, this is my 1st time away from home anyway) and I believe I was crying feeling homesick for almost a week. My housemate couldn't do much because she went to work and came home late. I partially blame my mom as well because she cried when I was sent off at the airport and her crying face that made me cried as well...gosh, tearing up now as well...die.....

This time, I'm going back with my friend but I doubt she'll able to do much because I'm pretty sure she'll feel the same as me. Later both of us crying in the plane LOL!! Well, on the brighter note, I am having new housemates and one of them is an old friend whom I hope he'll be able to do something to distract me. Boy, I can imagine him doing all kind of things to piss me off. He already burnt my pot which I am not angry, just annoyed that nothing more is done to get rid of the burnt stuff at the base of the pot. Anything worse than that? Yup, you betcha!

I have to say I am closer to my mom compared to my dad. Wherever I go for holiday alone, my mom will be there tagging along such as when I went to Penang many many times and recently to Sarawak hence she knows most of my outstation friends. Luckily she's very friendly and sporting hence she enjoys mixing with youngsters and vice versa =P

I skype with her almost every day, even when I'm home here at KL when she's at work hence she said she doesn't really feel like I'm away but I guess seeing me in person gives a different feeling? LOL

Anyway, I hope someone from anywhere can lessen my homesickness....or maybe PPB will do it =P

Friends

I can't wait for me to return to UK to blog about this topic.

Since the day I stepped down from the plane and arrived home at KL, my friends particularly a few have been the best pals ever.

They got my house phone number and from the 2nd day onwards (one of them actually wanted to bring me out at night on my 1st night home!) they have been calling me asking me if I want to go here and there to eat this and that.

Hence every time my house phone rings, I know it's time to go out yum cha aka hang out with friends.

Because of them, I got to eat more stuff, travel to more places and meeting more old friends compared to the period when I'm still in KL after high school!!!

Worse, besides fetching me from home and bringing me around, they pay for everything! On the 2nd week, one of them spontaneously asked if I wanted to go Ipoh for a day trip and 6 hours later, we hit the road. The next day, we went to Melaka!! For these 2 trips I didn't pay much and if I didn't insist, it'll be FOC for me again!!! Gosh, being charged RM100 for this 2 days trip including petrol and food, I wonder if he gave me a huge discount.

There were a few occasions when one of them also appeared on my doorstep with food when I told them that the weather was too hot for me and I didn't feel like going out.

Just moments ago, one of them appeared on my doorstep with a huge bag of mangosteens!!! And he refused to receive any payment for it!!!

For my Sarawak trip, I had 2 princes band friends who were so so nice to me too!! They are both busy with work yet could take out some of their precious time to bring me and my mom around! One of them even drove us all the way to the beach which was more than 30min drive away and back to town again while the other one who was extremely tired drove us to the airport as well!

I knew I have friends at Sarawak that I wanted to meet but I expected to just have a meal with them and I'll be on my own with my mom but boy did they spend their time with us. One of them even paid for all the food during food festival and it ain't cheap. I really really am moved by what they did =)

Most of them said I should not be paying because they are working but who am I to receive all these kindness from them?? Gosh, what did I do to deserve these friends?? They are just too nice to me!!! I am so not worth it!!!

Of course not forgetting my other friends who contacted me to ask me out as well. The thought that I am not forgotten made me realise just how lucky I am to have these people around me, allowing me to call them real friends and appreciating them even more.

Because of these friends, I am really enjoying my this last holiday here at home. At first, I predicted my 6 weeks stay would be caged/ stuck in my room spending time at home scolding and stressing teaching my sis and being the maid of the house but boy was I wrong. Totally rocking this break!!!

Thank you so so much!!!!

I don't know how am I going to repay you guys for making me enjoy this holiday but I sincerely, truly from the bottom of my heart THANK YOU!!!! I am so so grateful to have you guys in my life!! Appreciate everything you guys have done for me!!!

Curiously most of the friends that I have been meeting are of the opposite gender and I think my parents are getting a little suspicious even though they didn't say anything. My mom played along during the trip at Sarawak and also when I went to Penang last few holidays ago to meet my band friends there. My mom is the coolest and most sporting mom ever! She even joked about eligibility and passing her screening test before can get me. LOL!
(Hey mom and dad, we're all just good friends!!)


Sadly, there is this one person that I really really want to meet but yet to have the chance- my best friend =(