Psychiatry

Well I just finished my 1st week of Psychiatry and boy am I lost.

Since I came to Inverness, things haven't been smooth for me. I could not focus on my studies, memory as bad as a goldfish, always feel so lost in the wards, don't feel settled in at all and I feel lonely most of the time.

Yes I do admit that I like to be alone (thanks to IMU for the training =.="') but Inverness is just not letting me enjoy my solitary.

Well if you have been checking FB, you might have glimpsed my status on Wednesday. I sat in with my consultant for his outpatient clinic and for the last patient, he wanted to speak to the consultant privately so the consultant asked me to wait at the library and he'll get me later. So I waited patiently from 3ish till 5ish and he didn't appear. I remembered that it's a 9-5 job so I went to his room and knocked on the door.

No sound. Tried to open the door, it was locked.

T.T

He left me....

Phone no battery...

Group mates left by 12pm...

Jacket was not thick enough for the cold cold freezing weather...

I got to wait for the bus...

I lost my pen and my favourite mechanical pencil...

T.T

Totally not my day....felt so abandoned...felt so lonely...felt like I am at the wrong place studying the wrong course...

Haih......

Hope things will be better soon...

And life MUST go on no matter what so can't give up!!!!

My Neighbour Totoro

I just finished watching this movie, My Neighbour Totoro (I'll continue studying soon =P) and it's so touching.

There's quite a few scenes in this movie which was made in 1988 that reminds me of Spirited Away =)

Well duh since it's made and produced by Studio Ghibli, written and directed by the famous Hayao Miyaki. Can't stop myself from announcing, I just love his movies!!

This reminds me of another touching sad movie- Grave of the Fireflies.

T.T

Both this movies are based around the Japan war and you just got to watch and experience it yourself.

I love Japanese movies because it always hit the right spot and just moves me to tears. And of course the music, definitely fit the scenarios all the time. I wonder how the Japanese do it...

Aaaahhhh, I miss playing the Japanese songs back at band times. Totally love playing them... Dang, now I miss my band life....

For this movie, I envy how the sisters are so close. I know my relationship with my siblings is far from this 'normal' but since I left home, I do think that I am closer to them in a way. I guess the phrase 'distance makes the heart grow fonder' can be applied here but it's so weird because usually it's used in a boy-girlfriend scenario.

Eeuuuwwww.....

Anyway, the bottomline- I just love Japanese movies =)

My Birthday Surprise =)

My birthday was another normal day because hid my date of birth at FB and made sure I didn't announce it at Skype or other places but my fellow friends here still discovered that it was my birthday at around 3ish 4pm =P

One of them who is in my group and hence was with me in the theater, watching the fundoplication, could not stop sms-ing around that 3ish 4pm and when I noticed it, my 6th sense just went crazy and 'they've discovered it??!!' thought was floating in and out of my mind. BUT I didn't want to expect anything so that I won't get disappointed in case it turns out to be a false alarm so I just kept my thoughts to myself.

Anyway, this friend of my insisted to drive me home but I stubbornly refused and even thought of making a detour and hang out at another place (wards maybe LOL) because I just didn't want to go home in case they have a birthday surprise for me or something somewhere. I don't know why, I was just being difficult. Bitch I know.

So I walked extra slow home (usually takes me less than 10 min to reach home but I think I took about 15-20min that evening) and I saw my friend's car parked outside my house. GREAT....

So I went home and after unlocking my main door, the 1st thing I checked was shoes LOL... Then my house mate who was at the living room was standing and looking at me innocently. BUT I noticed my stuff on the table was stacked up ON MY LAPTOP??!!!!!!! Very very suspicious.

Anyway, I just stood in front of my door and refused to go near the living room so my house mate asked me why am I still at the door and asked me to go over there but as you know, I just stood there and smiled and then I saw some shadow moving at one side and Jodie jumped out and said 'hap hahaha bir..hahahahaha' then the whole group appeared.

HAHAHAHA.....

Jodie who was also in my group who didn't go to the hospital because she was lazy? was the one who discovered that it might be my b'day because I think she saw people wishing me at FB and she also realised that during the game at the moon cake festival, when we need to line up according to birth month, I queued as Sept. So she called Thamarai, my friend at Edinburgh to confirm. She also asked Cheryl to check too so Cheryl actually went through all my wall messages till my 21st b'day but she was still not very convinced so she called my house mate to confirm.

My house mate was not supposed to know too!!! My mom and dad called me at 12am KL time to wish me through Skype and so happen, my house mate was beside me hence she found out too. So Cheryl and Jodie called everyone to my house and they even managed to cook some food! Jodie did her pasta (I just love all her pasta!!!), Cheryl cooked minced pork with potato, rice and vege and Janice cooked curry chicken. My house mate went and bought 2 cakes LOL....

Happy =)

My chocolate and toffee flavoured birthday cakes

Me and my 2 birthday cakes =)

See how my stuff are stacked on my laptop beside the choc cake?

The lovely girls who took the time to come and celebrate with me even though it's a Tuesday =)

What do we have here?

The food =)

So coincidental that everyone was wearing dark colour =)

After food, everyone was talking and laughing =)

My house maid, I mean mate and the girl who insisted in driving me home but parked the car at the place where she thought I won't see but actually it's the place I cross to get home LOL

Thank you so much!!!!

I guess after giving every birthday girl/boy a birthday surprise since we came here, the surprise element is gone LOL...

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I don't know why but for this Paediatric Block, I really can't fathom why am I being so lazy and demotivated. I sit in front of my laptop and read up whatever that I saw at the ward but the next day when the consultant or registrars ask questions on the topics that I actually spent time reading, my mind just go blank and I keep hearing myself asking me in my head that 'I just read it yesterday but why is it that I can't remember anything??!!!'

This is just so sad.....

T.T

New friend

Today, like the past few days, Paeds have been quite quiet so JY and I ended up having lots of laugh with this 5th year medical student. He is from Aberdeen and since morning, we were teasing each other and cracking jokes and I totally enjoyed his company. The registrar also took some time and gave us a good teaching. Today was just the day of the week. I actually laughed till I teared. It's been so long since I did that. Fun =)

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Come to think of it, before I came here I was stalking senior's blogs to find out about this place and get as much info about it as possible. It just dawned onto me that I haven't been helpful to those who are doing the same, I totally did not write anything about the hospital, the teaching or anything of those sort. Blimey, sorry peeps....=P

emails + Korean drama

I have been exchanging emails with a couple of friends but there is this one friend who I will reply everyday.

I would say we are close but come to think of it, we were not very very close when I was around him.

Anyway, the things we tell each other are what we will talk about when we are together.

But recently, I feel that we are getting closer to the point that I feel so weird yet happy when I read the stuff that are written in the email.

I was just sharing how happy I was to have Nandos after months of not eating meat and the reply I got was

YOU NO EAT MORE MEAT.....I DONT WANT YOU

Isn't it funny?? Hahaha...I never expected to end up having such close friend when I'm so far away =)

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Did stupid stuff this week...

Watched Scent of a Woman

till 3am in the morning on a WEDNESDAY and had exam which I haven't study for on FRIDAY. This is so not me right??

Then on Saturday, watched Playful Kiss

for 20 hours straight....till 5am...

Now I got to get back my study mood to prepare for the next block- Paediatric which IMU did not prepare us at all...die...

I don't even have the habit to watch Korean dramas, thanks to my housemate who on her laptop so loudly when I was sitting beside her, making me watch with her and end up starting from the beginning myself...ISH!!