I think I'm back

For this whole week, I feel tired and lethargic.

Just reading a few lines of words, I will feel sleepy and eventually fall asleep. I blame the weather =P

Anyway, I thought I have turned into a very cold person but today I started talking and smiling to people and I feel happy. Deep down I am guilty for not be able to study but I just can't!! So tired...

Anyway, I finally answered phones and just spent about 1 hour listening to my friend's whining. I guess, I am not that cold and heartless anymore =)

Today's PBL lasted for 3 hours!!!! ARGH!!!! Usually, maximum time allocated was 1.5 hours but we went doubled the time and it was just for 1 topic!!! Gah!! Tiring man!!

short update

my head finally stop pounding =)

talked to the president and tried to clear things out...

it's gonna be a long day later...

when I say enough, I mean it!!!!

Where am I---home
What time is it---5.15pm
Why are you at home---I'm having this bad headache that I feel like vomiting and every step I take makes my head pound harder, and since I can't study anyway I decided to go home
How did you have the headache---Because I talked and laughed and heard something more than usual (I am quite quiet in uni, seldom talk honestly..surprised that the chatterbox is now quiet?)
When did the headache started---After CSC (Community Service Club) meeting, had that aura but got worse when I heard the news

What news?? Well, after the sms from my president regarding the blog I posted about CSC Vs Leo, I thought things would settle down but I made a great discovery. Apparently, someone thought I am a spy for Leo Club. How did I got this info?

--THE conversation--

G- So how are you and the president??
me- Why ask so? What happened between us?
G- Oh because he that day called and ask me about you.
G's friend (who was sitting beside)- So are you the spy??
me- What spy??
G's friend- Ops...nothing.... (turned back)

WHAT??!!!!! What an accusation!!!

The president did not read my blog but heard from someone that I blogged about Leo AND he heard that I copied his email into the post. I don't know of he thinks I copied his whole email into the post or I am pro CSC or pro Leo .

Anyway, 2 minutes after our sms the other day, he sent a mass sms to everyone saying we were not to mention about Leo anymore. I understand what he's trying to do, which is to avoid any misunderstanding between Leo and CSC and I am not angry with him but with the person creating the 'story'. Seriously, all this stuff should be a "secondary school" story. Grr...

I am so sick with what is happening. I am doing it my way-- stop ignoring and going to talk to the President and demand why am I suddenly being categorised under "Leo's spy".

Seriously...TOO MUCH!!!

PS: Heard that Leo club was not allowed to be formed

PPS: My mother was beside me chatting with her friend and read my blog and she wants me to write
"why all those kepoh chee so much time in their hands ah? Ask them to go F themselves la"

She actually asked me to spell the F word but I can't do it so she said, just put F lor...and went away LOL....yup, that's my mother =)

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH...head like gonna explode anytime =(

feeling much better

I am deprived of sleep...

I am tired...

I am stressed...

BUT

after today's PBL, I never felt better.

Since I went to Hospital Selayang to submit the elective letter, I could not stay back at uni to study.

Hence, mom and I went to Coffee Bean to study.

Met a Kepong school band friend there and end up talking about band stuff for almost an hour.

I am feeling so much better.

Memories of band really heals a lot besides having less stuff to worry
(PBL and Elective for the moment can be considered as settled)

Hope this happiness will last for some time

=]

Cheers ^^

can't cope no more

Haih..I don't know how long can I last....

I guess can't follow my study schedule just tick me off and I have been having bad mood since days ago.

I've come to realise that I ain't the same Jene anymore. I am not that caring aka kepoh Jene anymore. I don't give a damn how things are going in my friend's life or care to keep in contact or even want to lend them my ear and hear them out. I am so selfish =(

But come to think again, maybe because I've learned to prioritise. I know that studies are way more important than listening to friends telling you about how sad or happy or hurt are they.

BUT not wanting to know or care is the part that scares me. I've turned into a robot where I have no feelings anymore. I've becoming the type of people that I hate, the type that don't care about the surrounding but oneself. People that are self centered ='(

Gosh, what have I become? What happened to me ever since I joined this course? What happened to the "no friends no life" me? Why am I so?? Maybe because I can't find the gang of friends that I have back in college or school, hence shaped me into what I am now. I have learned to adapt, adapt to the wrong type....

I hate this phase that I am going through, I hate my this self.....
haih...someone, please make this Jene go away ='(

Studies, PBL, electives, AIR Topic, walkathon, ballet, family, friends.......

=''(

PS: Something just happened and I am not happy, very very not happy, more of disappointed, hurt and depressed. Thanks a lot..just thanks a lot...history is repeating itself...why my blog always have the wrong type of extra-people reading huh??

TO YOU WHO READS AND TELL TALE, BLARDY READ AND SHUT UP OR DON'T COME AND READ AT ALL!!! Gah....if I die..I am so gonna hunt you down and haunt you...whoever you are...GRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..

READ (under about Jene)

I'm sorry I am not perfect and I am sorry of I offend anyone with my post but THIS IS MY BLOG WHERE I AM FREE TO EXPRESS WHATEVER THOUGHT OR FEELING I HAVE...so be nice to me and I'll be nice to you ^^

PPS: Told you I've became a robot, with no feelings and care if this post really is offensive and honestly this is the first time I am blogging angrily and kinda directing to some people...LOL

Mental......

Mother and sister just came home last night after their trip to Indonesia for 4 days. This is my sister's 3rd overseas trip, lucky her. When they came home, my mother was showing me what she bought (while I was watching tv) then few minutes after displaying the new things, she started scolding for not sweeping and mopping the floor (she got the info from bro which NEVER did any house chores before). How can I clean the house when I go uni in the morning and come home late night?? Blaaardy hell...Grrr..

Because of my stupid spoilt phone, I missed the Monday's morning CSC meeting hence end up being in charge of sponsorship for the coming walkathon. This walkathon is going to be nation wide and mind you, it's already mid April and nothing is done except the proposal, and sponsorship is one of the utmost important part in organising a walkathon. Based on my previous result, I don't think I'll survive med school to even be in the walkathon (gonna be held in Dec) and of all, I get the toughest, stress-est, mind disturbing job =(
(knowing me to be so particular and so "Virgo" like, I'll be in a stress-mode till this walkathon is over.)

PBL...haih...I felt that my group members were rude to the faci on Tuesday because when he was waiting for answer, none of us actually answered and I doubt any of them paid attention. Worst, they just dismissed the question. The leader for this week was rushing for her swimming club and hence totally 'encouraged' the attitude of my other group mates. Honestly, yes he is evil to us but I know he is doing all these to help us learn more. Before leaving, he kinda slammed the door but I don't know if it's on purpose or what and apparently I am the only one feeling this way. Haih, am I being too sensitive??

Electives...I don't want to send the letter by post anymore since the previous letter to HKL was misplaced and HKL claimed that they did not receive any letter from me. So I was planning to pass the letter to the hospital myself BUT I also planned to study on Friday!! Wait, did I tell you that we got to hand in the acceptance letter from the hospital by 30th April? Ya, NEXT FRIDAY!!!!!! Gah!!! And PBL is tomorrow morning 9am and I bet it'll be over by 12.30pm because the faci got to go for prayers. (PBL is suposed to be 1.30 hours =.=).

For those who don't really know my character, I am someone who don't like to have things left undone, prefer systematic way of solving things and totally won't be happy when things don't go according to plan and now, THINGS AIN'T GOING ACCORDING TO PLAN!!!!!!!!

Now you know why I stress so easily??

PS: It's not that I am not flexible enough or can't go with the flow, I just prefer things to go according to plan.

CSC Vs Leo club

CSC= Community Service Club
Leo club = Leo club

In my opinion, both clubs have a similar but not identical goal...to serve the community.

Leo Club's programme objective (according to this) is
"To provide the youth of the world an opportunity for development and contribution, individually and collectively, as responsible members of the local, national, and international community."

For the CSC, it's because IMU did not have a club that provides a platform for charity purpose or to serve the community hence a few seniors joined forces and started this club.

Why am I blogging about this? Because I hate (yes, HATE) what is going on. I don't freaking care if this 2 clubs have the same goal or whatever but when it starts to involve 'scandals' or 'politics' then I "beh song" already.

I wonder if we can join 2 clubs that have similar goals at the same time?? I seriously wonder!!!!!!!!!! If can't then WHY NOT??!!!

I know maybe because if the club don't have enough members then they face getting dissolved BUT if the club's activity is interesting enough, definitely the club can go on and I know, CSC is at the losing side because which well-established school don't have a Leo Club??

If this uni has an "ex-band member club", I am so going to be the first to sign up so if you were a Leo member, will you resist joining a club which is in your comfort zone? Some CSC leaders voiced out some "opinions" which I think is so wrong.
"...but I guess this makes me reflect on how much each of us really own the club,...."

Hah!! That's it, I really lost interest in joining and being committed and when I remembered how the seniors told some of my friends (which I know was really committed) "You are not committed to the club", it really pisses me off!!

Getting stress from studies, assignments, PBLs, electives, ballet, friends and family, I don't think I want to be in a club that gives me extra unnecessary stress.





Why is uni life so not fun??!!! Or is it just me??
=(

Stress...

PBL

AIR Topic


Electives


Studies

PBL is VERY VERY stressful thanks to the dear faci who was a M97 batch, graduated in 2003 and he expectes a lot from us. Hello, this is our 1st week and he feels we should know everything. When he asked us about the passing marks, he was shocked. Then when he asked if anyone in our group resit before and when we replied none of us, he was O.O!! HUH??!! Really?? Wow...(silent) Ya, that was his reaction!! he is such a ......whatever .... PBL usually last 1.30 hours and with him, 2.30 hours also not enough and mind you within that 2.30 hours, we did not cover all our learning issues. He actually records the PBL session and yesterday when he went out to answer his phone, we complained but we forgot that he was recording!!! Gosh, hope everything will be fine by next week...*fingers cross*

AIR Topic is an essay that we need to write. The word limit was 300 and if you think "cheh, 300 only mah.." think again because we are writing about diseases and 300 words is so limited!!! Anyway, I've spend my whole 4 days thinking and wondering and trying to complete it but somehow I could not because I don't kow how to start and how to end. Gosh, I did not Study at all!!! I am so dead!! =(

Electives..haih...stupid HKL apparently did not receive any letter from me and when I called to ask for a place, she said it's full since February. Die la. So now, the whole process starts again =(

Just now, went and watched movie with Jayne and it was FOC because Jayne has the VVIP card =) Anyway, we watched "Passengers" acted by Anna Hathaway and it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo slow...
The storyline is nice but it was so..ok, it's supposed to be a thriller, then midway became romance then back to thriller and the movie ended with a twist. Gosh, thank god it was FOC..




















OK, now I am actually pissed because the lecture I was supposed to attend is sort of cancelled. Gah!!! Wasted my $$, time and effort coming here =(

me euphoric!!!!

I am soooo happy that I am practically beaming.

I am ecstatic!!

I am overjoyed!!!

I am delighted!!!!

WHY??!!!

Because the puppy that I saw and played with finally got accepted into the home. I don't know if he'll be happy there but at least I know he has food and I can see him whenever I walk home from ballet or train station.

I am so happy that I have no idea why am I still so happy even 30 minutes passed.

Besides, I am good in history taking. (Seldom see me praising me self lerr...)

Yesterday's mock OSCE, I fumbled in both physical examination station (screwed in mouth examination but did okay in chest examination unfortunately did not have time to do auscultation) but scored in both history taking session. My chest expansion method was good though (written in the feedback paper). =)

For the history taking under Behavioural Science, when the buzzer went off the SP said I was very good...hehehehe...and I scored 20/21!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!! For the real history taking, the SP said I am good coz I was observant since I got all the associated symptoms =)
I don't think the SPs are supposed to give us any feedback =P

I...me....happy..hehe...laugh...and rejoice with me...hehe

PS: Don't get me wrong, I am not feeling proud aka arrogant it's just that this is the 1st time since I stepped into IMU that I am feeling confident =)
so be happy with me.

David A's showcase

--Sister went crazy and keep chanting that she wants to go see David Archuleta--

--Brother went and met up some 8tv friends and managed to get her the tickets--

--Sister was so happy--

--On Saturday, sister did not go--

--Tickets got wasted--






WHY??!!

Because she has school and ballet at night

=.="'

I give you permission to kill her and don't ask me why I didn't go (because you know I am not a fan) =P



PS: I can't see the puppy anywhere already. Hopefully that family send him to a proper place...oh please!!! Scared that they'll send him to his death ='(

save a puppy plz!!!!

There I was walking to ballet class at 7am, he was sitting in front of this Punjabi house, outside of the gate to be more precise and looked at me sadly.

There I was walking home from ballet class at 8pm and there he was still lying outside of the same house but this time wet because it just rained.

On my way home, I saw a stray dog lying near the edge of the road and looking so worn out. I was so worried that he might get knocked by a car but I did not approach him because he was at the opposite road. BTW, usually on Thursday my friend will drive me back but don't know why I chose to walk today.

Anyway, so when I passed by the Punjabi house the puppy was still there and I don't know why I decided to kneel down and stretched my hands out, inviting him to approach me. He did and he was limping!! He came to me and the first thing he attacked was my hands, then he tried to attack my face!!!! Actually, what I meant by attack is licking. He could not stop licking. He hurt his front paw so he actually stood up on his hind legs and tried to reach my face.

I could not stand it so I patted and played with him for sometime. He was black, very furry, about few months old and still have yet to learn any command yet because when I said sit, he looked at me and yearn for more patting sessions. LOL After playing with him for sometime, I know I got to get home so I left him sadly.

When I reached home, I related the incident to my mom and mom said bring him home if I want BUT Spritz won't like it and he is very possessive so I think Spritz might kill that pity guy so I decided not to take the risk. BUT I took some rice and went down to feed him because when I patted him, I could feel that he is VERY VERY skinny. So off I went with a mission =P

Saw him, and he ran (limped) towards me. It was a sad scene because he came and started licking then charged to the rice which I placed it beside the empty garden. He was practically gorging everything down and it made me felt so sad. Suddenly a car appeared and wanted to park at where he was eating so I moved the packet of rice and he moved along too. An Indian guy came out, late teens or early 20s, I assume is the son of that Punjabi house asked if I want the dog and our conversation went...

-You want the dog?
- Err, I can't coz I have a dog at home already...if I don't have I surely will take him home. How did he got attach to the house?
- He was walking around I think and I think got knocked by a car. He was just opposite my house and he cried so my mother gave him some water and since then he's here. It has been 3 days. You want you take la.
- Why won't the house owner take him in? (I didn't dare to assume he was staying in that house)
- Donno la.
-pause while I keep patting him-
- Where do you stay? Never see you before.
- Oh, I stay up there (pointing down the road). Erm , you go to Maluri school?
- Oh no, mine is at Bangsar. You?
- Oh, was from KB but now at uni already.
- Which uni? Where?
- Bukit Jalil.
- You a runer??
- Err, no. Why Bukit Jalil a lot of runner? (Stupid me, Bukit Jalil school id for athletes la!!! Stupid!!)
- Oh, nothing. Erm, how old are you??
- me...21....why?
- 21??!! You don't look like 21...
(blah blah blah...)
- Erm, you give me your number...and you take the dog la.
- Huh?? I can't la, ok, got to go...
- Eh....(paused)...catch you... (And he walked back home)
- OK, Bye.

My sister who accompanied me told me he's like trying to "court" me because he was moving too fast. OMG, my gosh!!! Hello, this is what making friends are like...my sister has lots to learn..tsk tsk tsk (she is the type- you smile at me only I'll smile at you). My sister is so hopeless in making new friends. Sad for her.

This is the breed of the dog. Can someone tell me what breed is this? Anyone interested in getting that poor fellow? He's only a few months old, one of the front paw injured and is VERY VERY friendly and cute. Honestly, that Punjab family doesn't seem to like the dog so HELP HIM PLZ!!!!

result

Ya I know, I bull a lot. Always, everytime after exam sure say fail and all.

OK, my bad. So? Kill me??

Anyway, passed my exam with an average result. Could have done better but oh well, hopefully will happen next time.

On 14 and 15, there will a blood donation drive again. I got to sleep at least 5 hours and get my weight above 45kg (I think I am way over already LOL). Nothing much to say, ok maybe there's a lot but don't want to whine here.

So toodles.

My sex education at uni's library

Yup, I had my 1st sex education in the library and it's not one of the uni's programme.

The person who gave me the "exposure" was "miss Ya Ba". We were talking about who's having sex in our batch and so happened WD had his laptop in the glass room with us so she went to the website her BF sent her--a website showing about billions of sex position with animation.

WD and I was....ok....but it was purely for education purpose. Next, she became braver so she went to a porn site (she was quite weary that someone might catch us LOL) but that was it. We did not watch any videos so my exposure to porn was so close yet never happened. The web page has lots of videos to click (something like youtube) and the pictures were a little "exposing".

After explaining to me (WD just listen and smiled) the essential stuff, we went and searched about pap smear and this time, we gave WD the exposure. Gosh, I did not know that pap smear would be painful because the epithelium of the cervix will be "swab" aka scrap off for tests. According to her, if we are still virgin it'll be very VERY painful so I guess I wont have the chance to go for pap smear test?? LOL

What made her rejected her bf's request to have sex was a porn video where a gal was forced to"sit on the guy" for penetration and Ya Ba was very sure that the gal was still a virgin because the moment the guy forced the penetration, lots of blood flow out and the guy's was covered with blood. When Ya ba told us this story, I can see her face changed like she saw something real disgusting. Hmm....

I still don't know how does a porn video is like. Is it a movie? With storyline?? Or just pure acting??? Or what? Gosh, I don't know why even though I have full access to this computer when the hogger is not around, I never thought of searching for porn and try to watch. LOL...

OK, enough about porn....back to Esther's question just now at uni....

"Will you prefer a partner/couple/your bf/your gf from the same uni, same course??"

WD-No because cannot concentrate in studies, will meet everyday (so sien wor..LOL) and got to teach her when she don't know how to do her assignments or reports.

Hahaha, guys....in my opinion....if you really fall for a guy/gal, you don't really have a choice right?? What you want is to be with that person and live happily ever after right??

BUT my real thought is.....whatever because I don't plan to have one =P

cute side of Spritz

Ok, maybe the tittle is a little misleading since Spritz is ALWAYS so cute =P

This morning, I tied my hair very loosely and I went out to take the newspaper (I should start training Spritz to get the newspaper instead). So when I went into the house, I noticed my hair is down and my hair band is no where to be seen. I walked out and scanned the floor but still can't see it anywhere.

Spritz emerged from behind the small pond and was checking if I need anything. When he saw me looking for something, he quietly sneaked back to his "territory". After pacing a few more times in and out of the house looking for the hair band, I realised that maybe someone "took" it. So I went and see what's Spritz doing at the back of the small pond.

There he was, in his mouth dangling out, was my black hair band. He quickly turned his back to me and went to the either side. I know that if I force it out from him he'll chomp it down (like Marley & Me) so I coax him and "sayang" him and he actually approached me. When I reached my hands out, he actually ran away and hid!!! Hahahhaa...

Next I called him and coax him again but this time with food, and boy he was stubborn because he refused to let go so when he was near enough, I pulled it out and what I got was my hair band was in one piece + his saliva. LOL

Recently he has toned down a lot. He don't simply bark at strangers and he's more obedient. I am happy but deep down, I fear that this obedience he's showing might mean something else.....

PS: If Muresh wins the presidential post in SRC, I must join the soon-to-form-Leo Club...LOL

GAH!!!! GRR!!!

I hate today!!!
Seriously hate but not gonna blog here =P

Why explorer cannot show my cbox and everything at the right side?? Ish!!

OK, I guess hunger is making me a little irritable and annoyed bout what's happening so..let me tell you the good stuff I did today.

I guided a blind guy from KTM train to the LRT train =)
Stay happy and stress free Jene!!!

Bye Dr Thani

Dr Thani is my pathology lecturer. He's my 2nd favourite lecturer in IMU (Who's 1st?? Another Pathologist also =P). Anyway, Dr.Thani is leaving to xxxx <.< messages =")" bone =")" anymore ="'(" hehe ="P" style="text-align: center;">MEDT108 ROCKS!!!!

PS: Happy birthday Tatsuki =) (Paul forgot to wish him, Tats told me lol)
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Some people are just so grrr....I have to write letters for you guys and can't you guys just inform me if you are not planning to go to that hospital anymore? Stupid la!!!

Want to save the day by providing van as transportation? Our fund is low and one van (which can fit max 12 people) cost RM180!! Take public transport per person RM8, 12 people RM96!! If they really want to volunteer and do charity, RM8 wont kill and hello, the club is subsidising la!!!

"If take public transport, people might not wanna go" BUT it's not like every week we'll take public transport and you need the van by Sat and it's already 10.40pm!! Hopefully the van driver is free on Sat...seriously....kinda piss now....because on Sat I can't go coz dad needs me to handle one of his tour group and the home director don't know how to speak Chinese so can't direct the driver TO uni and TO the home.

Gah...whatever la...