JUST SHUT UP!!!

Before I get to the story, let me inform the world that KARAM IS BACKKKKK!!!!! His blood pressure is back to normal (120) and no more (180). Yeah, but he clearly lost a lot of weight (12 kg to be exact). When he stood up, he hunched a bit and looked fragile. Glad he's back after missing in action for 3 weeks.

Yup, Shut Up!! I arrived for chemistry class then later only he arrived. Like usual, everybody talked nonsense, then he approached me to ask for my worksheets so that he can compare his answers with mine. Before I lend him, I asked~Why? I don't want to lend you~jokingly. He replied:" I FINISH ALREADY LAR. YOH~~~HAHAHAHA" So I passed the worksheet to him and continue with my stuff. Maybe my tone came out all wrong....

Recalled yesterday when Ms.Ng finished the chapter, I also finished my worksheet because I did some before she taught (finished those that I can figure out myself) then I asked a few question which I still don't understand. He heard me and asked in his OH-SO-EVER-LOUD voice~" YOH...YOU FINISHED THE WORKSHEET ALREADY AH!! WHY YOU SO FAST??i CAN'T CATCH UP WITH YOU LAR!!" It just slipped my tongue and I replied~ then don't catch up lar~
What I meant was why you wanna catch up with me and compare our speed? Finish the worksheet in your own pace so that you know and understand what you are doing. When Ms. Ng heard my reply, she just laughed (you never know what's behind her laughters because she told us before that sometimes when she is laughing, deep down inside her heart, she is boiling...ooo)

Ms. Ng started the lesson with Unit 5.5 C and we were learning about margarine. Margarine is made out of unsaturated lipids (contains double bonds and usually from plants)which is converted to saturated lipids by reacting with hydrogen with platinum catalyst at room temperature. Anyway, HE got so hyped up that he started to tell the whole class about something while Ms. Ng was teaching and explaining in front. I was having difficulties catching what Ms.Ng was teaching even though I was sitting just in front of her. Thanks to his OH-SO-EVER-LOUD voice overpowering Ms.Ng's attempt in increasing her voice level, he started to get on my nerves and I just said~shhh but at the same time Ivan who was sitting behind me also said SHHH louder.

Unfortunately, his OH-SO-EVER-LOUD voice just continue to BOOM on till the extend that Ms.Ng stopped explaining and decided to flip her notes. Then only his big head + big mouth shut up!! Only then did Ms.Ng continued, But she added~ "since you guys are not listening, i've skipped a lot of parts and explanation. You notice i'm going faster and faster? So that you need to QUIET DOWN to catch what I'm talking about." Now, here goes again..Ms.Ng getting upset with our class AGAIN!! Few times earlier was because few was playing in class, then because we paid more attention on Further Maths, then because many of us did our worksheet badly, then because SOME people just could not shut up during practicals (you know who's the culprit??) and now...again..haiz...

Hello?? You know your voice is loud, so silent la!! Shut your mouth and talk at proper times. They said BMW= big mouth woman. I dubbed you BMM=big mouth man!! Gosh you just shut up and no one will call you a deaf or dumb and who cares about your so interesting story. Will your this excellent story help us (or you) in getting that A in exam?? Because of you our whole class didn't get to listen what Ms.Ng was teaching. After Mechanics, I talked to Golok and Victor, even they were kinda annoyed. Ish!!

After Ms.Ng finished the chapter, we got back our practical book which the practical on Monday was conducted as mock exam. He asked me how much did I get and after what happened in my primary school, I developed phobia in revealing my results, so I said don't know and at that instants his facial expression changed and I kinda guessed he wanna compare our marks and maybe well, show off a bit. So he asked whether I got above 40 or below 40 instead. When I said above, he paused then clapped his hands and said good (I know he got 41...lol). FAKER!!!! Hmm, on 2nd thought, is it me or am I too sensitive?? hmm....

I wonder if my short temper has returned and thus I get angry so easily? Nope, it's not pms. Do you know that because of his request I went online and wasted time typing my work sheet's answers + explaining to him? I'm ok with going online and helping him but what I'm not ok with is explaining the o.b.v.i.o.u.s to him. This is what annoys me. You want to compare answers, ok I don't mind. I don't even mind you using my time teaching and typing all the answers for the 20 pages worksheets. But I DO MIND if you ask me to repeat what can be found in the notes and then when I give you the answers you go~~" OOOOO, aiyoh I so stupid, all can be found in notes right? Eh, can give me the page no?" Shit you lar!! Gosh, I hate people like this, LAZY!!

Was reading Jac's post when I totally agree when she said that he's a suck up!! I also notice that whatever jokes the lecturer crack whether its funny or lame or totally not funny, he'll go~~" WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAhee eh" Honest, you can always expect his laughter when the lecturer says something that was meant to be a joke. And sometimes you can kinda know that he faked that laughter.
Anyway, while reading Jac's post I suddenly remembered what was the 1st official conversation and how we 1st cliqued. Lol...Jac, lets just remember and keep it in our heart >.<

and ya, dear Han Liang, happy birthday!! love you!! miss you!! muakz <3

Why wanna stay single

MANY PARENTS ARE PROGRESSING IN THEIR CAREER IN THE EXPENSE OF THEIR CHILDREN

It isn't a secret anymore, my plan of not wanting to get married??
I would like to share my views and why I've come to this decision. Firstly, I would like to post some questions
1. Why must we female get tied down by commitments?
2. Why must we sacrifice all the things that we build just because of those commitments??
3. Why was us females ranked after the males?
4. Why must we females serve the males or should I rephrase~ why must a wife serve the husband and not the other way round?
5. Why must we females always be the victim of letting go of careers or other opportunities because of the commitments such as family, husband, in-laws...
6. Why must we females suffer the most when we did not do anything wrong? (rape cases)
7. Why is female always at the disadvantage in many situation??
8. Why when we females get married, it also means we get married to the family?
9. Why must we always tolerate the males?
10. Why we can't survive without guys meh?
11. Why some females really look forward to have a family and settle down?
12. Why do you want to add burden to your life?
13. Don't you feel guys are troublesome?
14. Don't you feel without getting married you can actually live life to the fullest?
14. Aren't you bored with the same person after living with them for 30 years?
15. Aren't you afraid of divorce?
16. Don't you think that you are at the losing end after getting married?

Okay, let me limit my question. Now, I'm sure you'll ask me back a few questions too. Let me guess.
1. Won't you feel lonely?
2. Won't you feel envy when you see a couple?
3. Err...I can't think of any now, so list them down and I'll answer back.

Firstly, I don't think I'll feel lonely because I have you guys aka friends. Imagine I visit you guys each week, of course different people each week lar. In the end, I'm occupied right? Let's say I'm old, then I'll just retire at a Retirement House aka old folks home. Lol
Feel envy when I see couples? So far never. Honest, I swear!! Maybe because I've heard too many couple problems that i can actually see their problems in one glance.

...live happily ever after....
I never believe in it even when I was small. I always feel there's a catch behind it. And maybe that's how my character was shaped.

I never want to get unnecessary commitments that stops me from progressing in life and live life to the fullest. In short, I do not want to add burden to my life. Say I'm selfish, say I am a bad apple to the society, say I'm a coward, I don't really bother because it's my life and I know what I want for my future--A world without getting tied down to a man.
If I really manage to be a Doctor, I'll dedicate my whole life in healing, helping people. I rather tie myself down to human beingS that need me than to a guy who wants me to serve him. Say what? What if the guy is different and do not need me to serve? I will never believe in it because I feel that guys will forever possess that certain ego and that mentality of "female are born to serve male".

About my bold, large headlines....
Because some parents are just neglect their children's mental and emotion growth. They just provide the material side but not the essential LOVE. So if you plan to have kids, you need to prioritize what is more important- career or the future of your child? If you choose career, then WHY MARRIED AND HAVE KIDS?? If you choose child, then WHY BOTHER TO BUILD YOUR CAREER IF YOU NEED TO LET IT GO IN THE END??

Now you see my side of story?? lol

MCR!!!

MCR AKA mY cHEMICAL rOMANCE is coming to KL!!! On 9th of Dec'07!!!
Gosh!!! If you do not know who they are...go bang your head at the wall...blek!!!
Or, go Google ok??!!

Some of the many songs I love~~~
~Welcome to the dark parade
~I'm not OK
~Teenagers
~I don't love you
~Famous last words
~Helena
~Ghost of you


COME MCR!!!
as if I can go to their concert...lol

stupid computer!!!

I really really need a new computer or a new monitor!!! Why?? I'll tell you lucky people out there why!!!

1. My screen is now half the full screen...
2. My screen is now in blue colour!!!
3. I can't see what I'm typing here!!
4. The connection is sooooooooooooooooooo slow
5. I need to refresh sooooo many times!!
6. I can't upload the pictures!!!!
7. I can't have a decent chatting session with my msn friends without getting "hang" once

aaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
So do not mind me if I have spelling error...
I actually planned to show off some of my exclusive collections but boo hoo to the camera+ computer....

Anyway, let's change topic then....hmm....
Okay, let's see....

CAN A GIRL AND A GUY REMAIN AS FRIENDS AFTER YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP??
Well, usually people believe that when a guy and a girl becomes good friends, feelings will develop and cupid will visit them. But do you believe 2 different gender can remain as friends??

Most of the guys I know are L.O.N.E.L.Y.....
They tend to complain, why can't I get a girlfriend?? Why that guy who is not so good looking has a girlfriend or girlfriends?? Why isn't that girl responding to me?? Am I not attractive??

Yup, there you go, some guys are just as vein as girls....
Give you an example, WH...a primary+ secondary school friend. One of his goal in life is to be taller than me. Other than that, he wanna be as handsome as....I forgot who. He'll always walk around and ask Cheryl to lend him her mirror and he'll look at his hair....touch it and make it look better(even though its the same all the while)...Ya, about the height thing, he managed to achieve it...ISH!!!!

OK. I think I'm a little out of topic...so can they be friends only?
In my opinion, YES!!! I am a living example (cheh, so perasan). See, I can have so many friends and I never feel something extra towards them. Lets say TS, he was my standard 1 friend+ classmate and we were in the same class for standard 1, 4, 5, 6, and form 2. 3....but we kept in touch and hang out in school even though we were not in the same class. Even now, he's at TAR studying accounting, he still calls me and we'll chat about anything....

So, I really do not understand some people who never believe that a girl and a guy can remain as best friends and not more than that....they'll give them that "look" and "stares" and will definitely jump to conclusion that they will evolve to a couple and break up or get married....


*a lil update bout my colleague~~ yup, she's definitely getting married and she's having a luncheon instead of dinner.....err...congrats?? Even though I don't really agree with her decision of getting tied up so early....she's barely 20!!!!

SOME guys are just PERVERTS!!!

Last Saturday, I went to work earlier and found out that my ballet teacher had an extra class from 7am. So I went in and practiced my ballet steps as I'm having class later at 1pm. At about 8.05am, a guy in yellow T-shirt, a yellow collared shirt outside the T with a design of a dragon, a purple cap and the shirt was unbuttoned (flying like superman's cape whenever he walks) passed by the ballet school. I ignored him at first but I noticed that almost every 5 minutes he'll pass by. When he noticed me starring at him, he got worst. He started to look into the school and stared pointing in and laughed. OK, patience....

He repeated that action almost every 5 minutes!!! From 8am till 12pm!! You see, my ballet school is 2 storeys. The ground door is made out of glass, so from outside you can see in. After the rape incident that happened, the art pictures that was used to decorate the glass doors were taken down, leaving half of it, so outsiders can see into the school. Next, the studio where we dance has a big glass window which also allows outsider to see through. Meaning, you stand outside in the morning, you can see into the school and into the studio.

When the art pictures was taken down at first, people (especially from opposite restaurant) said we dance in panties....swt!!! Why?? Because we wear leotards and tights and sometimes a t-shirt over the leotard. So from the restaurant, they'll see a t-shirt and well, whatever colour leotard that we were wearing. Example....with a t-shirt over it...
So that crazy fellow look into the studio and laughed whenever he passed by. So much so when my friend and I were chatting, laughing away, we could just stop and stared back at him with an angry face. Then, when he walked away, we'll continue like nothing happened. It continued for that few hours so when he walked passed after his pervertish action, I opened the door and looked at his action as he walked pass other shops. OMG!! He walked pass all the other shops but he never once stop and repeated his actions in front of any of the shops.

Come to think of it, I remembered him doing the same thing last month, on a weekday. Today when I went to work like usual, my lady boss asked me about him. She told me he has been repeating his actions since Monday but its only the morning....SCARY!!!

Anyway, I would like to stress that I feel only SOME guys are PERVERTS even though JJ told me that what a guy ever wants from gals are....SEX....
So, you think for yourself if SOME guys are PERVERTS.....
If you are a guy and you watch porn regularly as in at least once a week, I rate you PERVERT!! Shoo....better don't read my blogs further, I'm a little sexist (towards guys) and I'm very sure that I'm straight (don't worry mummy Jac...lol)

Btw, just wanna wish my ballet teacher a HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! We celebrated with her twice...once with a surprise...anyway, I gotta go on strict diet!! I've put on weight!!! AAAHHHH....

Suicidal...

You’ll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it’s over.....

Sounds familiar?? Ya, Sean Kingston sang it....

Today, the topic for my blog is...how to commit suicide....

IN THE HOUSE
lets narrow it down.....
1. Bathroom
- drink shampoo + chlorox (is this the spelling? Lol)
- cut your wrist and sleep in the bath tub (provided you have one)
- cut your wrist and deep the wrist in a basin (if you do not have a bathtub)
- knock your head on the basin and make sure you fall into a bathtub full with water (provided you have a bath tub AGAIN!)
- close the bathroom door and shut all the windows to avoid ventilation, then wash the bathroom with chlorox (the cholorine fumes will kill you)

2. Kitchen
- on the gas + shut all the windows
- start fire
- use knife (slit throat or stomach [seppuku], wrist....)
- wash your hand and touch any plug (make sure you stuck your finger at the right place)
- fill your wash basin with water and drown yourself
- break glass / porcelain and cut your wrist with it
- on the gas and let it fill the kitchen then start a fire
- swallow stuffs like medicine (overdose)
- swallow panadols then drink wine (high class ler....)
- swallow panadol then drink coke
- burn charcoal and close all the windows

3. Living room
- burn your television /computer and make sure you burn it with you
- plugs again (you know what to do)
- break mirrors(7 years of bad luck...lol) and cut wrist again
- bang your head on the wall, let it bleed til you lose enough blood to say....bye
- use a pen and poke your own neck (bleed till death)
- swallow stuffs
- hang yourself
- on the fan to full speed and jump right to it
- use your phone and make an appointment with a murderer

CAR
1. In the car (driving)
- bang to lamp post
- close your eyes, let go of the sterling wheel and press on the accelerator
- eat sleeping pills and drive
- find mat rempits
- speed on when its the traffic light turns red
- bang a lorry/ truck

2. In the car (passenger)
- disturb the driver (control the sterling wheel. close the driver's eyes...)
- open the door and jump out when the car is in high speed (make sure a vehicle will bang you)
- pull the hand brakes when the car is in high speed

MOTORCYCLE / OTHER VEHICLES
-refer to car

OTHERS
- bombing
- jump from 13th floor
- jump into a dam
- jump into mega huge longkang
- burn ownself
- bite own tongue
- jump into the cage of lion/tiger with chicken blood all over you
- put a bloody raw meat at your neck and lie in front of stray dogs
- put a plastic bag tightly sealed over the head
- run over by an oncoming train
- tying ownself to railroad tracks
- since we can't obtain gun that easily, go act like you are robbing a bank and provoke the officers to shoot you
- hide yourself in the fridge or freezer of a factory (freeze to death)

this is all I can think of for now....might update and add more when new ideas come....
hahaha...if only I can get ideas like this when I start to write essays....lol

stress

What do you do when you are stressed??

* act sad and get pity & attention
* bath
* blog
* camping
* cry
* chant some "effective" distressing words
* chocolates!!
* clean something
* depress
* dance
* do yoga
* drink (alcohol or not)
* drive aimlessly
* eat
* emo for a week
* exercise
* find friends to hang out
* gardening
* go clubbing
* harrass people through phone
* have a pot of tea
* have mood swings
* have sex
* jamming
* kill animals
* listen to music
* laugh
* meditate
* meet a psychologist
* online and chat through msn / yahoo messenger / etc..
* play computer games
* play with your pet
* play with some toys
* pray to god
* shopping
* show temper
* sing
* skip sleep
* sleep
* smoke
* starve
* stone
* stop talking
* study
* suicide
* surf net
* swim
* talk non-stop
* take drugs
* read story books (even if it's meant for kids)
* take medicine
* watch TV
* write essays / diary
* yum cha at mamak

I am stressed but couldn't find a way to release it.....

(ballet) exam

Ever wonder how's a ballet exam conducted? Let me describe the children's grade examination...

Children's grade examination consists of pre-primary to grade 8...
It is conducted in the ballet school itself. The examiner will be fetched from her hotel for that whole ballet exam week. Usually these ballet examiners are from UK, Australia, US....etc
Anyway, a maximum of 4 students will be in the exam room. The examiner will sit while the candidates will dance and let the examiner evaluate them. Marks are given and results will be printed on the certificates which will reach M'sia by July. Exams are usually during March or April.

Now, for major grades which I went for yesterday, its kinda same but the exam is conducted at the Federal Academy of Ballet at PJ and from Sept till end of Nov.

My ballet exam was at 4pm but I had to be in college since I have Mechanic's test. Felt dizzy and I could not focus on the test..was so scared and nervous!!!! In conclusion, I failed my test (I think). By 2pm I have reached FAB and got ready. Tied my hair, warm up and make friends with the other 2 that would be going in with me. For children's grade, the candidates are given 4 colours - pink, blue, white and yellow. While for my exam, we were given numbers. My number was 18....

The 2 girls that went in with me was from Maria school and Dance Art. My teachers kinda always laughed at the students that are from Maria because I don't know why. Anyway, my teacher came to give me moral support and when she found out that I was going in with a Maria's student, she said "one down and 1 to go..do your very best ya"...lol

Anyway, did my best (think so....guess so....hope so I) and hope I'll get good result....crossing fingers.. I was kinda jerky, in fact all 3 of us was jerky...pirouettes was ok for me and I noticed she always write my comments last. How I noticed?? I was the middle gal so my evaluation sheet was in the middle. I noticed she will write the far left (no.17) then far right (no.19) then the middle sheet of paper...

After my dance, she wrote quite long, I have no idea if this is a good sign or bad....but compared to no.17 gal's comment, I think mine was not as long as hers....Anyway, what's past remains as past, I cant change anything now can't I...

Got 2 scoldings or complains from parents for 2 days straight....have I became bad or have all my lucky star gone?? What exactly happened??
1st day (Wed)--- parents complain coz of fees problem..I can see that she was controlling her temper but her voice was louder and louder and louder....

2nd day(Thurs)---a gal's ballet class time was changed and I couldn't call her parents. So today she came and her class was obviously over. In the end her dad came in and started to question me. Both time, I was so scared till i don dare to swallow my saliva...haiz..human beings...

grr2

After hearing a few friend's opinions, I've decided to chill for 1 week and decide whether to forgive that person. Why?? Because someone told me a somewhat true fact....
~~~When you are down and out, you tend to do stupid stuff at the wrong time...

So maybe he was down and out and did a stupid act at a wrong time that cost him our friendship...
Anyway, ignored his calls an smses....decided to email him and I recall repeating the sentence---Give me one week to chill....but I have no freaking idea where is his problem in reading this few words. He kept saying hi and bla bla bla in msn....ish!!

Chill....chill.....chill..... to forgive or not to forgive......

pics for gathering...

Remember my gathering?? Well, my class's monitor took pictures, so let me show you here...

Can spot me?? Lai Thin and I was pulled into the picture and we were actually eating....just got back from fetching CH.
Standing far left is my "dad", the super genius Chui Hua, my 5M monitor Mei Jun and err Ting Loke Lim...

Again...see my cheeks...it was filled with food!!! Hahaha...look at LT...XD

This picture was taken because SOME people wanted to take. That SOME people is the odd one above...look at my "smile"...Love the lighting...hahahaha, at the almost right spot...

The 2 new gals are Chai Earn and Chiew Yee...."daddy" was naughty, thats why was caught by me...muahahaha....

The guys...presenting the always acting cool but not cool Steven Khoo, Yeong Ping, the always wanna be taller than me & succeeded Wann Huei and the most annoying & no more cute Seng Young.

Let me introduce from bottom far left: LT, "daddy" Wen Yann, Haze, MJ, CH. Standing from far left: LL, Siow Ling(aiyoh why covered), Kok Wei and (ahem) Say Wah.

The gals...sitting: from right is adrina, kerryn and...u know la...
standing from far left: Cheryl, Hooi Hooi, Ming Choo, Haze, SL and the most beloved Miss Teoh( Add Math teacher) and Ms Aw(English teacher)!!!

Everybody yea....rock your body yea...lalala....
that 2 extra guys is Chee Siong and Woon Loong...

We are such posers la.....love you guys much...

muakz!!

Ballet...pas de deux (partnering)

i was bored, so went searching around at you tube when I came across Swan lake. You guys know the story right?? Anyway, this is the synopsis and well, a small part of it. Ever see a guy dance ballet?? That guy's solo part is at about 6 and 9 minutes....enjoy^^

Swan Lake begins at a royal court. Prince Siegfried, heir to the kingdom, must declare a wife at his birthday ball. Upset that he cannot marry for love, Siegfried escapes into the forest at night. As he sees a flock of swans flying overhead, he sets off in pursuit. Sigfried aims his crossbow and readies himself for their landing by the lakeside. When one comes into view, however, he stops; before him is a beautiful creature dressed in white feathers, more woman than swan. Enamoured, the two dance and Siegfried learns that the swan maiden is the princess Odette. An evil sorcerer, Von Rothbart, captured her and used his magic to turn Odette into a swan by day and woman by night.

A retinue of other captured swan-maidens attend Odette in the environs of Swan Lake, which was formed by the tears of her parents when she was kidnapped by Von Rothbart. Once Siegfried knows her story, he takes great pity on her and falls in love. As he begins to swear his love to her - an act that will render the sorcerer's spell powerless - Von Rothbart appears. Siegfried threatens to kill him but Odette intercedes; if Von Rothbart dies before the spell is broken, it can never be undone.

The Prince returns to the castle to attend the ball. Von Rothbart arrives in disguise with his own daughter Odile, making her seem identical to Odette in all respects except that she wears black while Odette wears white. The prince mistakes her for Odette, dances with her, and proclaims to the court that he intends to make her his wife. Only a moment too late, Siegfried sees the real Odette and realizes his mistake. The method in which Odette appears varies: in some versions she arrives at the castle, while in other versions Von Rothbart shows Siegfried a magical vision of her.

In the original version, Odette and Siegfried, realizing that the spell can never be broken, drown themselves by leaping into the lake. This causes von Rothbart to lose his power over them, and he dies as a result. But many different endings exist, ranging from romantic to tragic.

In a version danced by the Mariinsky Ballet in 2006, the true love between Siegfried and Odette defeats Von Rothbart, who dies after the prince breaks one of his wings. Odette is restored to human form to unite happily with the prince. This version has often been used by Russian and Chinese ballet companies. In a version which has an ending very close to the original danced by American Ballet Theatre in 2005, Siegfried's mistaken pledge of fidelity to Odile consigns Odette to eternal swanhood. Realizing that her last moment of humanity is at hand, Odette commits suicide by throwing herself into the lake. The Prince does so as well. This act of sacrifice and love breaks Von Rothbart's power, and he is destroyed. In the final tableau, the lovers are seen rising together to heaven in apotheosis. In a version danced by New York City Ballet in 2006 (with choreography by Peter Martins after Lev Ivanov, Marius Petipa, and George Balanchine), the Prince's declaration that he wishes to marry Odile constitutes a betrayal that condemns Odette to remain a swan forever. Odette is called away into swan form, and Siegfried is left alone in grief as the curtain falls.

Below is the part where Odile(the evil one) dances with the prince. Look at how she does her pirouettes!! doubles, triples!!! The guy is not bad too!!! His pirouettes...I prefer watching Mikhail Baryshnikov dance ^^

Swan lake

Another one....love her muscles!!! Now you guys know why I say the main purpose of guys learning ballet is to lift gals?? hahaha....
Sylvie Guillem and Jonathan Cope in Swan Lake

home alone....

Woke up in the afternoon by the song of jay's " ting ma ma de hua". That song is my caller ring tone for my dad, mum and bro.
~~hello..(blurry searching for my voice box to start the voice function)
~Wash and hanged the clothes already?? What are you doing?
~~Oh, I just woke up and will wash n hang la, don worry...
~Huh!! Now already 1pm la!!
~~ WHAT!!!!! CANNOT BE!!! HONEST??!!
~ yalah..what time did you sleep last night? Anyway, Min and I are at Melaka now. You go call koko and bring you out for lunch ok!! He is sleeping is it??
~~Ya, aiyah, never mind la...will gao dim myself.....

First time, ok, maybe not the 1st time but wow, waking up at 1pm is something extraordinary for me. Wait, It rained..ya...whatever..anyway, I'm all alone (ignore my sleeping bro). Did the chores and was reading the usual Saturday paper when I came across one of my Star 2nd section Saturday article. Its about cats and about the author's 2 cats. OMG, it was about Scoop (one of the cat) that died on 20th Sept. They replaced it with another new cat or should I say another new cat replaced that vacancy. Their cats are just normal cats that you can find on the streets.

Loneliness is as far away as where Dr.Sheik is. I thought without the noise created by my sis and mum will make me feel lonely but wait....why is my toe so wet and cold?? Oh, its Spritz (happily licking my toes)!! I'm very grateful that my bro and his friends brought in this cutie (maybe he ain't as cute as last time la). All those sleepless nights taking care of him when he was baby *ahem puppy really paid off by just looking at how he'll go crazy looking at food...lol

I wonder, what will happen to me when Spritz is gone. Will I fall into deep depression?? Will I lead life like normal?? Will I ever find the courage to get another new pet?? Will that new pet ever replace Spritz's place?? I'm sure by then I can really understand and feel the pain and hurt of breaking up, of finding out that your partner cheated on you...(what am I crapping??!!)

All the time in my room with the door open, Spritz was kind enough to respect my privacy a.k.a.territory in his dictionary. He just sat and lie down outside my room's door or should I say where my room tiles start.I cant stand letting him feel lonely that I went looking for his bowling pin toy that goes "squeak squeak" when you press it or when he bites it. This bowling pin was a gift from me (another way to stop him from biting me) months ago.

When Spritz bites it, he loves to give me that look. That doleful look that can be translated into ~~c'mon, play with me, I'm a good boy ain't I!! I wont play bite with you...I TRY to promise....please play with me..P.L.E.A.S.E....
In the end, instead of studying, I played wrestling with him on the floor..(don you dare think otherwise!!).

Of course no one emerged as winner because I have the brains and he has the strength. But I think I lose a little because I end up with scratches and blood but he just end up panting....ish!!
Hahaha...anyway, love him so much even if he nibbles (my mom's version of bite) and play attack with me....

Let me show you the recent big handsome SPRITZER....
Embrace yourself....
Do not, I repeat do not fall for him!!!

so handsome right??

getting ready to jump!!!
attack!!! Bite!! bite!!
Attack higher!! Go go go!!
The bowling pin toy that I mentioned earlier...
After attacking the immobile camera gal, he attacked the defenseless bowling pin...CHARGE!!!

Cravings....

Life goes on like usual. Ya, was a little too emotional but I just can't get the thought that he called me a fake out of my mind. Anyway, what's past remains as past....whatever... and ya, a little update, he did read my post and said he didn't mean me but...I DON CARE!!! lol....

And now, I proudly(and a little embarrassed) to announced that I had 3 scoops of Baskin Robbins ice-cream. Ya, I know, F~A~T!!!! But just can't help it. So to compensate back I skipped dinner (guilt feeling decreasing) . Let me share with you what I ate....hmm.....mmm.....

Pumpkin Cheesecake
Real cheese cake with graham cracker pieces and a silky vanilla creme ribbon wrap this indulgent pumpkin ice cream

Rum Raisin
Rum flavoured ice cream with yummy raisins

Maui Brownie Madness
Chocolate Frozen ice yogurt with chunks of brownie and macadamia nuts, ribboned with chocolate fudge.

The rum and choc is like usual. Now, the pumpkin cheesecake sounds weird but I mix it with rum raisin and it was delicious!! Previously I have tried another flavour which I forgot what was it called. Anyway, its green and has chunk of white chocolates....mmm....drooling...sorry....

Now lets drool over BR's other flavour ice creams....

Chocolate Mousse Royale®

A light chocolate ice cream with chocolate royale flavor bursts and a mousse-like texture.

Mint Chocolate Chip
Mint ice cream with lots of chocolate chips.

Jamoca® Almond Fudge

Our own Jamoca® ice cream with a chocolate fudge ribbon and roasted almonds.

Pralines 'N Cream
A tempting mix of white and dark chocolate ice creams.
Vanilla ice cream with praline-coated pecan pieces and ribbon.

World Class Chocolate
A tempting mix of white and dark chocolate ice creams.
Cookies 'N Cream

Vanilla ice cream with lots of cookie chunks throughout.

Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough
Vanilla ice cream with chunks of real semisweet chocolate chip cookie dough and chocolate chips.
Chocolate Chip

All natural vanilla ice cream with lots of bittersweet chocolate chips.

Chocolate
Our extra rich chocolate ice cream.
Very Berry Strawberry
Strawberry ice cream loaded with real strawberries
Old Fashion Butter Pecan

Pecan ice cream with butter-roasted pecans.

Pistachio Almond
Pistachio ice cream with roasted almonds.
Strawberry Cheesecake

Cheesecake ice cream with cheesecake cubes and a strawberry ribbon.

Banana 'n Strawberry

Strawberry and banana ice creams joined by a strawberry ribbon.
Cherry Jubilee

Cherry flavored vanilla ice cream with cherry halves.

Baseball Nut

Vanilla ice cream with cashews and a black raspberry ribbon.

Twinberry Cheesecake
Together at last.Strawberry & Blueberry ribbons team up in creamy cheesecake ice cream loaded with real cheesecake pieces.
Cappuccino Espresso Concerto
Creamy Cappuccino mousse with a touch ribbon of cinnamon mixed with chewy chunks of espresso chocolate and espresso ice cream .Love Potion #31®
Cupid's white chocolate & raspberry ice cream swirled with raspberry ribbon & loaded with raspberry - filled chocolate cups & chocolate chips.
Raspberry Cheese Louise

Low fat cheesecake yogurt with raspberry cheesecake pieces and graham cracker bits swirled with a raspberry ribbon

Drooling?? Oh no, my stomach is grumbling and looking at all these ice creams are just so mmmmm..come one everybody, follow me say mmmm......*silence

Ok, I know, temptation...MUST RESIST!!!! aaaaaahhhhhhh.......

Next time when you feel like having some delicious heavenly ice cream, just drop by here and stare at it for few moments....Gosh, I can feel the taste of rum now, at this instant....
OMG!! I'm floating....flying...
Ouch, banged my head!! Oops, still on the ground in front of the computer and ice cream no where to near me....

*dream~ dream~ dream~~~ dream dream dream........
If you can tell me the song title, I'll spend you 1 scoop of BR's ice cream. 1st come 1st serve basis. Quick while offer last!!

grrr....

Before I start to explode, let me calm down.....
Back to the previous post, I do not think that I might end up like Karam because I have Spritzer. You know what happened this morning?? I was happily sleeping when suddenly something licked my lips!!! SPRITZER!!!! Gosh!! Thank god my mouth was closed. Next, he climb up to my bed and started dog walking around my bed. Ish, really wake me up....

OK, now I wanna explode.....
firstly, let me show you what he wrote
---Ah. All these while mostly all 'good listeners' are all fake bullshit...Damn it...I'm lone ranger now, give me applause liao.

Why am I angry?? Because I know he's referring to me since he always tell me he has no friends. WHAT THE HECK!!! You have problem and you expect me to know when you just suddenly sms me saying I'm lonely??? Hello?? Who caused my phone bill to reach RM100?? Who make me crack my head to think of ways to cheer you up?? Giving you the best advices?? Now you say I'm a fake?? Let me get this straight...you have the problem, you feel lonely and I need to sms you to make you happy?? I'm not a psychologist ok!! I don even charge you a cent and I even PAY to make you happy!!!
So previously all the time, money and effort are nothing now is it?? Is it??!!
And another thing, you found your love and what happened when your that love was busy?? You came to me so that you wont feel lonely....so now what?? I am your free adviser and your toy where you can throw me aside when you don't need me and find me back when you are sad and down??

One is enough!!! At least the previous one apologised and explained to me what happened. BUT NO~~~~ YOU came to the conclusion that I am a fake and I am a cheater and I am...whatever dude. I am so gonna sent this link to you. Get angry with me, hate me, whatever....I DON BLOODY CARE!!!!!! Grrrrr.....

mental stress

After Biology class, went to visit Karam at the hospital. At 1st, Vic, Christy and I went to Subang Parade for lunch and to buy some fruits. We actually spent almost 2 hours there. Then when we reached the hospital, our dearest Vic was like 6th floor...but 6th floor was registration for outpatient...Anyway, found our way up and saw at the door

visiting hours 10.00am to 1.00pm and 4.00pm to 10.00pm

We were like OMG!!! In the end waited til 3pm. While waiting the Sultan of Pahang came and so coincidentally he went to the ICU too...so we can only meet Karam at about 3.15pm.
Karam was......blur looking. He kept looking at Vic and dream away as if he's in lala land. Its kinda sad to see him in this condition. The doctors checked everything but can't seem to find anything wrong!! So they conclude that the main problem is in his head(literally). He put too much stress on himself~studies, Uni application, family......For the 1st time I can't find words to talk to Karam.....sob

After talking to the mother I learned that he's always stuck at home studying and all....don't exercise much....It just dawned onto me that I might be the next Karam...
Karam and I have a little similarities. We put a lot of stress on ourselves when we study and all. I'm sure some of you out there reading this post have the same feelings. Deja vu??
For my case, I'm juggling between studies, ballet and time to study(all thanks to work). To find time to study, I have to sacrifice my sleeping time and recently I've found out it's affecting my health. In no time I know I'll fall sick but what to do?? I can't just leave my job just like that. Its just cruel.....

Imagine one day you visit me in a mental hospital, not because I became a psychiatry there but because I am one of the patients. Looking at you smiling and the next thing you see I stare at you angrily with my that beady small eyes.....*shiver, I'm scared too....

While typing these few words, I'm chatting with some lazy bums who wants my work sheet's answer. Hello, if you wanna "check your answer" or should i type the o.b.v.i.o.u.s-----COPY THE ANSWERS, you type lar, why must I type out every single word!!! Some more keep stalling me, keep typing ~~lol, stupid me..bla bla bla....gosh!!!! Make me online when I'm so tired!!!! Wanna copy, stay back lar.....NOOOOO....I'm busy, have something to do...yadadada... Whatever dude.....*role eyes

People say I'm funny, and I was PRAISED by professional comedians and its a group of them. Hmm...believe it or not?? I choose not to because I'm not funny....maybe just too straight forward sometimes(i hope not every time)^^

Oh no.....ballet exam coming...did I tell you my ballet fees this month is RM800??Ya I did...and did I add I ordered 2 new leotards?? When I tell my 2 ballet teachers, their eyes went O.O Even bigger than this of course.....

money...time.....sleep.....haiz.....

LIFE MUST GO ON!!! GAMBATEH!!!

updates...

Ya, have been busy with ballet and working and of course studies...you know, this month, my sister's and my ballet fees, total up is RM800!!!!

OMG!!! I was like, oh no!!! Plus I just ordered a new leotard and that production needs us to get a skin colour leotard too!!! Haiz...$$$$!!!!




On Monday, my Biology class was at first boring(shocking!!). Most of us were dozing away(hint hint...MJ!!!) Ya, MJ was let me describe...fishing?? Nah, she was lying on the lab table(god knows what chemicals was spilled on that particular spot) and her eye lids was open, close close close then OPEN, close close...etc...

Then we were discussing the pass year papers when we came over the word cob....Suddenly the whole class started to laugh(Thanks to Vic) and I was like ~err, did I miss anything?? Then that word keep popping up and the class was just laughing especially when it came to the word cob length, they laughed even harder and louder. Mr.Ronnie had to change the word cob to jagung....I was like ~WHAT??!! What's so funny??
Paul at 1st said I was slow, then innocent, then cacat....
Hello no offence but if I cant follow what you dirty minds are thinking about means I am stupid?? A big fat spastic person?? Must I laugh along to just FIT IN??!! Haha, sorry but I don laugh to fit in....I don care if I don fit in, as long as I am me, my true self that is not faking....
Actually, they were laughing because it sounds like cock.....swt....*faint




Spritz's god dad, if you are reading, let me show you what he has done to me!!! PROOFS!!!! (as if I'm complaining and filing a lawsuit....lol)
he bit my hand...for fun^^ The effect of i-don-want-to-go-home bite
playing bite and run gameloves my jeans so sink his teeth into the jeans and ME!!

And ya just to let you know, HE IS HUGE!!!! hahaha....

Anyway, it just dawned to me that if I fail to apply to IMU, I'm left with nothing. So now, what to apply?? Where?? What course?? Haiz, here goes again....

Before M1 test, I was talking to Jia Jin, Kelly, Jac, Alvint, Ivan, Vic and Golok. They were talking about clubbing(typical JJ), plans to get drunk and try new drinks(JJ was repeating about the flame one) and the recent fighting in clubs. Next, we went back to high school memories. Gosh I miss my band....a lot!!! Its been a long time since someone said I'm fierce. I wonder how's the band now?? hmm....

Lastly, I would like to bad mouth my dearest NG HON WAY!!!! hahaha...that fellow called up and suddenly asked me who's studying medicine. So I named a few male friends and end up scolded by him, he wants gals(Thank god he's not gay yet). Anyway, I hinted I might be studying but I told him loud and clear I DO NOT WANT HIM.....hahahahaha!!!!! Since then when he messages me and I did not reply, he'll said I'm ego..etc...blea!!! Whatever bro....
Honestly why in the 1st place we got so close?? Let me reveal a little of the history. Other than being prefects, friends, having the same surname and same post, many started to spread rumours that we are romantically linked....so to stop all these crap I started to call him bro and telling(sorry I lied) people we are cousins. Well, maybe we are, we'll never know.....lol

Anyone knows who people add you in msn?? I mean when you sign in, a pop up will appear to ask whether you want to add this particular person who added you. Well, I'm sure you know some email add are weird...so how do you decide whether to click yes or no?? What if that person is your primary school friend?
I recently added someone and that guy is a stranger to me. He is from Turkey!! So I asked how did he get my email....typical answer from guys--i don know.... but one thing he told---he has a malaysian gf that he got thru msn...lol!!!!

5M class gathering

Went to Lai Thin's house to go to the gathering together...the gathering was suppose to start at 6pm but well, you know la, Malaysian time plus LT and I had a lot to catch up. We chat til bout 6.30pm, then reached the venue by 6.45pm. hehehe...

Many classmates were there already and Miss Teoh and Pn.Aw was there too!! They are my Add Maths and English teacher respectively. Had a few chat with them and catch up with those around me.Later, my papa a.k.a. Wen Yenn decided to fetch our dear Chui Hua, so off we went to Damansara to pick her up. It was so fun looking at how pa drove. She admitted that she has no sense of direction and true enough, we guided her all the way. Went back to the gathering and the 1st food we consumed to fill our growling stomach was.......ICE CREAM!!!!!! Hahahahaha.....

Chat, ate, took pictures (the part I hate most), ate and chat.....noticed most of us didn't really changed much. Counted, 4 of us put on make up( kerryn. adrina, Siow Ling and Jing han). many put on weight, guys were more talkative than last time(or should I say lamer), gals were prettier, guys were the same, but honestly everything was like form 5.....

Saw a few xxx scenes!!! Gosh, feel like puking now. I was standing beside this couple chatting with few other friends when I turned to look at them (gosh why did I?!!). The gal suddenly touched the bf's face and I was like OMG!!! I quickly turned my head and continue with the conversation when I turned for the second time( WHY??!!), I saw the bf was massaging or should I say pressing the gal's triceps(it was full with FATs).
eeuuww!! I couldn't stand it so shifted place....

I was also affected by an incident. A friend of mine is sick, as in mentally sick. How did everyone find out?? One day(last year) in lab, this guy ran to a gal and sat in front of her. He started starring her and started laughing. the gal felt weird so shifted her place to the last table and that guy followed her. That gal scolded him and shifted to the front again and the guy followed and keep on LAUGHING!!! The next incident was he was caught stealing a camera then he stopped school. The teacher announced to the class he has mental problem. Now this friend I am referring to is a primary school friend that sat beside me in standard 4. We had a lot of laughs!! I remembered creating a game and played with him which left us in fits of laughter!!! So shocked to learned that he is mentally ill....

After the steamboat, we went to Spicy for second gathering and TAHDAH!!! Guess who I met....MEI JEAN!!!! hahahahaha.....chat with her for a while and went back to the table I was supposed to be. Gossips went around and hehehe....didn't wanna waste money so ran to MJ's table when she smsed(sorry la)....
*HIGHLIGHT!!!! Say Wah and Loke Lim are an item!!! omg!! like how MJ put it, weird ppl will date weird people!!! hahahaa.....eeuuww!!! Not that I have anything against them, its just well, weird. I didn't see them holding hands, just saw them sticking to each other like during form 5. But during form 5 there was another gal which we thought the guy was with---Yi Ling. Anyway, don't feel like talking bout them....hahaha

Anyway, honestly I've been out yum cha 3 times(including this time) and I found out the fun of yum cha. The 1st time was with Chee Yung and other prefects. It was after the prefect camp and few of us went back to clean up, so to show his gratitude, he treated us at Spicy. Second time was with RG and gang. He practically forced me there, so I was really not enjoying myself because I don't really mix with his gang. And this is the 3rd and best time!!!!

special thanks to pa coz...hehehe, my meal was free!!!! My purse was with her and she said she paid already for me. I thought she meant she took the money out from my purse but when I went home, I found out she used her own money!!! She even smsed me and said some touching words....(not gonna share) plus she fetched me home!! Thanks a lot!!!

And ya, before we left, Loke Lim was pleading LT to fetch Say Wah home but LT gave him the excuse not same road. Actually LT don't really like them, Wait, no one likes them...hahahaha.
On the way home, I suddenly got curious and asked those in the car how they went home and all of us were...i donno...hahahaha

freakin MAD

Lets talk bout the usual 4 hour break.....
I don't feel like telling the happy incident. Just wanna express a little shock and anger here. Went to IDP to submit IELTS form (Thanks a lot Karam), went back HELP to pick up Jac and Joe, went to a restaurant called HSBC for lunch. Ok, its not the HSBC bank but its a restaurant where they serve food instead of money.
We were on the way, correction, meters away from the restaurant when one of us received a call. That one person went and asked that fellow at the other side to join us for lunch when suddenly that fellow found out someone double park the car. Meaning, he's stuck at main block's car park. The next thing we heard was~ Karam, do you think you can turn back and fetch ***. What the hell, hello, we are so near and you want us to turn back all the way just to fetch that fellow and as if a Myvy is SOOOO spacious. Anyway, I was glad that Karam didn't turned back.
We found a nice parking place, sat down, ordered food and the next thing was~ Karam do you think while waiting for food you can go fetch ***. I was like totally bewildered!!!! Karam went~ after no parking.....
Hello??!!! Checking 1 2 3?? Are you mindless?? self-centered?? selfish?? desperate??
I was kinda angry when the 1st request was sounded. Too much til I sms Jac (didn't waste money, just typed and showed her) what was in my mind. Gosh!!! So kinda angry....


On Tuesday, few people came in our class to collect some money for a gal who needed RM100000 to cure her leukemia. I thought it was a charity run, collecting DONATION but why on earth people belittled those who donated a small amount?? RM2 is the minimum and when people pay that amount you say he or she kedekut. But hello charity comes from your heart and we are students...STILL STUDYIN!!! Just don't understand some people....aarrgg...


Next, J told me she was divorced few months back and today we had a chat about it again. Her story goes.....
She was living happily with her husband for 13 years. Got a child and everything was normal. Suddenly out of the blue he asked for divorced. Reason~ too bored of this life. But eventually she found out there's a 3rd party. Gosh!!! she didn't even expect anything!!! Worst, the 3rd party is not local and is not staying locally. That fellow always says he needs to go *** for meeting and never once did J doubt him. The reason of his meeting is to freaking meet that 3rd party!!!
This just makes me even more sure that marriage is out of my life. No commitments, no strings attached, no worthless sacrifices, no promises broken and worst of all, no betrayal feeling.
Can you understand the feeling of that betrayal?? You have been happily living with that partner for 13 years and with a reason-I AM BORED WITH THIS LIFE he just demanded a divorce. All this people really should burn in hell!!! Not enough, should disula!!!

I am so completely gonna stay single. Spinster?? so?? I don care.....

demotivated

I have no idea what happened.
I just feel sad and demotivated.
I just hope I can just sleep and sleep and sleep.
I know I'm running away from the problems but what problems am I facing??
I just (haiz) donno la.....

What the heck happened to me??

Bout the bbq party, it was great, fun and all.....wanna know more?? Refer to Mei Jean's and Jac's blog.....

U know what?? Just leave me alone ok?? Thanks

tagged...dead....

A Future Guy/Girl Rules:
The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover.Have to mention the gender of his/her lover.Tag 8 other victims and leave a comment on their blog.If you're tagged the second time, there is no need for you to do this again.Lastly and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.
1. always be there when i need him
2. can lead and make decisions like a man
3. loves me for who i am
4. never break promises
5. romantic and macho
6. sensitive to things around him
7. can always put a smile on my face
8. respect females
i tag whoever is reading my blog

5 Secrets, 5 Truths, 5 Things
- List 5 things that you want to say to people, but never will.- Don't say who they are.- Never discuss it again.
1. and you say u're loyal...LIAR!!!
2. shut up and leave me alone
3. who cares bout whats in your mind.
4. when will i ever feel that u've done ur duty??
5. i hope u just fall dead
I tag whoever is reading this